TenchiJK

Strange and Glorious day

2012-02-23T00:21:00.000-08:00

Dear readers,

Oh man... today was pretty amazing ahah. Well to begin I need to kinda back track and tell you guys what I've been thinking of and what I've been feeling. Ever since I've quit smoking herb, my mind has come back to me... and although it took me a while to fully be in my essence, I'm currently walking in God.

I usually go on little bike rides around my neighborhood. When I was back at home, I'd preach the gospel more then not. But recently, I started to get isolated in this world and my mouth was shut. I was afraid to preach the word, thinking if they see my life the way it is, that will only harm God's reputation. So whenever I would ride my bike , my heart would feel so condemned for not opening my mouth to passer-bys who were old,wrinkly and near death.

I would always think in my heart, how lovely it would be to be able to go to them and tell them the good news of Christ. Yet , my mouth was shut... and I went through a hard spiritual life. Long story short, I started to walk in God, and fully repented and did a turn around. My life is light. My happiness spreads to others like wild fire, and I'm over joyed.

So at school today , I had an amazing experience. After school, I was waiting for a friend to give me a ride, but she was late. So I went behind the school, passed the metal gates , which led me to a jogging/hiking path. I happened to pass an old Caucasian man walking with his equally old dog. Immediately in my heart I felt as though I should preach to this man... or rather just give him the gospel. Yet my body was frozen... I saw him chilling with his dog by the river near by , and I was so hesitant. However at that moment instead of walking away like I would have before, I stood my ground and prayed to my heavenly Father. I asked him to please give me strength that I may preach his lovely words to him. I was scared but I took that first step and walked down to him.

When I walked down, it was super awkward... He was smoking, and his dog was swimming in the river... quite adorable actually ^_^. Anyway, I had my ukulele and just started playing some tunes. This man seemed to walk further and further away from me and avoided eye contact. I felt as though I would just sit here and he would leave, and that would be the end of it... But some thing moved me over there, and little chit chat started up.

I asked him about where he is from, and how old his dog was ... then eventually I asked him what I thought about this world...Before I knew it, we were talking about politics, government, life and just the corruption of the world. Eventually I confessed I was a born again christian.

And to my surprise, so was he. haha! His gospel was solid! He knew God and walked with Christ for many years~ And instead of me giving him a preaching, I sat listening to this brothers testimonies of life and I learned so much . We both shared an amazing experience ~ in the middle of nowhere to find a born again christian, and to have a heart felt testimony was surreal to me. To be born and raised in different countries, and somehow meeting in a river behind a school one day... thats just mind blowing to me. I felt as though God tested me today, and allowed the first one to be a freebie ~ The next time, I will definitely gain a soul.

I was so grateful to my father, and I will forevermore praise him in these trying times. One day when we stand before his judgement, I hope to stand before him with Christ as my only mediator and be bold as to my rewards as he promised. That was my glorious day :).

-David-

feeling like myself

2012-02-19T09:25:00.000-08:00

Dear Readers,

Mannn... what is uppp... Goodness, it feels like a brand new day. Like I'm myself again. Believe me, I'm scared though.What if I jumped the gun? What if I'm just having a particularly good day today? I don't know, but dayum... I literally feel hella amazing. I have the urge to want to make videos again... and I have this urge to say hello to the world again.

I've been reading comments from YouTube,twitter,Facebook etc etc... and I'm just overwhelmed at how much people still love me and care for me. Man, it just makes me want to give back all the more. I just pray I can have the time and space to do it~roomies are hella home bodied lately...maybe its cuz they are all so cold. Weather wise, its pretty freezing over here...

Anyway, I just want to let my few readers of my blog to know i'm like pretty straighhht right now. I'm so excited to be able to talk with all of you , and start a new "season" of the tenchijk show puahaha... Whatever it is.

You know, I'm always so lost when it comes to what I am doing? I mean... is it a show? a reality show? or just my internet diary? Hey , but people seem to enjoy it , and that makes me happy as can be . So for now, I'll just call it TenchiJK live . I like the sound of that~ what cha think? ahaha

anywayz, love yous, take care~

-TenchIJK-

^_^

2012-02-10T22:16:00.000-08:00

So, I've been getting in touch with my old friends again. Its been so long :/ . I realized there are many people out there who do indeed miss me, and have been wondering where I have been. For the longest time I felt as though I never mattered to people... like I was some sort of bloop on a radar screen. I was surprisingly touched at their remembrance of me.

I'm closing in on about 1 month and 10 days of sobriety. Yes the temptation is there... always barking at me. I'm in at a film school, and everyone smokes. The sad part is, you can't socialize without smoking... weed that is. However, I feel like my life is more important then just socializing. The way I see it... I've done plenty of it ... and honestly, you don't get much out of it. It is great 'during'... but after you feel like shit. You feel worthless... and friends never have much substance.

All they ever talk about is drugs, and when it was the best for them... they stay the same, and never progress in life. Don't get me wrong, I was once like that as well... and to be truthful, it was a chillaxing time. Everything was so carefree... But I feel older now, and that I need to take control over my life. Good no? ahha yes yes good good :) .

nowadays, I've been up and down. Some days I'm on clouds, appreciating my new cleaner, healthier life. Other times I am a grouch, and hate everything about my life. I feel irritated and frustrated and feel the strong urge to pick up the bong again haha... but I've been through a lot, and I don't need more of it. I think I'm ready to move on with my life. See what life has to offer me.

While I was here in school, I realized film is not what I want to do with my life. I learned a lot of it , and if I needed to , i can make a nice film... and I probably will in my spare time. But as a career? hell no. I'm switching to Graphic design in the same school~ I'm so happy with this choice... I'm sure it will have challenges as well... but I always wanted to do graphic design. I pray it all goes well :).

I've been on a journey to find myself... who I am really. This journey has taught me a lot, and it changed me as a person. But I am very happy. That's worth it :)

-tenchiJk-

what up

2012-02-07T22:08:00.000-08:00

suppp~ I feel like my last few posts have been a bit harsh. But meh, I do mean what I say so no point really apologizing. That is how I feel about the world currently... I don't think its going to change.

Wanna know what I dream about on the daily... I wish I had enough money to buy myself like 30+ years of food and supplies so I can live on a deserted island. Let me see... I wanna tell ya what I would do if that dream came true ahha.

Things I would need for my dream to come true.

1. seeds. Multitude of seeds... and books on how to grow plants and junk. I would probably take seeds ranging from strawberries to ahem weed... I mean shit i'll be on a island all day , what else is there to do right? Might as well grow some opium while I'm at it ahah. But most likely, most of my seeds will be vegetables, and maybe some fruit trees(it'll take fucking forever though... but I gots time..)

2.Canned foods. Hella quality canned foods... none of that shitty stuff you buy at the store. I'm talking about turkey dinners, steak dinners in a CAN. Yes, they exist, i did my research ahah. I'll take enough canned foods to last me at least 20 years... cause I need that 20 years to set up my village and learn to self cultivate by then. 20 should be good enough to master my skills.

3.Crackers. No u racists, food crackers. They last forever, and they go well with EVERYTHING.

4.Tools obviously... many knifes, kits to MAKE knives, sharpeners, axes, etc etc... saws... hrm... hammer? yea.. hammer... all that good stuff.

5.books, tons of books. How to books, and even story books... and of course my bible.. AWWW...
But yea, magazines, you know what kind >.^ ... haha so inappropriate after the bible lol.

6. Toiletries. nuff said. can u imagine without any of that fluffy goodness? shiet... This is something that i'll bring that will last me 100 years lol. soap too~ and face soap, tenchis got to clean his face at night. Oh and tooth brush, toothpaste...floss...and um...body wash? and , and... and... that pumice stone for my feet...lolol jk. no fuck it, I ain't ashamed, pumice stone. Baby feet holmes ahahha.

7. and most importantly medicine. all sorts... east and west medicine... and ton of it.

I think I'm pretty set here....ohoh! pvc pipes! Many many pvc pipes.... LOl might as well just built a house huh? ahahah, nah but this be my scenario chill fools~

Reason I want pvc pipes is cuz I think i can make a shower with it... and aqueducts and all that roman jazz.

okay... So I'm on this deserted island by myself right... I have all this equipment and gear inside a cave. Protected by , ONE SECOND.. I forgot something. I NEED fire making kits. kk... action!

Okay, cave, equipment up on that bitch, and now I'm ready. Okay, first thing I need to do is put up some defenses... don't know what kinda monsters be lurking up on my beaches... So i'll stake up the place and smear monkey blood all over it... I dunno , monkey is really irrelevant, it could have easily been a koala for all I care.

Second... I need to make myself a nice bed of some kind. I'll probably think, should I just live in the cave? But i honestly would think thats cheating, so I'd build a house eventually. I would make the bed out of 3 pvc pipes side by side, tied off with some plant rope lol, then cushion it up with some bear skins... that I happened to have , cuz I forgot to add to the list lol. Shit just magically appear on this island? ahahah...

Then... I'll wait till its morning... I'll attempt to catch some fish with the basic knowledge I have about survival. I watch alot of those shows... so i'll test what my basic skills are... if I fail, which I probably will, i'll settle for some canned foods. But most likely I'll never get good at it until I run out of food, cuz then i would REALLY have too ahaha.But ill try my best to catch it , the best of my abilitaytays.

then...I'll began construction of my lovely bamboo house...I'll start off slow, and small.. and slowly add rooms. Rooms for poo poo, rooms for my coconut tv... and rooms for my bed etc etc... it will be awesome sauce.

then... id probably be like ... shit i'm bored... that's when I make a couch out of some material I find on the beach and cushion it with some bear skin... and some plant leaves.

Then I'd probably just smoke. Sigh... That sounds like... I dunno... boring yo ahahah. (not really...the view would be EPIC...)

I need to bring some people for sure. At least a good... 3.. or 4... but they all girls. No guys in my fantasy world. lets make it 5... nah, just 3... 2? 2 is better yea... nono they might lesbo up , and leave me to dry... 3~ 3 is a solid number fasho.

NOW, we are talking. this island just became WAYYY cooler, way to go man~

I'll start a new NATION~ i'll be the patriarch with 3 maidens. I will be a ISLAND VIKING KING ahahah.

nah, i wanna just like a humble life with 3 chicks . yeaaa~

or just alone with a volley ball, call it Tae yang or some shit . Nah, 3 chicks? yea ... 3 chicks mucho better.

Okay, thats that -_-''

-TenchiJK-

sup

2012-02-06T18:55:00.000-08:00

(kids, don't read this. Only responsible adults... alot of vulgar shitasu up in this beach)

yo... So I looked up at the sky today in my home town... Shit was cloudy and lined up like a coke line... It looked...wrong. I mean I know about "chem trails" ,but it stanked up the place.. It smelt like burning wood and chemicals...

Recently, its been getting worse here. Planes flying by on the double to spray these chemicals in the air. Many people don't know what they are, rather they just don't give a fuck. Let me explain what they are in simple terms... Its poison! ahahah... No foreals, its BASICALLY poison. It supposedly reduces fertility rates so they can depopulate us...SAY WHAT?

Honestly, I believe every word of it and MORE. Not only is it stopping fertility, I know its causing all sort of diseases in people...But there is no way to trace it, cuz know body suspect it...But if America can BOMB the shit out of our own people, they can EASILY spread toxic with an innocent label to make people sick as FUCCCK.

What chu think they are spreading up in the sky?! Minerals and vitamins? ahhaha... You think the government will spend millions of dollars spraying healthy shit in the sky so we live LONGER then we already do? ' So yea, we are spreading vitamin c , so y'all bitches don't get sick so often, you're welcome' Obama+ puppeteer.

Nahhh~ It is in their interest that we all die off... sooner the better. Think about it for a second... In this world ...well lets just say in America. How many people do you honestly think are useful in our country? I don't mean this in a moral kinda way. See through the eyes of an evil ,rich,powerful, indifferent ,elitist person. How many people , or how many percentage of Americans are actually useful in the betterment of the country? 30%? Doctors,bankers,politicians, yada yada yada... what about the rest... What about your ITT? Or costumer services rep, or your fast food operator... You THINK they are useful because YOU need them... but take YOU out of the picture. They are all their to babysit YOUR useless ass. (In the eyes of the evil bastard, I personally love you all, don't get that twisted.) THEY , let me clarify, THEY, the elitist bankers who own us by our balls, and ovaries. <-- unnecessary. But there is alot of crap I need to say.

We just consume!Consume! consume! we just eat our fat asses to sleep. We take shits after shits, we piss everywhere, we pollute everything! We waste gas, and electricity, and oil, and etc etc etc... We sit in front of our computer all day , surfing Facebook,twitter,YouTube etc etc... We are just a waste of space to these people. Sad reality...but its the motherfucking truthhh.

Have you guys seen "The Pianist" ? There is a scene where the jews were waiting for their train to arrive. Everyone is oblivious to what is actually going on. There is a funny old man that is not convinced they are going to get slaughtered... he says, nah they sending us to a labor camp~ we are much more useful to them. Then another more enlighted gentleman breaks that fantasy. "what? look at you... what can you do? look around you... that handicap guy is going to do labor? what about you? your old and weak..yada yada"
That old guy was so on point. To the eyes of the Nazis, everyone who was not of the Aryan race, or healthy , or smart , or useful to them in some way were allll useless. And even the ones that are useful, are on a longer ticking clock. There time will soon come after us.

This same thing is occurring in our lifetime. Call me crazy, but I call anyone who doesn't see this crazy. Open your fucking eyes! This isn't the life we used to live back in the 90's where everyone loved each other and the united states was the "police" of the world. We are slaves on the corporations. We are slaves of the invisible army . We are being watched, monitored, censored and just striaght up reamed sooooooo far up our asses we can't even breath straight! Yet, you all live in denial! You all live comfortably inside your wooden house with a GIANT TV and eat gourmet food... or frozen dinners that would be luxury for these starving gents in the world. We use water like its monopoly money. People around the world who CURRENTLY are indeed DYING, this VERYYYY second, would DRINK all off our BATH water and would smile for it would be a BLESSING to them. Have you EVER once thought of this? EVER?

It disgusts me when people think the world is a better place right now. We have allll this technology... but yet we can't feed the people that are bloating in their fucking stomachs. nonono, its not that we CAN'T feed them, its that we WON'T feed them. Do you know what? Because to them, they are worthless! They are nothing more then baggage. More mouths to feed, more people using up resources... And when they are done with them, we the lazy motherfuckers who don't appreciate ANYTHING are next.

You all SEE what I see, but want to turn a blind eye. Its true... its sooo convenient. Its so easy to just say, fuck them~My life's my life... This reminds me of a quote William Wallace said ahah 'aye,fight and ye may die, run, ya'll live, at least for a while.... dying in your sleep MANY years from now..."

All I'm saying is, don't get too comfortable. If your not a scientist, or a highly acclaimed person, or a person who sold their soul to the media ,or you got MAD connections... don't be so comfortable. Because , they WILL come for your ass.

They are getting rid of the ways we communicate with each other.. sopa? pffft~ there are worst things then that coming our way.

So what? Should we join hands and protest? ahahhahaha hell no~ that will only speed up the process. know why? If we attack them, THEY have the right to set up new laws to attack back.

Obama signed the approval of Marshall law... they will control us with military force?! ZEEEP. They ain't like your local piggies... they are brainwashed MORE then you can imagine. They are a brotherhood, and they WILL shoot you down ON command.

So what shall you do? Repent! make peace with your father. Make peace with yourself. Live life not in fear but the inevitable. Live knowing this world IS indeed crooked. Tell your closed ones and loved ones the truth of this world, and prepare their souls and heart for the impeding doom.

It might not happen RIGHT this instant, but believe you me... The government is WAYYYY past "doing something"... They have ALREADY done HORRIFIC things.

The only reason why you can't see it , is because they bombard you with BULLLLLSHIIIET. They bombard you with fake ass news to calm the population. By showing us KIM FUCKING KARDASHIAN . Or any of these soulless celebrities that bring a sense of fantasy into our dumb motherfucking lives.

okay...In all honesty, we have made plenty of mistakes and we should be ashamed of them. We haven't killed anyone or did anything to hurt anything ... it was never our intentions. However, by keeping our mouths shut, and turning a blind eye... we have indeed helped them easily kill the world. They commited heinous crimes. Far worse then several holocausts... yet because we cannot see it, or hear about we act as though nothing is happening. YOUR life is not the center of attention. Just because it isn't happening around you doesn't mean it ISN'T. THIS IS HAPPENING.

It is much too late to make a difference. It is FAR beyond anyone can imagine. All we can do is have your eyes open for signs of their move. We are playing chess with them and we are at check.

-Ten-

mah day

2012-02-05T11:47:00.000-08:00

So, I just woke up. Feeling tired. Hungry... shiet... I wanna eat something. You know what food I miss? Korean food.... dayum, some rice and kimchi and some seaweed paper... oh man. That simplicity in the middle of the night... I can't even ask for more. Well shiet, if you wanted to add more, i'd add some bulgogi and some red bean paste up on that biiiisch.

I dunno why , but I've been craving food T_T... Steak, chicken, porrr nah, i don't really like pork. Something about it being a pig rubs me the wrong way . I know pigs are "clean" animals, but I don't know I feel like a pig when I eat pugs. lol typo... Now i'm playing onto the stereotype koreans eat dogs. Speaking of pugs though... I wonder what they taste like. ahah horriblee! I know i know...

Just a little thought for today, will continue. Makes my brain feel refreshed writing it down on paper.. well digital paper. >.> sigh... lame

-TenchiJK-

Feeling happy again :)!!

2012-02-04T10:24:00.001-08:00

Dear readers,

The last time I left off I explained the struggles in my life. Whew... that was a mouth full I know!

I think the greatest thing I learned was the realization of my mistakes. I want to tell you why I fell into the substances surrounding me. I promise I won't be too depressing. My goal is to show you any one can fall and get back up again.

Many of you know my history to some extent, so I won't bore you with my past. movvving along~~~

Somewhere along the lines, I started researching the "truth" of this world. I know now the only truth that really mattered was the Gospel. However, I was starting to feel isolated in my own faith. People left and right were persecuted for believing in Christ... and I once thought I had the power to overcome such obstacles and put up a good fight but never with my own will.

I got this strange idea one day. What if I was to show people the opposite of the gospel. Let me explain... :3 I believe, there are always two sides to a coin ( so cliche yea?). No, but seriously , there is an opposite to everything isn't there? Well I believe so :/ . Since people didn't want to believe in the Gospel, I thought maybe by showing them the opposite , people would have fear inside their hearts and have the will to look for the truth.

Just like if someone found out about a disease ,people would then look for the cure.

I began my research into the occult, and searched for this esoteric knowledge. At first , it was intriguing,exciting,shocking,mind blowing and just straight up freaky. The world that I knew crumbled before my eyes... I saw things I shouldn't have... they were things I couldn't unsee.
I began to realize the world that I grew up in was a lie. Just like how Neo is awoken from his fantasy life, I too awoke from the veil covering our eyes.

However, unlike the movies... The reality was much more bland, dull, and just ... I don't know, REAL. Real as it can get... Why we are the way we are... Why we are disease ridden... why people HAVE to die by the millions every day... Why we use paper money that does not exist... Why we serve the elitist who laugh at us from their ivory tower.... and a thousand more.

It was an horrible eye opening. Instead of changing the world, the world started to change me... I started to get lost into this world... digging deeper and deeper, like Alice of wonderland. Learning new truths that shattered old truths. It was frighting... meanwhile I was struggling with my faith in God.

Later on, it started to drain me of my happiness... Food never tasted good anymore(like ash)... the air that I was breathing felt like poison... and I felt as though the animals around me were screaming their agony as their world was being striped apart from them.

Every night was a battle. From every corner of my mind, evil lurked. Every dark shadow formed into symbols, and visions and just wickedness.

I wanted to drown my mind with such things... That's when it all began... The journey through hell and back...

I started to lose my friends... my confidence, my humor, my voice, my loves and dreams... everything was being striped away from me. I started to see my life through the eyes of a new being... a crooked, more numbed down being. Everything seemed simpler when I was under the influence... Everything seemed like a dream, and I felt comfortable there... But as time went on, I couldn't stop it. I was feeding a monster that would only grow bigger, and stronger.

Eventually, I fell on my knees one night. While crying, and beating my chest... I realized I made a horrible mistake before my father God. I left him because I wanted to do things my way... I didn't realize I was merely a sheep lost in the wilderness. I thought by using my own strengths, I could conquer Babylon. I thought if I used my diligence I could and will conquer every atrocity in front of me. But i was wrong! I am solely dependent on my father God.

I repented, and turned my ways from the life style I lived... and He was merciful. He lead me to cool waters... and like a good Sheppard he tended my wounds, and placed me upon wondrous meadows. I felt love again. I felt happiness again. I felt as though my life was covered in pure light, and no more darkness came upon me. I was free, as Christ set me free from all the bondage of the world.

I will not fall in that direction ever again, as it is no longer my strength that holds me, but rather our father in heaven who holds us. He guides my steps, and I am free, and I can see, and I can feel, and I can live whatever life that is in front of me.

I haven't felt this happy since I was a child playing with legos and drinking Caprisun. Now a simple bike ride down a path gives me the greatest smile I can ever wish for. Food tastes so wonderful I want to cry! My tongue tingles at the sight of food! And my sleep is so wondrous , filled with happy thoughts and adventures! I can look at myself with holy pride, and I can look at others with the same confidence I had back when I had it. I am so happy I don't know what to do with it!

-TenchiJK-

Its been a while

2012-01-23T16:43:00.000-08:00

Dear Readers,

Well, about 3 or 4 weeks ago I made a choice to change my life for the better . I kinda want to bare all in this writing, as it is much harder to do in a video. There are many things that have affected me over the years, and I have much excuse to blame for my sorrow and sadness. But I think most of it takes part in the center of my heart. Somewhere along the lines I started to feel so alienated, so alone, and just different from people. I have a hard time connecting to people, and I have a hard time relating to peoples problems. I want to say it is because I am different, special , unique or just strange... but the straight truth is, I'm just a lost boy. (not ze vampire lol)

I feel like a lost boy inside a matured body. An aching body , that seems to break down due to stress and emotional discomfort. I've never felt this bad in my life...

There are many reasons why I find it hard to post vids, or just live my own life in general... I think it is because I am stuck somewhere between reality and fiction. Online, I am treated with such grace and honor... and people seem to love me regardless of what I say , and when I say it. Yet in real life, people don't give me the time of day. I can't seem to hold onto a conversation more then ten minutes without being so awkward i choke on my own saliva. I can't stand in front of folks with a charismatic pose I once had in my life... I'm always just... weak. I guess I was always like that, but convinced myself through youtube, I wasn't. I learned it the hard way.

Now, I can pinpoint where I made my mistakes. Clearly, the first mistake was to alienate myself from the real world. I felt youtube was more then enough to get me going... I felt as long as I had my fans and subscribers I'd be living the dream and all my dreams would then set into motion. However, this was just an illusion, a dream and simply a fairytale I chose to believe in.
The fact is, people I once held so dear in my heart were not real. The more I put my heart into them, the more I was disappointed, and the more I felt alone. I realized I can't meet any of them individually, as I could never fully trust them individually. I started to realize I am more alone then I've ever been in my life.

Second mistake I made in my life was to drown my misery in simple day to day drugs. The so called harmless drugs did more harm to me then I once thought was possible. I always convinced myself that , the drugs I take, I take, because I want to just have fun and experience a new adventure. However, this was obviously a way to drown my sorrows and to forget the reality which was my burden.

It took me a long time to realize this, but I realize this now. I quit all substances, and I quit blaming myself for the errors of my mistakes. I know now that these things occurred to me, so I could know for sure this was not the path to take. If I never went towards this directions I would forevermore be tempted and be in wonder. But, I experienced the harsh reality ... and I have awoken.

I am going through very difficult roads,and turns. I feel more anxious, depressed,alone and scared then I was previously. But this isn't real. This is just an illusion. Just like how I was led to believe the pleasures that came with drugs were real, once again , these menacing substances are shooting its last cannon.(withdrawal) It is trying its best to make me fall for it again and again... but ladies and gents, I am so finished. I want to be a new creation. A brand new me.

It is a scary journey indeed, as I am alone here , in a very unfriendly place. Or perhaps it is unfriendly because I make it so in my mind... but yes, it feels dark, and alone here.

I don't know if I'll ever be the same again... but I really wish I could be someone I can make my parents proud.. and the people around me. I want to be the light that shines as I walk about, and give joy to those who I meet. I want to be free from darkness, and forevermore be in the light.

I pray all who are going through despair look not upon yourself, but our Lord who created us. We weren't meant to live in this sadness. The earth is satan's domain, and along comes sinnful ways. I pray that all who are falling into the deep crevice of their minds be freed, and rejoice with me , when we see that light once more.

Thank you all, and I hope to show you my new light. :)

-David-

Randomness

2011-11-22T12:40:00.000-08:00

Dear readers,

Hey~ howdy? how are ye? I hope all is well in your lives. I know I dropped from the face of the world , and I truly apologize for those who are my fans. If you are wondering, I am doing quite well~ I am working hard on my film projects and have been involved in many shoots such as music videos and commercials. Currently I am working on a short , very amateur of course, a budget of one hundred bones... Just for food ya know?

I know many are waiting for my humble little videos, and I will deliver soon as I can. I always wondered what it is about my videos people liked... and I think i know now :) . Its that everyone needs a friend. Although many do not know me, many consider me a friend. A friend that will make them laugh, and think , and feel loved at times. A friend that can sing to you, and also put you to sleep. I am glad to be in a position to do that for people out in the world.

It always amazes me when i read mail from people from over the world. Its amazing how similar their problems are. A girl in lebanon has the same problems as the girls in georgia... Girls in korea have guy trouble just like girls in spain. Everyone, whether red, white , purple ,black, they all have the same exact inner problems. I love this about the world. We have the same problems... this is more then enough to relate. And when you relate, you can only but feel closer to your fellow man and woman.

I can barely look at my old videos, I cringe and squirm when I have to watch my videos. Lol. I guess as i'm getting older i'm becoming more and more self conscious. Beginning to see how flawed I really am... and I wonder everyday , am I worth being on the screen? What is my life really worth? Does what I say really have weight? I ask myself plenty of questions that haunt me day and night. But, you don't know how grateful I am that I can do such things. These are questions that can drive me to become a better person in life.

I'm so happy to meet new people every day . Many foreign men and women message me with their issues, and although its hard to read at times(broken english), its heart warming to see people still reaching out. To many people i'm their only source of confession. The type of stuff people confess is amazing aahahha... plenty of strange individuals with strange problems in the world .Things most people don't even worry about, people from different countries do

RANDOM THOUGHTZ

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My writing is so half assed right now ahah, i'm not even trying... Exhaustion does that to ya :> .

Every day I pray for people to sing with. People that have instruments out and just sing with me... I want to be in a musical environment... so badly.

I want to be in better shape lol... I've been so tired from shoots I don't work out... My body is getting bleeh...

I want to paint on a canvas and draw whatever comes to mind. I dream one day some french artiste' will come and look at my painting and say " ze painting is ze amaZZING" then I become instantly rich...lol

Have you ever wished one day you decide to help some old lady to her car or carry her grocery, and she says some shit like ' I have no family to name... and i have so much money , I need someone to put on my will... You helped me , so i will put your name." lol... shit... i can dream right??

Or... have you ever looked at some guy who is driving a porsche or mercedes and wanted to ask, Hey budddy~ can I have your car? ' yea sure bro, i got 10 of these in different color' Oh thanks mann~ VRRROOOOmmm...

Have you ever looked at a dog , and it tilts his head to the right and think awwww... then all of a sudden you wanna kick it in the face...? I have... i don't know why -_-''

As an asian person I am embarrassed to buy noodles or anything stereotypically asian, just to avoid the- " typical... of COURSE he would get the noodles." ugghhh fuck people ahaha.

Truth about penis size ~ it's false! ahahahha No but seriously, most likely , unless you are a porn star ... if your big, your only a little bigger then I am, if your small, your only a little smaller then I am. Thats how it is for most guys... so in all honestly, people are fighting over millimeters and cm's instead of inches. Pathetic really. Except when it comes to me, you'd be fighting over yards... My blog , fuck you ahah.

You know how they put brown paper bags over the girls face? I think thats so fucked up... and counterproductive.. why not just wear sunglasses, or those eye covering thang when you sleep. Or better yet, if the girl is THAT ugly... SMOKE up till she turns pretty.

I hate the term shallow... because if it fits your expectation it should be perfectly flat , not shallow... If she was ugly, it'd be shallow... Or Deep... cuz ugly fishes are in the deepest part of the ocean... hehe... I dunno, I personally believe you are attracted to who your attracted to. No body wakes up in the morning and force this upon themselves... they just don't. they live life, and one day see a girl.. and BOOOINNG~~~ she is amazing looking! It happens in a fraction of a second... So if someone don't find you attractive, just remember all the times you didn't find some ugly dude unattractive. most likely, to this particular guy, you are that "ugly dude". So r-lax.

I hate people who act and dress like a hipster but won't fucking admit it.. or even ACT like they know what it is. bitch please, you wearing what hipsters wear... wear it proudly or not at all.

I love watching old couples riding those two seater bicycles. I think its the cutest thing ever ahahah, especially if the old guy is a fat white guy with white hair.

I love when big ass dudes drive small ass cars... because I know they secretly think " Since I'm big and I drive a big car, people will think i'm confident enough to ride a small car, so therefore they will think I have a large dong". But truthfully, just because they are tall don't mean shat... just xl shirts, and 34-40 pants... bigger socks... So r-laxxx bitch, we all can see through ya.

I hate native americans who try to play of the "jacob" look... i think its so cheesy. be more original I say :/ .

I hate koreans who are over exalting themselves because of k-pop... Bitch, they ain't you, you ain't them. Have pride, but don't be so full of yourself to call other asians dirty. I'm tired of hearing that shit. All asians are amazing to me.

I think people should stop eating for a week every month, and see their own reflections. People have ate themselves crazy... Seriously. Stop eating so damn much. Stop blaming anything, or anyone... NO body should be eating as much as we eat now, there is NO excuse. If you find your self getting offended by this, then you obviously ate too much . Gluttony is a sin many overlook. Don't order a 3 big macs, large fries giant tube of diet coke... Even one big mac + fries + small drink = too much. How about a nice turkey sandwich with chips and lemonade? :/

I think people need to stop hogging all the damn money for themselves. We once started out equals... but now, we are all just hogging the SHIT outta the cash flow. How is it fair that some live in luxury , watching tv in high def . While some have giant stomachs filled with acid, and flies as pets. Fuck the world, and fuck the government, and fuck all the people who close their eyes to this shit.

I think people need to think more, and play less games. These fucking console games are ridiculous... You live in this virtual world filled with satanic bullshit. Occult. You no longer watch or listen to satanic media... you now experience FIRST hand the world Satan have made for you.

You know what i REALLY HATE? Dragons. When was dragons accepted as good creatures? People seem to forget the Dragon is the devil. "Dragon born" " Devil born" " You have the power of the dragon" " You have the power of the devil" ... A clever way to brainwash people to believe Satan is " good"... WAKE UP. Dragons are evil creatures that represent Satan.

It's sad.. because they make dragons so damn cool... it's true, they are awesome... they make you go, OoOOoOO~ Great beasts with wings that breath fire, AWEEESOMMEE~ but don't you see? Satan also have been described as the GREAT BEAST...CAAAAMOOONN~~~ R-Laxx

You know whats sad? Marriage! AHHAHA, what the FUCK IS THAT ABOUT? What happened to marriage? It's like completely a joke now. Let Gays marry, straight people fucked it up anyways. It's not holy, or pure... it's just a stepping stone for the divorce that will soon to follow.

Mac, is it really that good? WHHHATEVERR THE FUCK. Piece of shit macs freezes, and have no programs that are worth a damn. Fancy gadgets that shoot fireballs from left to right, but when it comes to opening a program that needs a certain program Pc has, BOOO~ it doesn't FUCKING WORK. Mac, is it really that good? Nah, it ain't. Good pc's are good. Shitty pc's are shitty. Macs are just macs...

I don't like guys who collect shoes. I think it's the silliest things.

Ah , something i wanted to add real quick. Cops. This is a problem lol. Think about this for a sec... Cops are people, just like us... yet they were trained and brainwashed for years to believe they are superior to us. That, they are different... and they are there to control the population. The truth is, they are pigs to the slaughter just like the REST of us. The people who live above the clouds hundreds of stories high don't give a SHIT about Cops or us. The sooner police realize this simple fact, our lives would be so much more free. These cops are led to believe they have power. 'just do as I order and you will be safe' This is the inner thoughts of cops who know the impeding doom. Look at these pigs with meat sticks hitting their fellow man. Just like the jewish police who beat their own people into the kill trains, so , also our cops are doing the same thing...

yada yada...

I dunno... I'll just keep writing some bullshiet... Whatevers comes to mind :) .

ah never mind, I got nothing lol .

-TenchiJK-

Weed has ruined me.

2011-08-20T12:13:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

As some of you guys know, I used to defend weed. I used to say it was the greatest thing, and it brought me countless joy. However, I want to really take this time and tell you guys the opposite. Weed is one of the scariest drug. I honestly NEVER thought this, but now I do.

I don't want to blame my whole life solely on weed, because that would be a lie. My life was my own fault, but weed definitely played a huge role in my failures.

I started smoking around 16-17, little at a time. It was exciting, and to be honest , the best time of my life. The thrill of scoring some new strain of weed, and smoking it with friends was my idea of a great time.

I ended up quitting weed for a time, because I joined the military at age 19. I really wanted to smoke , but I couldn't because of the fear of random drug tests; if I was to get caught, it would ruin me for life. Being sober had its down moments too, don't get me wrong... but i was much healthier then.

Long story short, I ended up smoking again. I made countless excuses for my smoking.

-I can't sleep
-I'm depressed, weed would make me happy.
-I don't eat so well, weed helps me eat better .
-I'm bored, it entertains me

etc etc... But what it really did was.

-Keep me awake throughout the night because things were tripping me out. Or entertaining me.
-Got more depressed, and felt so much anxiety.
-Ate more junk food, and began to get lazier.
-Kept me entertained, but when the high was over , life became that much more boring.

I hate feeling this way . I hate feeling ugly, and hate feeling so weak. I remember when i was in high-school I was so active. I wanted to run, exercise, swim, and just get healthy. I couldn't stand to see my stomach have any flabs, and would do massive amounts of sit ups. But now, I couldn't care less... and this is a problem for me.

I just wanted to take this time, and warn young individuals who want to start smoking. I can't lie and say its the worst thing ever, because its not. But, you must know, there is definitely some bullshit you will have to deal with. And if I could do it again, I would NEVER touch weed. Its surprisingly VERY addictive. I always thought I could quit ANYTIME ,but that shit was a lie. I've consciously made decisions to quit, but failed every time. Of course, many people are stronger then I am, and could defeat this addiction. But, I honestly couldn't. Most people cannot quit. It's abnormal for people to be able to just drop it.

I still think weed is an amazing plant. It does things you cannot imagine, its a fantastic plant. But, its so easy to abuse it. Its too easy to just fall into its temptation. Its like putting tuna in front of a cat , and telling the cat , just nibble on it ... and eat small portions. The cat would circle this tuna every hour, and eat all of it. NOM NOM NOM.

There are many people who would say I'm a little bitch for quitting weed. That's the weird thing i noticed about weed smokers. If anyone decides to make their life better by quitting weed, they label you as a loser for some odd reason. like your not " down" anymore. Your not fighting the "power". But fuck all that! When I'm high I become a sheep. I cannot think for myself, and i tend to just blend in with everyone else. I'm so tired of be subservient. Being sober is fighting the power.

I still believe that weed SHOULD be Legal. Only because there are many benefits that come with it. But who knows, life could be more shittier with it legal~ call it a wild card i dunno.

But anyway... I woke up this morning, and realized all the mess I've made in my apartment. Dishes piled up, stove all crusty with food I've cooked. Pieces of rice, spam, carrots, corn... and I had no idea I made this mess. Then I started to feel very self conscious... began to realize, my roommates might think I'm a slob now... ( they all smoke weed, so it makes it even harder to quit) I made a choice to distance myself from them. Not because they are bad people, but because they can function with weed, but I cannot. I tried... But I become a loser when I'm high. I'm not funny , I'm not active, I'm not musical (throats all hoarse) ... So I just become this carcass made from loser meat.

So, when I woke up this morning, I gave all my weed away , and decided to take a walk... and realized what I needed to do the most was to just quit smoking. I hope my character returns... because I miss him very much. He was much more confident, and was much more spiritual. He had a great walk with God, and he had hope, and he had motivation. Currently, I'm none of those things...

I've started to doubt the existence of God, I've lost loads of confidence, and I feel more lazy then anything else. But I write this, so that I may read this one day ... and hopefully see myself as a better person. I'm done with mary jane, and I'm starting my life a brand new.

Good bye Sticky icky, mister bubbly , purple hazy , mr kush...

-TenchiJK-

New short story

2011-05-02T19:00:00.000-07:00

Dear readers,

This is a unedited version of a short story I am writing. I hope you enjoy~

The beast have come upon the world centuries ago. Leaving no trace of human decency, and morality. Coldness approached the hearts of mankind, love no longer in existence. Surviving in the vastness of space, where only techonology flourish, no longer any sense of truth and virtue. In the chilly presence of nothingness people are humbled as they no longer can see without looking through the manmade glass, and can longer breath the air made by God.
After the great tribulation, many were cursed with the diease only known as " Black hearts". A complete loss of moral judgement, truth , honor and all of the virtues once known to man kind. Many have turned against brother, and murder their own kinds in the name of the beast in which they helplessly served. Only a handful of people were spared only to be sent out into the vastness of the empty universe. In crafts designed by men, using the techonology of old, they were sent across space to find life forms to help our cause. None was found.

Centuries later, our quest for life have failed us over and over again. Life was indeed truly special, and was no accident. As evident it may be, we still searched , only to be spat out into more darkness. It was only two centuries ago when we have ceased the search and began to build a new civilization . We aquired ungodly machines to play god's ourselves. Creating worlds , only micmicking what our world once was. Foolishly the scientist aboard the ship " The Corinthians V" , decided to add human testing into their agenda, and sent their first crew 15 years ago. None survived.

The air they breath was not enough to sustain the fragility of man. They tested countlessly , killing men by the thousands, trying to find a suitable place for the rest of the population. They chose the "pure ones" for their testing, men and women with the blood closest to the blood line of adam II. Adam II, the last man to be born with the breath of life as they call it... The people to come after him, were made. Made not from God, but rather from the wicked hands of Man. The naturals, they were also called, lived only as rebels, going against the population merely to survive and escape the definite doom of the terraforming projects known as "N. B" (new babylon). The company in charge of the masses were known as "The Ten". Made up of ten elders who have direct blood lines to the last ten elders on earth who once served the beast. Many who refused to believe were deemed traitors and were branded with the mark of seven. Now thriving as a independant force known solely as the " Kings".

I am one of the last , the patriot of life, the soldier in the mist of demons, and a righteous born man. The last king , buried in my own flesh , spirtually reborn into a place of sinners , and holding true to the message of our one true king. We will fight , we will thrive and we will have salvation. Captian Saul Nezzar out.

CHAPTER ONE- THE Servi Dei.

Its been 12 years since the last time I've seen earth. Only in digital image, is it worth a sight. The colors , just astounding. What is it now? Just an unfortunate mess, floating next to its worthless neighbors mars and venus. Sitting in this passenger transport reminds me of the good old days in " F-court ". Childern playing freely in the open field, tripping and falling on the metal floors ribbed with holes and bumps. The artificial sky to keep the childerns obvlious to the fact that they were actually playing inside a metal ball. I never had the pleasure of those lies, I had to face the truth since i was able to comprehend the world of shit i was born into. My father was never the soft type to ease me into the reality of things, what is was what was. Living up to his expectation was damn near impossible, So i never even tried. I was a nezzar... they had so much expectations of me, only to be dissapointed by my lack of strive. Well, here I am, looking for work in the very place I swore I would never return. These people dieased with the B.H, nasty little creature they are, dreadful.
' Entering earths atmosphere in aprox. 30 secs, please stay inside the cabin at all times, thank you'
I hate this part. The way it makes me feel... no matter how many times I enter atmo, i just can't get used to it. I also hate her robotic voice... I used to remmeber hating the humanoid ones back in 2202 , but now its not even remotely human. Everything on earth is robotic now , the voices, the movements, hell even the damn food taste robototic if that even makes sense. I remmeber going down to eat at Samuels the while back, found me metal bolts in my soup , probably from loose parts. Hell, at least on earth they have the good stuff... being as Good is no longer a part of the dictionary in this part of the universe. So take good lightly when I say it, it just means the rest of the universe is dispictable.
' Please be seated, entering Africas Dock , please take all personal belongings , thank you '
Like I said, robotic. sick of it.

Would you smell that? The smell of dead things... smalls things big things. Just things all around. Smells likes life. I guess if you get down to it, i'd say it smells a bit like shit. But hey , who am I to judge... I lived on a big metal ball most of my life. Place called F-court... One of thousand courts, floating out unnaturally in space cause big boss man thinks its cool to live out here. I suppose it is better then living down here, where people are infected by the black hearts. Luckily for me, its not contagious, you neither born with it or not. I'm not quite sure how it was spread, but rumors has it , it was spread during the great tribulation back when the earth was nice and shiny. But hell, its beyond repair now.
This place is more of a dump then I remmeber... I came here when I was about ten thinking can this place get any worse, just slapped my self mentally with this one. Look at this place... Got people looking raggity , eyes drooping like owls, and people selling shit no body needs. What am I going to do with a vaccum, gun is it?
I'll ask, hold on. " Sir what is this right here? " -ha, did you see the way he looked at me, all angry like. I can tell by the garbage thread is he wearing, business ain't doing well, that is for damn sure.
"sir... what pray tell is this beautiful machinery you got here."
"boys ain't buying, den git yer sorry hide bout my face!" time to move along, it will remain a mystery, this vaccum, gun , thing of life.
Life must be wonderful here in Africas , wonderful people, wonderful sights, hell this place is just for me. Lets see, we got , duck flesh hanging about in the stalls near by . Roads , bits and pieces of cement and little remenace of the streets of the old. Pretty interesting how they took the yellow dashes , and put stalls in each one. I could really do without the flickering lights above though, zoning in and out, getting brighter and darker. Orange was never my favorite color. They also added modified generators near those lights making all kinds of annoyance, didn't know they still had them. RJ 17 should be tossed inthe trash and replaced with the much quieter RJ22's...but hey , this ain't the courts, its earth.
People are staring at me. Strange looks, As if they see me only as food or something. Something about them is uneasy, they have this yearning to escape a prison of their own mind and flesh. But for mind dead folk, they sure do make a lot of noise. English at its worse I tell ya.
"Gat yer mees! Ya hungrey , i Kan Jell!" That lady is dressed like a whore I remmeber back in Uni. Court. If you never been to Uni. Court then might I tell ya. It was the worst court there was. Criminals, whores, idolatrous,and adultrous folks were admist there. The way they dress is not far from people, i use that term loosely, from this God forsaken place. " No, no miss... No meat for me, thank you"

Traveling on, i can notice the smell is getting to me. Never cried once in my life, but today seems like a good day to. Not because i'm sad, but hell... I am physicaly incapable of stopping my eyes from tearing up. Sour. Putrid meat. A perfect combination of diasatrious abomination known as the smell I currently am smelling.
Feet muddy, and body a aching, I find myself lost in this port of harbor. I was told I would meet someone here to get me a job I applied back in F-court. It's usually a simple process. Young men like me who earn there workmanship license get tested in various aptitudes, score high and you get sent into the Military, flying state of art ships or carry cargo. Score even higher they send you on expedition to further "our" empire, who knows what they do with no real law and all . Score low, and you get sent here , back to earth to harvest soils and other materials to extract them into new fuel energies. Yet here I wait, in the dangers all alone with a one way ticket to hell.

An hour has past, and that "mees" is looking less disgusting. Don't get me wrong , I still wouldn't touch it with my tongue, but my stomach would shamefully close it's eyes one time today.

I was wrong for before, I judged much too quickly. There are actually dirty and disgusting people here, but there are also monstrous people here as well. I don't get why they do that to themselves...self mutalation must be the on going fashion here, and look at where he pierced that, a spear? where is he, this is ridiculous. John Nezzer log off.

I woke up today cold as shit. The only place warm enough is now Africas, once a country proud of its heat and desert. It's now one of few places that can support some human life, other places drop to the tempetures my body wouldn't want to venture. Further out, I heard of rumors of more civilized life... But like with all techonology flourishing areas, there is bound to be a power hungry , sadistic, ruler that treat everyone of his subjects like slaves in bondage. Tis be true of all of Earth now.
Africas Dock, and this part of the nation is governed by no one. An Anarchy of some kind, but I'm convinced there is a ruler, just not present in the eyes of it's subject. Perhaps for the best.
I ended up trying one of the "mees" last night... shameful, disgusting, but suprisingly nasty. Later that night I met up with my corrospendant, who in return gave me no such apology, and demanded I show him my papers. After contemplating whether I should punch him in the face, I couldn't dread another stay here in the docks , and be tempted to eat mees again. I gave him the papers.
" What the hell took you so long!? I landed 7 hours ago! " I said furious out of my mind, shaking a bit from the cold as well.
The tall, brown coated, brown bearded man stared at me with indifferent eyes and picked his teeth. He continued to look at my papers, unimpressed, unethusiastic, and unfriendly like. He offended me. " hey, I'm talking at you! I said -" He cut me off. " Go down this here road till you find site B-14, you'll find Sertious I.I , insert your number there and get to work." He then turned his back towards me, exposing his long curly , feathered hair. He was dressed like a gentelman who failed to become one, a man who had no class, but wished for it. " Hey! Don't you turn you back on me!" I said bellowing out from the pit of my stomach. " I asked you before, why were you late! Where is my apology God damnit! " He kept his back hunched and continue to walk holding his arms under his armpits to fight the cold winds. I chased him and grabbed his coat , only to reveal he wasn't human at all. When i took his jacket off, On top of his shoulder was an anatomy made from steel with the name Sertious 1.2 . "shit..." I thought. I gently put back his coat, and it continued to walk shivering in the cold. " what the hell... why is the robot cold?"
Anyway, I ended up in a town near by , and indeed met up with Sertious 1.1 , who took my numbers and spat out even more numbers so I can get housed and stationed in the work house. After a short orientation, screams and warnings, I placed my belongs in my bunk and rested my head till morning when my shift begins. As the instructions were robotic as well, my attention was far from it, and found myself at a loss for tomorrow...
I looked up at the metal casing of a ceiling, and started counting the rivets, and engravings of previous worker bees such as myself. Wondeful penmenship, the lot of them. Beautiful poems of life and freedom, you know, the typical. " Down with the machines, Kings independant!" One was written. I had 4 other men asleep near by . Never got to speak with any of them, but they look like a friendly group...yea , was with them all day and haven't said the simplest of things, a hello. Great people. just great. John Nezzer Log off.

Woke up with - ' Work will comence in 15 mins, locking cabin doors, airlock intitated. Stay situated. Work will commence in 15 mins. '
I hurried and dressed into the uniform they had prepared. As I expected, hand me down. Had holes in this thing like morse code, or if rats had their way with it, sexually. My fellow room mates yawning dressed into theirs as well, quickly grabbing their gears. Laser tools, helmets with virtual imagining and some tools on what seemed like a utility belt. I found myself lacking in alot of the tools they had, maybe empty holtsers. I wasn't suprised in this heap.
"where are we going?" I asked the room. " Shut it kid " My eyes became large like the godamn lions from those geographic text books. "What the fu-" I got interrupted by the intercom.
' Warning, Cabin C-19, breach. C-19 breach. warning' . An alarm went off louder then the street of Africas Dock, and heard clamours and rustling of feet outside my cabin walls. I could not see anything, but I was damn sure someone was going to get shot, it had one of those atmosphere.
"Damn... another one this week..." Said the older male in the corner looking down. " I can't believe they got Sama , and Derekees bunk." Said the other close to him. I looked at them beweildered, " what do you mean another one this week? " I panicked, I was well aware they meant they died, but I wasn't sure why. In my mind I scenarionized some escape plan gone sour, and they killed them for it. But I wasn't sure, So I asked knowing I would be ignored. " what happened!? "
"just shut it new guy , just get your gear ready." Before I had a chance to react, the Cabin shaked violently. And Sounds of gears were heard throughout. Screeching, and pinching of metal gears bursted throughout our cabins. And even the more seasoned workers grinned alittle while our cabin B-14 lifted up , then traveled downward to the core of the earth. The room we were in was spaceous enough only to elude the title a prison cell. But it only escapes the definition. It was a prison, with 4 inmates, and one toliet. Where the feces and our man juice went is a mystery, and never asked. Wouldn't get an Answer anyway.

Moments laters, I heard a large hiss, and some clunks. I was sure we were in the core now, but strangely enough I heard sounds of rain. It started out tricklingly, but started to pour faster and faster , louder even. I've never heard rain before in my life, only the simulated ones back in F-court. It was amazing... amazing even still in the core. " where is that sound coming from?" I asked hoping for a real answer. The older male replied suprisingly kind "Something about ice melting in the other countries, It melts and drips down here from the other core entrances. That's about all we need to know" That made sense. " Kid, you know what that means right? Its only a matter of time before we get flooded in here, where do you think all this water goes? " shit. He was right, where does it all go? ' Flood gate 6 and 9 locked, bypassing systems , flood gate 5- 7 opened '
"the hell is going on?!" I said panicking. It was frightening to tell you the truth. The moment the door crashed open, I saw mass havoc. People from all different races, color, gender, just everyone I tell you was gathered in this crowd square. There inside a cavern like area, gluttered to the brim with water , was 4 towers on each corner. The sertius bots were stationed there keeping their electronic eye stationed on none other then us. Like slaves in the jungle, we were then told to march. Marching in the metallic floor dripping with water , the musty mud, and steaming from various heat spots wasn't the hardest part of the journey to work. But the work it self.
We were guided into narrow spikes which then sepperated into multiple different paths, and believe when I tell you, the road, is slippery. From far away you can see thousands of people tripping, and falling, grabbing and holding. It looked almost like trench warfare, without the trenches and plenty of rain. Many were bare-footed, and many dieases were a-foot. no pun intended. Grabbing onto my helmet I charged forward, fighting the rain size of tennis balls, and fighting the burning in my thighs. My eyes were getting slightly burnt.
"My eyes burn! Is this normal?!" I yelled fighting the noise around me. " get used to it kid, you think this water is pure? word of advice, don't drink it" I looked at him astonished " you telling me this just now!?" I was beginining to get fear inside my heart. I felt even more alone then when I was at the courts. At least then , I had, no actually I had no friends. Same shit I suppose.

The pouring rain continued, but as we traveled miles into our station, other B-bunk members were there waiting for us. We were their relief, and were here to switch off with them. Some who were good friends discussed what needed to be done, and some traded tools, and goods that might be needed that day . I just stood there like a stomp of a tree , sticking out like a sore thumb, hey look at me i'm new! " Hey whos the new guy!?" shouted , i'm guessing the foreman. " Hes a no body" He shrugged off the rain water from his shoulders, and walked off to work. " is everyone dickish around here!?" Fell into deaf ears.

"Okay listen kid, i fyou want to survive down here, keep our head down and your tools up! Just dig, when you find something shiny you scream , Found something boss! You got that?! Other then that , we have chow mid day and once when your inside your cabin. If you need to piss, there plenty of rain , pissin your pants for all I care. There is no breaks other then a 5 min smoke break, so if you don't smoke , too fucking bad. Now take this Goddamn tool and dig!"
At least he was informative. I looked at the tools in front of me. It was some kind of laser tool made from the same companys that shit out those Sertious models. S90, serial number scratched off. Not that it really matters anyway. I pressed the trigger only to get sparks of failure. No matter how much I pressed, the laser would not ignite. "boss! tool malfunction! "
The 250 pound man, gritty to the teeth came rushing pissed off. " Gatdamnit! Whats your name! " He grabbed my uniform looking for a name kind of sometime. Pushing me back he said , " give me your damn tool you piece of meat. " He started to tinker with it, and added some parts he had in his pocket. " you nezzers boy!? Ha, hey! this is nezzers boy! " I was suprised he knew my family, i was hopeful. A old, and battle torn man creeped up on me and said " you know dem nezzers killed thousands of us , I should gut you right here boy! " The foreman grabbed him with one hand and tossed him like a rag-doll " Get back to your corner before I break your hips old man, I'm not fond of the boy , but you gonna do his work!? Get back to work. "
"ha, a Nezzer, here in the core, ha! " He walked off laughing. At least my tool was fixed.

The S90 had a striking reach of 3 inches, so it was no weapon that for sure. I slowly broke away metallic stones of iron and nickel, and various minerals I never learned in school. A gruelsome day passed, and never once did I call the boss. Other veterans called him every hour or so, with something shiny , and were rewarded with a simple 'good job'. You can keep your petty compliments, just feed me, I thought.
After work we followed the same slippery slope, down the same muddy road to our cabins. Near our Cabins, amongst the group of people gathered like ants swarming a picnic ,laid lines of radiation-removal showers, and had places to clean our gear. It was all in pathethic shape, Rusty, squeaky , typical machinery for us slave folk. First day of work, and I still didn't catch any of their names, I regret coming here to Africus, regreting it all the more. John Nezzer out.

' Work will comence in 15 mins, locking cabin doors, airlock intitated. Stay situated. Work will commence in 15 mins. ' I groaned, and woke up from a sleep that was felt shorter then climax during intercourse. My body ached far beyond belief, as if ants were crawling up and down my muscles nibbling each and every fiber. Ripping it thread by thread, leaving it to dry in the sun, only to be buried in sand. My shoulders especially burned and throbbed ,almost screaming to be punched. Greater pain to dull the lesser pain if you will... My bed was mildly soaked from yesterday as I forgot to dry my clothes before sleeping, too tired, too lazy and now I pay for it with frustrating,sticky and icky piece of shit of a BED! === ' Lock down , lock down '====
A loud hiss was heard outside our cabin, and clamps locked every single one in a sequence, one after another. The loud bangs echoed throughout the metallic cabin, giving us a bellowing feeling in our stomachs. "Hey whats the lock down for?" I asked curiously as the alarms increased in intensity.
"Lets just say , you don't know what to know what else is down there in the core" My eyes widden. There is more shit I need to look forward to down there? Oh fabulous.
"hey , hey you ,what is down there...- matter of fact i'm sick of all this, What manner of people don't even introduce themselves! Why make it more awkward then it is!? " The room turned a blind eye and the room became silent. I became hesitant, and frustrated being in a room full of grown ass men , which I knew nothing off, and all refused to give me their names.
" I don't give a rat's ass about a Lock down, the longer it is , the longer I get to sleep." groaned one , and laid back down on his bed.
The younger of the four approached me as I grumply packed my gear. " Hey s-s-sorry b-bout that , mm-my name is Rodger, r-rodger, c-c-all me r-rabbit, they all do." He was a boy in his 20's , scrawny , wore glasses,cracked mostly , and seemed likely to be kind hearted fool. It was appreciated indeed, I just didn't show it.
" Bout time some one in the room introduced themselves!" I said loudly making sure they got my message. Then from the corner the older gent I talked to before stood up with his arms gently placed on his stomach " Don't take it too personal kid, we don't like to get to know new people 'ere. They don't last very long . This place changes folks... Don't know what much help it be, but names Solomon, that handsome looking fellow with the big fucking mouth is Fravu , and that mysterious one over there is Sand. You already met Rodger, I best you stay away from him, he will drill your ears with extra syllables you don't need. And you're John Nezzer...we heard" Solomon made an effortless boy, clearly despising me, and laid back down on his bed with his hat covering his eyes.
I tipped my invisble hat to the lot of them. Although we only exchanged names, My worries decipated.
"Nezzer... You Sauls boy?" sand whispered with his deep , accent filled voice. "How the hell do you know my father!" I rushed over to sand, a dark skinned persian engraved with mystical tatoos all over his body. His neck boasted a design of an ancient bird, with scriptures intertwining the birds neck and wings. He had a vicious scar from his left ear to his lower adam's apple. And something about his eyes told me, he killed many men before and felt no ounce of sorrow. Perhaps he did, feel sorrow that is, but his face was hard to read like the ever changing sands of the desert.

hello , it's been a while :)

2011-04-28T14:01:00.000-07:00

Dear readers,

How have you all been? Good I hope. Wow , I think this is the longest time I went without writing, or making videos and such. Kinda strange, but liberating at the same time. I've been busy with college prep stuff, and just looking at apartments. Pretty exciting , all this. Going back to school, meeting new people, moving to a new place... it just feels like I got an extra jump start on my life. For the longest time I felt stuck. Unable to make a decision in my life, what to do , where to go. But , I think for the most part I've chosen a path laid out for me by God. I think my mission in life is to become a director. Using the talents God gave me to portray his message through media. I always talk about the negativity of the media today , so why not, I, be a force to be reckon with? Why not I use this very negative media and make it positive.
Although many times I doubt my decision, and get really nervous at the obstacles laid out for me. So many people will be against me, and I might be a starving artist in the future ahah, but all in all, I believe God will lead me perfectly. And you will one day get to see my work in the big screens, and many lives will be changed. I think Youtube has trained me alot... how to deal with people, what people want, how they behave to certain things. I know its not much experience, but I hope it is enough to give me a grasp in life.

The question I received quite often was, will I be back. My answer is , probably . But I don't know how soon... I feel at a lost with youtube. I can't show my face on there any more... just doesn't feel right. But when I get the courage to do so , I will do so .

I just wanted to say thank you for all the support you've given me so far, and I hope I can make you all proud with the things I do in the future. I hope to live a wonderful life, and hope I can make a difference with the things I do. Once again thank you , and I'll see you all , when I see you .Much love, and take care of yourselves.

Your Asian friend,

TenchiJK

Why I was gone?

2011-04-01T01:06:00.000-07:00

Thought

2011-02-13T18:49:00.000-08:00

What if... just what if... IF was THAT. and THAT was THIS. AND this was where. And where was , hold on one second * smokes* ahaha just playing.

sup readers. How does it? Does it well? These days I feel a sense of ... freedom. A pounce in my step, and little jerk for the motion, and a little pull for the leverage. Why? exercise. Jogging. Eating healthy, which a lot of people are doing wrong now a days. <--- so true lol. >. >

I think a lot in my life... obviously. But, I think its a wonderful thing to do. I feel no hindrance in my life to think extra then most people are comfortable with. I like to challenge everything I see, with just cause of course. And only things that strike me initially as odd.

For example, in my daily life, I just live ... breathing, eating, semi-breeding (lol), or rather the ACT of breeding ahah. Then something would call out my name and say, "hey look at me! i'm fucking weird! " Then I take my time and observe, within seconds I realize, YES , you are Weird... I must know more about you my friend. Then my research begins ... And what I find in the journey is pretty damn intriguing, and exciting all together.

The things I find is sometimes very mundane, while other times it's mind blowing. Of course I don't hit jack pot all the time, but when that triple seven lands, boy do I have a mind orgasm. Now, I try my best to explain to the world my findings, but due to the cynical nature of the world, they will refuse what I spout... and that is fine by me :). I know i'm not always right, but what I know is right, is to challenge the minds of those who have been sleeping. One day, we shall see a resolution... and it will be God who will be victorious, not the evil soldiers of Satan . Till that day, I will be your host, and will provide you with truth and laughter . Much love from mister tenchi jk, aiko and the unknown cheetah baby. Till next time , bye byee~

-TenchiJk-

Hello, lets talk of heaven

2011-01-20T11:37:00.000-08:00

Dear Reader,

Sometimes, I wish I could be a cat. Or just a bird ... If I had to choose I'd be an owl . I don't know... many people feel being human is so great. I beg to differ. We are confined in a prison, with rules made by other men, who called it their own land because their flag reached it first. Why do we live in a society where we are told how to act, think, dress and even believe. We have false leaders who promise a better day, yet we remain the same or slowly decline. We have neighbors who smile but carry a giant knife behind their back waiting for the opportune moment to strike. If we were birds our only concern would be to soar through the sky, eat the food the world provides, and live in such a balance we can never imagine as human beings. Why do we as humans destroy everything we touch? It's so disgusting to see... and the worst part is , we worry too much about our own life to even care for anything else. Our heart doesn't have any room left for fickle desires to help the world. Perhaps Heaven is different. Much different. A place were there is perfect balance... Soaring through the heavens... Imagine what heaven would be like.
This empty space, filled with gas giants and planets a like may just be the tip of the ice berg. Perhaps heaven is beyond what we can even perceive. Just like how to an ant, the beach is the equivalence to the universe. The ant could never see the ocean for what it is, they are much to small for that... but imagine if heaven is the same way... if we were big enough, we might see the whole picture. A brand new ocean, a brand new world... what if the universe is merely just molecules for a simple rock in heaven...
The greatest part of heaven would be the changed people. The thing people enjoy the most in this world is the company of good people. You can be in paradise, but if you don't have people to share it with , it isn't the same... So heaven, like wise. Imagine heaven is a wondrous place, beyond belief, but you have no one to meet to talk to. Sounds like a beautiful hell to me.
So... The greatest aspect of heaven would be that it would be filled with wonderous people. People of all ages... who will look at you as their own brother. They will have no malicious intent, and would have nothing but love for you, and you them. They would freely tell you their stories, and you would freely listen and enjoy it dearly. Imagine the soft talks you would have with a person in jesus' time. Listening to their testimonies , and their trials and how they overcame them. And those who have been there for a longer time would show you the tricks of heaven lol. And the things you discover in heaven would be endless... each and everytime you would be amazed... and filled with utter amazement and wonder. First they show you flight... Flying in the sky at will. Then swimming to the depth of the ocean filled with wondrous animals God created for his own personal collection. Who knows. I long for heaven... I am so thankful our father in Heaven do not look at my good deeds, but rather in the faith in Christ a lone. I hope to see you brothers and sisters in Heaven one day, and If I am to go first, I will learn all the cool tricks and teach you all :).

Hello all~

2010-12-24T21:28:00.000-08:00

Dear Fans,subscribers and Friends,

Hey you guys :) ! Just wanted to say merry Christmas! And wow, another year has gone away , and you guys are still here with me ! That is really crazy to me! THATS BONKLES! You have no idea how thankful I am !

I'm wishing this coming year is a much better year then 2010~ I hope in 2011 , wow 2011 sounds futuristic , anyway, I hope everyone will experience something different in 2011. Whether it be some sort of enlightenment, or an increase in gratefulness... I just hope you all will gain something Divine , rather then just materialistic things. I wish you all the best, and from the bottom of my heart I love you guys! I would not trade you for 10 mil random viewers, to me, you guys are so precious. Not only because you watch my videos and such, but the fact you accept me just the way I am, and the fact you all encourage me through out my life . Thats why I love you guys~ so once again, thank you and merry Christmas!!

-TenchiJk-

GLEE cont.

2010-12-07T23:31:00.001-08:00

Dear Reader,

As I was reading through the comments , All I could say was "sigh". You guys are Only looking at whats in front of you, try to look beyond that!!!! Most of y'all got it, but for the few that are still confused here some clarification.

some people were hurt about my comment about the girl from glee, right? The people from the media ain't stupid... if they just put an ugly black women on the screen , people will catch on and complain. However, they made a clever way to make people accept it , and just live with it... or be content with it. Just like sheep.

The media makes you RELATE to the character on the screen. Someone that closely resembles the average person. Why? because by dissing that character is almost like dissing yourself. So you know what people end up doing? They settle for less. Also, this self hatred, self pity , and all of that comes from the media putting the negative flaws ON THE MOTHERFUCKIN SCREEN. EVERYONE has flaws, but why SPOTLIGHT the flaws EVERY DAY... for EVERYONE to see??!! You understand what i'm saying here?? AND IF they were to put out the flaws of black women, why not of white women? If everyone showed their flaws, it wouldn't be so bias would it? No it wouldn't, because we would all see everyone has flaws... But obviously its one sided. And the girl from glee is one of many the media had planted.

See how people get hurt when I say shes not pretty? People take it personally. Now imagine someone said Jessica Alba was ugly, or average. Would any white girl take it personally and feel self hatred, self pity and lose self esteem? No they won't .

Meanwhile , if someone says girl from Glee is ugly , who gets hurt? EVERYONE that looks like her. You know what that proves? That proves they are using actresses that are too average looking, and with too many normal flaws. While they use white actress that are flawless. Is it because white people are flawless? NO they are JUST like everyone else, there are beautiful ones and there are PLENTY of ugly women... But they rarely put their flaws on the screen. SO why should they put the flaws of black women so much on the screen? All these negative stereotypes and so on.

Going back to Jessica Alba... why don't white girls get offended? Because, although Jessica represents white women across the nation.. MOST w.girls do NOT look like her... she is WAY above standard. So thus NO one can say shit about Jessica, and that also means NO body talks shit about w. girls.

Think about what the media Mongers are thinking. I think of it as a basketball game... to make it simple.

The coach is the Media mongers... and the coach chooses the most fit, athletics members on one team...(the dream team) and all the nerds and nonathletic people one side(the minority team). When they play the game , obviously the nerd team loses ALL the time... They don't benefit at all. The nerd kids starts complaining a bit... saying the teams are unfair! But the coach is clever, he tells him, NO you can do it! You just need spirit! You guys are doing great! So the nerds start thinking YEA, we can do it! So they try again... Lose 100-0 . And every time the nerds try to complain they get convinced by the coach that THIS time it will work. Fails again, THIS time. THIS time. ETC ETC ETC. But then One day, one of the nerds says this is bullshit... calls all the parents , P.T.A and everyone... tells them the truth, how it isn't fair... So finally the Coach balances the team... But still he chooses the best players out of his group on one side, and give the rest that were average... So when they play the game, its 100-10... They still lose. But now, the nerds can no longer complain. And the Dream team wins every time. And because by now the Nerd team think it's normal to lose.. and the reason why they are losing is because they suck... but thats not the case is it. If they were to balance it out fairly... there would be good players and bad players on both side... and the score would be evened out.

-TenchiJk-

Glee casting...

2010-12-06T15:00:00.000-08:00

Do you get what i'm trying to point out? You see how unfair the casting is? In all shows, not just this... but you see how quickly the girl on the left gets over shadowed... it took me.. 5 minutes to find beautiful girls from both races. Why is it so hard for FUCKIN PROFESSIONALS TO FIND THE RIGHT GIRL? Simple, cause they want the other races to feel ugly.

I received a message from one of my fans about the comment I made about the girl from glee.

As much as I love you Tenchi, I personally see an over weight girl on TV as meaning that you don't have to be slim or a size 0 to be on TV and that as long as you have talent it doesn't matter what you look like, your talent and belief in your ability will carry you far. And I for one think that Mercedes is pretty.

"Thats cause you've already bought into the medias hog wash. Tell me if they ever done something like that for white people. Have they ever used a less then average looking girl and make her a star with that kind of message. " you can make it even if your under par" This kinda of stuff comes AFTER you've put a solid foundation, not when its weak.

For example... IF... The media had many, I mean MANY positive representation of black women in the past.. and IF people was content with the image of black women on the screen THEN it would be okay to have things like glee and such. However, The media is FILLED WITH negative stereotypes of B.W , ALSO , and the media made you guys settle for less .

For example, They've pushed the white female above all else right? choosing the most beautiful ,slim, PERFECT looking girls on screen. We've been watching them for years, thinking ALL white women look this perfect ( which is bullshiet)... However.. Black, mexicans, asians have very SHITTY representation.. The ugly ones, the not so shining representation.

And so, IF they made GLEE with a fat white lady , with that kinda of message it wouldn't HURT the white image. Because, they already have a very strong FOUNDATION. However, GLEE with a fat black girl is only hurting the image more... and the MEDIA WANTS YOU TO THINK... " yea, but shes still beautiful, she's been through alot.. " AND WHILE you think this, YOU'VE SETTLED... You don't strive for MORE. The media brainwashed you to be content with that, and think its "FAIR" ..

but Open your eyes, it is NOT FAIR. Do you know what propaganda is ? It's when they use schemes to make us believe something thats not true. If you watch that girl on glee over and over and over again.. you automatically start believing everyone that is a black female looks like that. The image STICKS in your mind... While if you watch ANGELINA JOLIE, EVA LONGORIA, ALL these hot white chicks OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN...that image sticks... and you think, all white girls WOULD look like that (even if it is not true)

It's fine to think Mercedes is pretty, and I'm sure she is in her own way... however, What you need to SEE is the STRINGS of the puppeteer. And WHY THEY did that...and you would understand why it is unfair to put Mercedes in the spot light. "

-Side note-

Just look more closely to the media and the surroundings... don't just buy in the So called "positive message " they shoot out. Because inside a positive message always hides a hidden agenda. White America has always tried to make us inferior, less beautiful , and they've been very successful at it... and if you think things got better, no. It only got sneakier and less obvious to the common eye.

They say White women are the most desirable . Why because they are beautiful? or is it because we see beautiful women that are white on the screen? Most likely the latter. Our minds are like sponges... It soaks up an image and it repeats it self over and over again.

To give an example... Asian men were not attractive at all in the past. But , here come k-pop, new media... they see handsome asian men on the screen. The images are burned in... its recorded in there minds... Thus now a attractive.

On the other-side, they say Black women are least desirable. why? because of shit like glee... Sneaky placement of ugly black women in the screen, and they hide it with a POSITIVE MESSAGE. Lets call it a gift wrap.

Now, lets see it in a different perspective. What if... every t.v channel you turn to, every show, every sitcom... had women that looked like Gabriel union, beyonce etc etc .. Basically girls on that caliber. What if even the Side characters, the supporting actors ,everyone that was a black female on the screen looked liked that?( AND it very WELL CAN BE, if the casting GAVE A DAMN)

For example, When they cast white people, they are SOO ANAL... Choosing the right height, color, shape, form... making sure they don't over shadow the main character, but making sure they over shadow everyone else. However, when they choose any minority.. they pretty much choose someone who will DEFINITELY be under a shadow ... making sure they don't shine over their white counterparts.

So this about glee... This is just one of MANY examples the media fucks with our minds. And you watch Glee and say, but she is such a role model, or some shit like that is because you hand fed bullshiet by the media. They WANT you to think that, and feel content.

ITs like BEING RACIST WITHOUT BEING OPENLY RACIST. They call it SATIRE lol, but its CLEARLY unfair and racist. Fuck the media. Down with the system.

p.s Look at my casting compare to professionals... Doesn't the black girl in my casting look beautiful and OUT shine the white girl? What about the asian girl, around the same caliber right? But look at the casting the so called professional did.. who is obviously the one outshining everyone.. the the white girl clearly.

second part of book.

2010-11-30T22:12:00.000-08:00

(Also not edited~ If you would like to edit it for me, thats cool too ahahah ~ but enjoy! )

Chapter 2-
"Hey you guys okay back there?" In the back seat were three girls I've never seen before. One looked about my age, and the other no older then 13 and the little one ,7. As Jay continued to drive ,weaving pass the empty cars, I poised myself and talked to the scared girls behind me.
I ignored what I saw through the rear window of course and talked to them.
“Hey , um... I'm David... weird time to introduce myself I know... You guys okay?” The oldest one stuttered and said “ Hi ,I'm Chelsea, this is my younger sister Charlotte, and the little one is Samantha. We found her crying by Forest mall alone, so we picked her up... Th...thanks for ” Jay interrupted “ Yea hyung! I picked them all up and I was like ready to bone out but then I remember you hyung, and I was like oh crap I need to drive by his house to see if your there”
I looked at my friend sincerely for the first time and said “ yo... seriously though, thanks man. “ A small smirk rose out of him, and he said “ dude, I got you man, I got you “
Jay maintained a cruising speed while we rubbernecked. Looking left and right , up and down, and just using our peripherals to the max. There were no building caught on fire, nor were there any accidents, just complete silent emptiness. Just us 5 and the things behind us, which I decided to ignore out of fear. The Van swerved constantly barely escaping the empty cars that were set up as obstacles. As Jay speedily drove further into town, we managed to escape. Nothing but hundreds of vehicles reflected on my side mirrors, as I stopped my fidgeting legs to a nice and complete halt.
“Do you guys have any idea what is going on?” Chelsea asked calmly. She too was looking around, gasping at the strange things she would see in the midst of the shadows. She would always shake her head as though she didn't really see anything. Denial always hits first I was told. “ whats wrong?“ Charlotte would always say. Her sister would always reply back with a gentle smile. “ haha, nothing I just saw a cat or something , no need to worry”
Surprisingly, the little one was able to sleep through all this . Tucked up in Charlotte's jacket and her head resting on her lap. As Charlotte ran through Samantha's brownish hair , she said to jay “ I..I..Never thanked you for ...” Jay quickly raised his eyes towards the rear mirror and said “ I'm just doing what any dude with a van would have done, honestly if I had a Porsche or something I would have just left you there! Haha just messing! “
The atmosphere inside the van dimmed down to a more friendly one, but yet the worries and the confusion ached their minds.
“hey, where we going bro? “ I said . “Honestly? I don't know hyung... I think we ditched those things 20 miles ago. “ I sighed . “ keep driving then … we good on gas? Shit. We'll fill up next station if we can.”
I turned on the radio to see if anything picked up, but nothing but static shot at our ears. The same songs that was repeated over and over on the stations became something of a luxury now. Only an hour has passed, and How I dreaded the silent car drive. The silence always brought questions unanswered, and no one to discuss it with.
In the back seat, Chelsea tilted her head leaning on the window as he stared into the sky. Every breath she took left imprints of her sorrow and worries onto the window which was her canvas. I guess it was safe to say, I liked her the moment I saw her.
“chel...chelsea was it? “ Her giant almond shaped eyes, and peacock feathered eye lashes shun at my direction. She looked quite tall, slim and I have to say ,pretty damn hot. She had long silky black hair which was probably the result of an excellent shampoo product.
“ Hm?” she said. “ I don't mean to be insensitive or anything, but where are your parents... is your friends around...? I mean , what I'm trying to say is... Look , my dad was there one moment and I turned around and he was gone! “ She didn't even look surprised.
“ Was he bleeding?” I looked astonished and said “ yea! It wasn't really noticeable at first but it started to come out of his pores on top of his head... I was gone just a moment to get some paper towels but when I looked back he was gone! “ Chelsea nodded.
“And... And.. by the way! what the HELL were those things following us!?” Jay started to snicker as he turned the car into an empty gay station. The weather was getting a bit harsh as the wind was getting stronger . I noticed the wind rocking our car side to side, and it made a creepy howling noise as it nudged between the trees. Jay turned towards me and said “ I have no idea what the hell they were. I never saw one up close, but as you can tell... I didn't want to stop and ask questions. I saw these three running from them, so I told them to get the hell in! “ I didn't know what to think.
“You know what I think...?” Charlotte said depressingly. “ I think we are already dead... we just can't find our bodies...” Chelsea looked appalled. “ Charlotte! That's creepy, don't say that! We aren't dead! Sweety why would you say that ? ”
“well what do you think they are then! Or why are we the only ones alive , and where is mom and dad! And why are we stuck with those two losers!” she said screaming and waving around with a dosage of a little bit of tears. Enters the little one who has awakened ,crying loudly like a coyote on acid. “shut up! Both of you! I'm sorry sammy go back to sleep! Oh my god, just calm down. Sam, just sleep it's okay, sleep! Do something Chelsea! ” My efforts to calm those too escalated the problem to a whole new level. I just sat back in my seat and let out a great big sigh... the same loser sigh I did this morning but with a little more oomph.
“ look for the sake of not confusing ourselves to death, let's just agree they are zombies. Okay?!” I said after reaching to a conclusion. “ Oh ...Hyung, you made her cry again..” Jay said. “ oh comon! You guys were thinking it too! Don't lie! Zombies , i'm telling you! Zombies! “

.“ Damnit... Look hyung i'ma go see if I can turn on these pumps, if i'm not back just leave , no i'm kidding DON'T leave me.” Jay quickly got out of the silver Sedona and ninja walked towards the gas pumps . He started to look around and looked completely lost out of his mind. “ what the hell are you doing Jay , hurry up ! “ I said while trying to calm the kids in the backseat. “ yo Hyung, I saw them do this shit in the movies once… where they just pump the gas in … how the hell did they do that?do I cut a pipe or what?”
“wait in here...” I said. With a frustrated grunt I pushed myself out of the van, and Approached the convenience store walking towards the register. I walked right in and the temptation filled my body... then I thought , it is more of an necessity then just mere temptation. I ran back outside and told the girls to quickly help me.
“ Look , I don't know how long were gonna be stranded like this,so we're gonna need food and lots of it. Chelsea take this bag and get all the drinks in the van! Charlotte get all the beef jerkies , and bread ! You know what...Just take everything!” As they quickly started to transport the food back and forth to the trunk, I jumped over into the cash register which had the computer still activated. “ what number are we !? “
Jay screamed out “12!”
“Premium it ! Might as well bro! Haha” I grabbed all the gum, candy , and those cute little lighters into my pocket. As I excitedly looted he place, I started to feel that gut feeling again .
“you guys?...” My words went to deaf ears, they were too busy filling the car. You could tell the excitement while they picked out what they wanted to eat, and for free mind you. However, I knew we didn't have all the time in the world, that strange feeling has come about me once again.
“ you guys! Hurry! I don't feel good about this ! Hurry , lets get back on the road! “

Always safe of the road

2010-11-29T00:01:00.000-08:00

-Always safer on the road-
( temporary title) Short story. written by : TenchiJK

Rough draft, not edited. Read at your own risk :)
(So there I was staring at my bread crust looking ceiling wondering where my life had gone. I was 23 , lost in my dreams ... I slowly ushered myself up and gave a great big loser sigh.You know, the kind losers make when they run out of steam. Yea... That sigh. I was tired , hungry and most of all bored out of my mind.
I dreaded going down stairs to face my dad, who would give me the stink eye for still living under his 'damn-ouse' he would say. Thats "house" for you normal English speakers out there. Every morning I would see him sitting on the maple table top, with stacks of magazines and new papers in front. The smell of marlboro reds permeating , the mini-snauzer barking up a storm and the T.V blazin with no body watching it. My Dad always liked the random noises it made because it would be less awkward in the house.
Since I was a child, no matter what it was we would have the T.V on in the background, like ambiance or something. It was strangely comfortable, even for me. We never really talked much you see. My mother was so busy with work , and my dad too busy being a preacher it just wasn't straight in my household.
So like every other day I woke up, dressed into my pajamas , brushed my hair and proceeded to go downstairs. I noticed the Floor creaked a little , but didn't care so much and continued to walk down stairs. However as I got half way downstairs, I started to feel my senses rile up. Call it my 6th sense, I bet we have it . My nose started to feel tingly , and my spine started to shiver . It was strange , It was like I knew the future before it happened, maybe i'm physic!
Anyways, I remember my steps became much more careful knowing something was wrong Just didn't know what. My first reaction was somewhere along the lines of me getting my ass beat by my Dad, but I was wrong. So very wrong.
The T.V that always turned to comedy , sitcoms or news was nothing but white noise. Hissing at me , making my sense even more flared up. My body knew something was wrong, you'd have to have a skin made of stone not to feel this icky feeling. Shit was real i'm telling you!
The lights were on steady , and My father was no where to be found. The seat that I saw him sit every morning was empty , and the news papers were also missing in action. Subsconsciously I picked up an clothes hanger near by, hoping I can do more damage then normal to a thief or a murderer. Idiot.
"Dad...?" I said weakly. "dad.." I said again singsonging. I almost pissed myself when I saw my dad sitting on the couch. He looked asleep , and looked ever so peaceful. My heart just sank, and felt so relieved that nothing happened to him. I dropped the hanger, and I saw the reflection of my face in the mirror near by and just laughed . " ahhh you were scared!" I said pointing at myself. I started to organize some things on the table and decided to give him a blanket to keep warm. You know, what good Sons do. However As I got near I realized he looked really sick... I mean really sick. The top of his head where he doesn't have much hair was red, boiling almost with unnoticeable amount of blood coming out his pores. At first I thought it was just sweat, it must have been. But as I further examined his head I noticed it really was blood! I started to shake my father, but he wouldn't budge .
"shit...shit..." I started to panick, and decided to go online to check out some symptoms. My hands were dribbling the mouse as I tried to go online. No connection. My panicking sky rocketed and ran for the telephone. No tone. "what the hell!? what is going on!? " I ran back to check up on my dad and he was no longer there. "dad?!" I started to yell as I crumpled the items behind me . My heart was racing, and thumping , and the racing and thumping combined to form something humanly impossible. " Oh shit I saw this in a movie once, this is not good " I said to humor myself.
This whole time I realized I never looked out the window... As I hesitantly opened the front door I started to think of scenarios of what could happen. "What if I see that giant U.F.O from Independence day? "
When I opened the door, It was completely silent. The gush of wind blasted across my face which felt more like a sting then a breeze. I grabbed the hoodie behind me and cozied up as I continued to walk like I forgot what just happened with my dad. I noticed the cars were all parked outside , which was strange because every morning the cars would be gone because they would all go to work. I was more confused then scared now, curious as the monkey him self. George.
As I put my foot into the door, I heard the engine sound I was very familiar with. The Kia Sedona. The car was filled with 3 people and my friend Jay was driving the car. Immediately my fear went away and relief came about me like I went number deuces in my pants. But it wasn't for long. " Hyung , get in the car!!! Quick! lets go!" Jay said as he abruptly braked in front of me. The people behind the car looked terrified , and whimpering . And here I stood looking oblivious to whatever was happening. "dude, what the hell is going on man, my intern.." Before I the finish "internet" , jay screamed " Hyung, we don't have time for this !! trust me get in!"
I didn't hesitate anymore, I realized now something was afoot , and I could ask questions on the safety of the road. He told the people behind him to brace themselves and he punch the accelerator. The car screeched and tilted slightly as he started to pick up speed. I sat next to him in the co-poliet seat and I looked into the side mirrors. I did a double take.
"what the F-------! ??!!" I buckled my seat belts. And looked Jay straight in the eye and said, "DRIVVVVVEEE!" The Streets were empty. The Cars were empty. The building were empty. Our whole town was empty! Except for what was behind us. )

Lets be Politically correct

2010-11-26T17:13:00.001-08:00

Dear Readers,

lets be politically correct for one gat damn second. This is about Thanksgiving . To me, Thanksgiving is no different then the situation with blood diamonds. You know very well people in Africa die in the thousands so ladies can wear a shiny stone on their finger. Now, people KNOW this... and knowingly what do they continuously say?
"well, what can we do about it? It's not like its gonna change... No need to complain about it ... etc etc " How about Not fucking getting a diamond? No? Its too much of a tradition? Worried about people looking down on you because your rock is too small? I wonder how small the African kid who found that rock was? 50 pounds? 40 pounds? And you still have the nerve to wear it proudly?
What about Thanksgiving? Do you realize there are thousands of Native Americans who protest that day every year. Year after year. They cry out to the public to stop this horrendous holiday. Or At least Change it, or call it something else. Because, to them it is a reminder of death, and betrayal. Yet are they heard? No, you hear this shit right here " Lets not be politically correct and just enjoy our meals " A.K.A " Fuck it , lets just eat, ignore those bastards"
Honestly, I don't celebrate thanksgiving for that exact reason.I wonder this sometimes,What if ... It wasn't Native Americans, what if it was Asians, or blacks, or Hispanic people instead. Would we still turn a blind eye and continue to stuff our faces , while they continuously hurt inside? One Ignorant ass person once told me . " I have an Indian friend, and he says he doesn't mind ... " That motherfucker doesn't represent the whole gatdamn nation. And just because one person says it okay , it doesn't make it right.
It's like Celebrating Hitlers birthday or someshit... And people tell you , " Yo, do you know what this day is about ? That fool killed millions of people ! " They would say " Man, that was the past, This day doesn't mean that anymore" Yea? Then why decorate your whole damn house with swastikas, dress your kids up as Hitler, and some kids as Jews. Then eat as a family telling them its a time of giving , and feeling thankful ... While the Jewish family next door is furious at the German household for celebrated such a day.
If you don't see the similarity then your fucking blind. Turkeys, pilgrim hats, Indian feathers and etc etc . Telling kids today is about togetherness and thankfulness, while infact you know thats not what the day was about. The Native American Parents teach those kids differently... and are feeling offended year after year.
People say, why complain about it , we can't do nothing about it. Yes the fuck you can! Stop celebrating that Gatdamn holiday. Or Change the theme . Doing a little to change something is a hundred times better then Knowing, and still doing it like your oblivious to it.

My visit to hawaii

2010-11-20T00:48:00.000-08:00

Dear Readers,

Hawaii... Pretty damn expensive mang! lol... Though I was expecting it, but dayum~ it really is expensive. And the food quality is off by miles... I honestly thought food would be exceptional there, However we califorians are too SPOILED. Cali + NY has the best restraunts around, thats a FACT.
I Never thought I'd get tired of the beach... but yep, it happens. The beach is about 50 feet away from where I'm living at... but often times, I don't even look at the beach as I walk right past it . Its sad really, I always thought waking up to a beach horizon would be the ideal wake up. But, nah... Like all things it becomes dull. The salty ocean breeze, and humid atmosphere. Not for me .
Can't say that about my Gf however~ I truly enjoy my time with her ! Though there are few awkward moments, and times when we share our human flaws... but overall She is a very wonderful host, and the kindest person I ever met. She always tends to my uncomfort , and does my dishes, laundry and even cleans up my clumsy messes... I'm always so thankful she does it out of love, and not JUST because. I love when we cuddle and talk quietly about whatever we want too.. and through this trip we have made so many inside jokes... from mostiquitos hanging on my cargo pants, narwals, nazi bites, war on communism on my legs and plenty more that will make NO sense to any of you all.

Also, her mother has shown me nothing but kindness ... allowing me to stay at her place , eat her food, drive her car, and even let me sleep in her daughters room. To me.. this is fuckin mind boggling. Only in hawaii is this possible?
The people here is hella awesome as well~ I met this older lady who works with My gf mother... and I talked to her for about 10 minutes~ and she liked me so much, she gave me 50 dollars so I can get myself a christmas present. How sweet is that really? Of course I ended up using it all on movie, ramen, candy and some anti-itching cream ( not for my balls! I got some nasty fire ant bite by the beach).
So far so Good~ But I have to say, there is no place like home. No matter how small, or crappy your home may be... Home is always where its at. I can take a shower in peace, go to the kitty box in peace... take as much time as you fcking want without the risk of people accidentally coming in and making a commotion. Home is always craved when I'm away for a long time.
Now that the time to go home is slowly coming my way, I don't feel regret or sorrow. But a more hopeful heart. Through this visit I feel our relationship has become that much stronger, and I know it will continue to be stronger in the near future. But , I can't wait to go home and eat some shabu shabu!! XD
Also, I feel very re-charged.. and ready to tackle some youtube video mania~ And I hope you all can give me some ideas , and support me till I get somewhere XD . take care all! and its your friend , and brother Tenchijk.

Read this my Brothers and sisters and Know!

2010-11-04T00:34:00.001-07:00

Dear Readers,

I will attempt to open your eyes about Christianity, and it many attackers. I want to reveal Satan's tricks and his disease amongst the nation. I will try to keep it simple, and straight to the point.

Many new conspiracies are coming about. Mostly about Kemet... Saying Christianity is based off Egyptian mythology, and its irrefutable similarities. I admit, as I was researching these theories I was shocked ... very shocked. Do not be mistaken, I wasn't shocked because I believed it to be true. I was shocked because how it close it LOOKED to the truth, but leaving no room to truly explain to non-believers.
To explain and defend this "conspiracy" it would take s much understanding of Our own beliefs. The Sad reality is, most Christians today have no knowledge of the bible... they are a rifle with no bullets... While there accusers are loaded with machines -guns.

The scariest part is this. True Christianity is buried underneath hundreds of false leaders, pretenders and representatives that don't really represent us at all. False Christians involved in free-masonry, illumanti, and especially the roman catholic church. Non- believers will use them as a source to condemn all true Christian. Without even us a second look, they stereotype us thinking they represent us as a whole.

There is a saying. As much as God works, Satan is right along side with him. That is the truth ladies and gentleman. Satan is always there countering God's every move. Making human beings further and further away from the truth. Truth that is buried with false-teachings that LOOK like its the truth. My father once told me what the scariest thing is this. " Things that are false , but look more true then truth itself"

The theory of Kemet is as follows. The Egyptians came up with the story of Jesus and the resurrection ... everything that we read in the bible is somewhat correspondent to the history of kemet they say. They Say Kemet was predominately a Black race , and its the Whites who took their story and made into what we believe as now as Christianity. -Now in the eyes of non-believers, this seems so correct, and evidence seems to support this theory. Only because what they are comparing too is NOT really Christianity.

They are using pagan catholicism and labeling it as "Christianity". Pictures of Mary and Jesus was supposedly Isis and her baby. The pictures look just like the ones catholics and those who falsely represent Christianity used to draw. -REAL Christians did no such art. They never regarded Mary to be a deity, or even someone close to worship. It was the pagan beliefs of Constantine who indeed stole ideas from the Egyptians, the Babylonians, and of course Greek mythology. (among other beliefs)

The catholic church killed millions of True Christians who had the true gospel, and murdered everyone who admitted to the salvation of Christ. They burned them at the stakes, TORTURED them , and mutilated women and children. Now... was this humans that did this? By all means NO! It was SATAN. He used the very essence that was supposed to SAVE us , into a weapon to kill millions. Used the Saviour himself to send millions to hell. Satan is so clever , his actions are untraceable , to the naked eye anyways.

The Inquisition. A deadly act, not of God, but by the will of Satan. It clearly says in God's words that no man shall do the work of God. Only God does his will. But yet Satan was still there , lingering around the world to make sure people use the word of God for evil, not righteousness. God Forgave all, accepted all and gave people love and embrace. While Satan, used God words to segregate the supposedly "holier" group from the supposedly more "evil" group. But this is Not God's teaching.

Now moving on to the present. The truth has been Swallowed by hundreds of years of tyranny by King Satan like I mentioned several times above. But, now that time is at it peak. It's scary times ladies and gentleman. The truth will now be COMPLETELY swallowed. Where we will have to stand firm with no evidence on our side.

We will look like FOOLS. We won't be able to open our mouths, but only have the TRUTH inside our hearts. Truth needs NO explanation. Our God above had given us the GRACE, and MERCY to believe in what we believe in. -That we are ALL equal. That we all equally were SAVED by our Lord Jesus Christ. That his Motive is non other then to save us from our wickedness, and this world of sin! That his Purpose is to send us all to Heaven, and live in his everlasting kingdom forever!

But , now that the time is NEAR. Satan is getting restless. And using all ammunition. Bombarding the nations after nations with his teachings. Non-believers are getting more evidence to support their own beliefs... that there is no God, that there is No salvation. That there is no hell. But, There IS a Hell. And Satan and the thoughts from Satan is whats keeping you away from the simple truth of God... and He will drag you to hell along with him. Hell was Not made for humans, but for Satan... but Satan will stop at no cost to take everyone he can with him.

However do not falter my sisters and brothers in Christ. Even though The road will ONLY get harder, and the roads only Steeper. Be strong we got Jesus in our hearts to guide our ways, till the end of time.
People will no longer give you credit for what you speak. If you speak the word of our lord we will be made mockery of! And Indeed we will be segregated once again! Not of COLOR, not of RACE, But because of our Belief In our GOD. Our God is NOT from the paganistic beliefs of Egyptian. Our God is not to be mistaken as a Racist. Our God is Our father in Heaven, and hallowed by THY NAME!

-TenchiJk-

The Hawaii Miracle.

2010-11-03T01:16:00.001-07:00

Dear Readers,

Life finally seems to take it easy on me. The tempest calmed down, and the sun started to glimmer across the sea. My prayer has been answered , and in the most unexpected way.

My Life has been so difficult lately, and I was seriously on my last pegs... Just ready to throw everything away and call it quits... but in the midst of all that, I remembered God. Why would he put me in this conditions... these damned situations. Why? Later on I realized it was all for my benefit. If God had blessed me sooner, would I have appreciated his works? Would I have second looked at an certain event and see it as a miracle?

Before, when I was going through difficulty, everything seemed like coincidences. Random events. But, going through hard times allowed me to see things in a different light.I Started to appreciate the little things I had in the past I took for granted. Cars I thought was cheap, and crappy was something that was out of reach now. No more bmws, or benz for me. But yet, I still rejoiced for the fact i had health and strength for the most part...

But through stress, and toils I started to lose my health and strength as well.
I couldn't sleep at night because of the worries of tomorrow. What shall I eat, how shall I proceed with this problem after the next problem.
What came after was fear. Would my life forevermore be like this? I was truly scared , and devastated .

Meanwhile, thousands of miles away I had a love one who was dying to meet me . A loved one who actually cared for me... Cried for me. Longed for me. And I too longed for her so dearly, but yet the measly things in life just kept us apart. You cannot fathom the frustration that came with that. Being so close, but unable to meet. Wanting to touch her skin, and hug her but cannot.
I kept judging myself , thinking why cannot I not even go see her... Why am I in this position of not affording the simplest of things. I was truly gone in my heart. I gave up.

Then a miracle happened. To others it might seem pathetic, and might not see it more then generosity. But, for me... it was nothing less of a miracle. A lady read my blog one day, and messaged me . I replied back with a common greeting ... which led to her wanting to support me going to Hawaii. I gladly accepted thinking it would be a modest contribution, some where along the line of 10-20 dollars. However, the next day I had just enough for a plane ticket...

I fell to my knees and prayed to God... Finally things are looking up... My life might have not changed conditionally, but this one event alone just gave me Hope! Hope, that in an instances things can change! Right now in the present things may look harsh, and it seems like it will never pass ... BUT IT DOES! It really does pass, and you see a new light! And this new light ... ladies and gentlemen is ... beautiful.

So to you, my miracle worker... Thank you. You were sent by God to get me back on my feet. A tool from God to make me walk in faith and Hope. I will never forget you and your help.
My love and I thank you from the bottom of our hearts. You helped me when I was at my lowest, so when I am at my greatest I will abundantly show you my gratitude.

-TenchiJk-

Daily Bread 2

2010-10-28T00:35:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

Still here? I'm glad :) . I was having an conversation with some former military buddies, and the "don't ask don't tell " issue came up. For those who are unfamiliar with it- it is a law that states gays are not allowed in the military. If you happened to be gay, you need to keep it a secret, or else the law will take into effect.

I remember making a video a while back about this. However, I feel I need to clarify things with words. If someone asked me if I was against gays, I would say no, but I have my reasons why.

Many Christians would point that it is a sin. How dreadful is the bickering of sin, sin , and more sin. Sin is an disconnection from God... not necessarily an action. For example, Adam and eve. Most people think eating the apple it self is sin, but if you read the book of genesis more thoroughly, you would catch onto some things.

Eve, gazed upon the tree and thought it looked Good to eat. Sure, that sound harmless in itself... but you have to realize something. God told Eve , and of course Adam, that if you eat of the tree of knowledge of Good and Evil, ye shall surely die. He didn't say, you will maybe die, or kinda die... you will surely die. Now, IF, Eve really had a connection with God, or had TRUST in God. And if she then looked unto the fruit, it would look like a DEATH fruit.

Lets say, I'm a father . I have a son. Tenchi Jr. I tell him, son don't ever eat this apple . It's filled with rat poison, and it will kill you! If My sons trusted me, would that apple even look good to eat? Knowing that fruit will kill him? or has rat poison in it? No right?

A better example... Lets say I have an ice-cream... And my daughter wants to eat it so badly. But I tell her, a giant bird took a big doo doo on it. If she trusted my words, would she look at this ice cream and think... MMMM~~ No, she would be like YUCK!

However, if my daughter didn't trust me... she thinks i'm stupid, or thinks i'm not serious, or just plain old lame papa... she would think what? There is no doo doo in that ice cream.. pfft, what does he know... it looks good to me . "it looks good to me~"

Thats what essentially happened between Adam,eve and God. Disconnection. Thus led to the Action of the sin, but sin enter before all that... sin entered the moment there was doubt in Eves heart.

Now, with a more clear understanding of Sin. Who is right in front of our God? The gay man? the straight man? We've all been disconnected by God through those two individuals... Only through Christ are we connected again. So once again, we as human beings have no right to judge . We were all shapened in sin, and saved all together into righteousness through the mercy, and grace of God.

The reason why people can judge another, is because they never truly took a look at themselves. When I looked deep inside my heart, I had no room to judge . I was so Flawed , and wicked, and evil in so many ways... without Jesus in my heart, it would just be a desolate wasteland...

And because I saw myself... how can I dare judge another? How can I say stop living the way you do! When I my self can't change the way I am.

But, something that needs to be mentioned is this. Whether you are gay or straight God does not care. He TRULY does not care about your sexual orientation. We are ALL FLAWED. EVERYONE of us. However, we all need to have faith in our lord Christ.. who washed away our sins completely. I have no idea if your life style would change in Christ.. whether you turn straight or not... Honestly, some say they can change in Christ... some stay the same, but they still have faith in Christ.

I know some born again gay people, and they are very bold in their faith. Which is awesome. They say, I know being gay is a sin. but, Jesus washed those away too. I have no reason to feel condemned, because Jesus had mercy on me. Some Christians might take that and say, WHAT? But, that is faith beyond faith. To throw away your guilt, because of the faith in Christ is an amazing faith. He refused to see himself as he sees himself, but saw himself through Christ.

overall, the convo I had with those military friends didn't end well... but I'm really Glad, God has allowed my heart be free from judging them. Because, we have ALL fallen short of the Glory of God, and we ALL have been made Holy/righteous through the Faith in Christ. Whatever your orientation. That - is the mercy that our Lord gives unto us. if you have time to protest, GO WITNESS THE GOSPEL INSTEAD.

-TenchiJk-

Daily Bread 1

2010-10-21T20:28:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

Today I want to talk to you guys about Cain and Abel. In Genesis, we know these two characters very well. The "good" son, and the "bad" son we were taught. But , I want you to take it a step further and think about it for a second. Of course, your buddy Tenchijk will be right there helping you get the bigger picture :).

First of all, There is a scene in the bible were God rejects Cain, and accepts Abel. Have you ever wondered why? Was Abel any better then Cain? Was Abel such an outstanding guy? By all means, thats all speculation... we just assumed that is the case , because thats how we set our standards of what Good and bad is.

Cain and Abel is a reflection of our lives in a way. Often then not, we are like Cain. Just like him we toil day and night . We sweat from our brows , and we give it our best. We take what we have done, and we set it before God's feet, and say " accept this Lord, this is MY hard work" . But, what do we always get in return? A cold shoulder perhaps? A prayer not answered... Most likely rejection.

Is it because our God is unfair? Is it because he is a Jerk that just wants to ruin our life? No way ! It is us who don't understand .

Abel Offered God something small, but it was the "right" offering. Abel didn't do much in his part, but the sacrifice itself did ALL the work, and in return Abel took all the glory. Cain on the other hand, worked Night and day. FARMING, is no joke people!
A lot of people think God rejected Cain because he only gave a part of his earnings, or he didn't work hard enough. That's BALONEY sandwich! Think about what goes into Farming. You toil the ground, taking out all the rocks and stones. You then pull the weeds out... then you do that thing-a where ya make that line in the ground.. >..> what was that called ?T_T... then you put the seed... give it water ... wait till it grows... days and days, months even. When it finally Grows, You then pick your crops... THEN YOU OFFER it to God. WHEW!

While Abel did what? Stand around... walked around. Maybe Played the harp next to the sheep... When the sheep was eating , he'd maybe lay about in the sun and sleep. Then when the mama sheep laid a baby.. he Snatched the poor thing and gave it to God. But yet God was Pleased with Abel.

WHAT!? So unfair ! Or is it? Abel, Had a relationship with God. How else did Abel know what to give to God. He knew the only sacrifice God would take was the sacrificial Lamb. Would Abel just one day wake up and say.. hey you know what would be AWESOME!? Lol

It shows Abel asked his parents for Guidance, Parents ,who HAD relationship with God. Abel ASKED, " father... I do not know God... I want to please him, what will he accept?" The father would simply rely " God, accepts the lamb :), because the lamb is the only thing(at the time) that can take away sins " On the Other hand.. Cain, what was he doing? He didn't care for God much did he.He only cared outwardly, but not in his heart.
He cared Only in his OWN actions. His OWN works. He trusted in HIM self. He thought if he Does his best, God will accept him . This is the same thought most people have in this world. They think, " ahh, the amount of work I do for God, Man... he is a G, he will accept me! DO you know how much offering I pay!!? Dude I'm set for heaven . etc etc " All in their own head. They don't bother finding out what exactly God wants.

Anyway, when it came time to give offering. Who did God accept? Abel right? Not because Abel was a better person.

If it came down to humanly goodness, Cain is far superior is he not? He is stronger, more built from working the farm, pulls his own weight around the house, he does more work and he is probably more respected for the things he does around the village. While , Abel is the loser, who is weak and etc etc .

But The only thing mattered was what? The condition of these two people? no way. It was only the sacrifice that really mattered . God would have rejected Abel if he gave what Cain offered, and vise versa. Same in our lives, Would God accept the Things of this world? or Just The Lamb? (Jesus)

Cain and Abel, shows us our heart in its very nature. Most of us want to go to heaven with the deeds they have, or will accomplish in their life. However, that will lead only to failure. Why would Cain kill Abel ?

Cainn Killed Abel, because he was SOOOOOOOO upset. So upset, because he GAVE IT HIS ALL! He serrriously gave God his ALL. FULL heartedly . Sincerely. Truthfully. He naturally thought in his head, the amount of Heart he put into this ,God will SURELY accept. But he rejected him as quickly as he accepted Abel's simple offering. All because Cain didn't ASK, or even BOTHER to Find out what God wants. If He knew, he wouldn't have gave the wrong offering , and wouldn't have killed his brother out of bitterness.

Like wise-
God will not accept Human deeds, God will not accept Human goodness. ONLY Jesus. The Goodness we do must come from Jesus to be accepted and then Valid. However, without the "lamb" we are just Abel without an offering. Abel by himself is nothing. He does nothing. Is Worth nothing. However, Abel with the offering , he is everything .

The kingdom of Heaven is through Jesus, and him alone. Not by your actions, or your deeds. How much Good deeds can you accomplish in your life time? Consider this... Imagine there is a bucket . A giant bucket. And to pass regulation, this bucket needs to have 3 million gallons of water in it. So imagine how BIG this bucket is.

Some people are so arrogant that they feel they can fill this bucket on their own. They see only a "portion" of this bucket, that they are oblivious to the fact that it's impossible to fill it all. To make it worse, imagine there is a HOLE in the bucket, size of a basketball. You fill maybe 100 gallons a day...some better people fill 200 gallons, but if it leaks out 500 gallons... Your in the same boat. EVEN if you were to fill 1000, 10,000 ... you would be able to fill it. That is what SIN is like . Some are better then others so they sin less, but they still have an empty Bucket.. Just a little bit more filled then the next. However, if the bucket isn't to the brim continuously , you do not pass. However, people use this against another... "My bucket is filled 3%... ur only at 1 %... "
" My bucket is at 40% !! " " look at your patethic bucket, I see the metal in yours"
But does 40% pass the regulation? Nope. 100% needed ... insufficient. How much do you think he would complain? WHAT!! I DID MY BEST! I TRIED MY BEST! I GAVE IT MY ALL!! HOW COULD YOU! <----- sound familiar? Thats Cain right there.

Now imagine , you got some help.. Help from someone really powerful... that says, "I can fill this bucket not with just 3 million gallons, but I have an everlasting waterfall... That pours 50 trillion gallons a second . That never dries forever. You get where I'm going with this... lol

The bucket obviously symbolizes Us and Sin. And how we will never be able to accomplish what the law set us out to do. Some will be better at it then others, but all in all, you cannot fill the bucket to the brim. However, Their are some who are humble enough to see that they are unable to fill this bucket. They have lost all trust in themselves, and they are in need to trust in something more powerful. They saw themselves for what they are... Screwed . So when they hear of the GOOD news. Of a Man who gives out FREE WATER! FREE LIFE! FREE HELP!

YOU TAKE IT MAN! You don't look back, or wonder why, or should I? No, you gain faith.. and you take his salvation. AND PUT your trust in HIM.
I hope this has helped you think further into salvation. Stay with God y'all.

-TenchiJk-

Ambw drama

2010-10-17T20:41:00.000-07:00

Dear Reader,

So much freakin drama over this crap... So exhausting eh?well for me anyway .

You know , i'ma speak my mind honestly here. If you get offended so be it. I feel Black woman got it really bad... not because of the media, but because of certain diseased black women. I might be too bold to say this of course, but over the time As I observed black women... I saw many who tried to get back up, and move as a whole unit. I saw many who were hurt because of the media, and in their negative experiences. However, Many, probably 80% of them stood their ground and they praised God that they were still Blessed. They had hope things will be better, and things will definitely change one day. AND IT WILL.

But! There is SOOOO many within the Bw community that just KILLSSSSS it for the rest of them. It's like they are playing tug of war... and all the beautiful, strong and willing black women are pulling there hardest. They have there feet in the ground, hands blistering ,and sweating. And these negative ass black women just standing there, complaining at the black women saying why you even trying? we ain't even gonna win, why try? Your nothing to them and you know it! You think they will give u the time of day?! Just bickkkering motherfuckers!

It breaks my heart to see these good black women who just ignore the haters, and they look towards the sky, sighing , wishing they would get support. But there are haters on the opposing side who is talking shit also . So in a sense, there hearing shit from BOTH sides. From black women and the enemy (who ever it may be) .

And as I see this happening, I get sooooo fuckin fustratedd! Thats why I spend hours and hours a day replying to all these negative ass black women. They say the WOOOOORSSTTTT shit. AND I told you guys before that shit was happening... But you know what y'all told me then? NO~ they are just white guys pretending to be Bw, or they are angry bm etc etc.. NO THEY WEREN'T. I knew from the start they were angry bw, but I kept it to myself.. and defended you guys till my fuckin fingers bled.

I had so much arguments with my ex gf because I would spend all my time on youtube replying to negative people. Here is the thing ladies and gentleman.. IF they were saying SHIT TO ME? I would pass it by like it ain't no thang. But, they are talking SHIT about MY Fans and subscribers. Saying shit about the good black women in my site. And you know how fuckin frustrating that is?!!!! Take Rahni Oates for a second, shes the greatest Black women I've ever met in my life. Shes a bit older then most, but she has so much class and poise and she just blows my mind away with her aura. But! these negative ass Mofos talking SHIT about her, Not only her but PLENNNTY of others who are just so positive , and energetic.

There are many times where I would try to ignore it, but it would EAT AT ME. WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU SAY ABOUT HER, OR HER?! WHAT ABOUT YOU!? WTF DID YOU EVER DO FOR THE COMMUNITY!? And just one after another... and I would just lose my damn mind!

Anyway.

I talk to many of my fans on facebook, and I talk to them daily. Many are hurt not from other men, but from OTHER black women, or black men. It's so cruel to see ! It's like these wonderful bw are building a beautiful tower made of gold for the world to see, but these damn trolls , negative ass bitches , just tear it down. I think it's because they know they've done NOTHING for the community, and they KNOW they won't GET SHIT in return. And they don't DESERVE shit. and thats a FACT.

I know most of my black female fans KNOW how much I care for all of you. I've shown it many times not through youtube, but through my actions via facebook, blogtv , blogs etc etc. I often try to show and tell you guys how I really feel. But damnit, my life hasn't been so damn good lately!
I've been going through a lot of hard times! Thus looking towards God more... but people are so selfish to tend to there own needs, and they turn a blind eye to my problems. Like I'm not even human so I don't feel pain like the rest of them... Pleaseee, I'm going through hell and back these days.

you know that girl friend people are trippin about?!

I've NEVER met my girlfriend YET! I've been dating her for 8 months.. and I've never met her in real life... CUZ I can't even make the gatdamn money to go see her. TRUST ME, i want to see her sooo bad. Makes me want to cry my eyes out.. how pathetic my life has become that I can't even make the funds to see her. People don't even realize how difficult my relationship is with my gf now, but they are so busy saying, "oh... shes not black... he doesn't practice what he preaches.. what a douche-bag... I knew he was a phony... he doesn't really care... he never cared for black women ... he , he , he" MOTHERFUCKER! DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG I SPENT ONLINE FIGHTING FOR YOU ! Let me please try just live my life ... PLEASSSSSEEE ... I BEG YOU !! PLEASE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why i like cats.

2010-10-16T23:56:00.001-07:00

Oh hai there~
Box muncher , ahaha~ this is such a cute cat.. Look at it's freakin eyeeesss! ahhh ... I how the mouth area is all :3!!!

me like chokolate... mew mew.. mai tail looks like choko! meowww! nom nom nom~

yea okay, enough cats for now ahah~

Dear readers,

Do you know why I like cats? You wouldn't have guessed but I used to HATTTTTE cats. I was one of those kids that used to get annoyed with anything catish... I just liked Dogs, and puppies and shit like that. But it all changed ,and I know why. It isn't because they are cute, or adorable looking.. because back then, even the cutest kitteh didn't phase me.. just eh~

But there was this girl I used to like. Typical TenchiJk drama ahha, but foreals. I was like in kid love with her. There were several girls at the time who were interested me ... but her... she NEVER liked me. She always looked at me with disgust, like she knew I was an arrogant prick or something. ( I was >.< ) And because she was so .. hard to get in a sense, my WHOLE attention went to her... needless to say, I didn't get much attention back. Damn whorrree!! Jkjk .. So I gave up, and just pursued my dating career elsewhere, where the waters were more friendly and not shark infested. However, these sixes(barracudas) weren't doing me any justice... I wanted that KILLER WHALE(8ish), SHAMU up in this bitchhhh.. So my attention kinda went back to her..

Like always she wouldn't give me the time of day... But one day, as I was stalking the shit outta her.. I found out, You guessed it, she LOVES CATS. Ahahah... and so I started to try to get into it myself.. to kinda, i dunno ... LURE her? Maybe i'd have something to say ? But you can't force someone to like something you know? And true to that testament, i really couldn't like cats... It was forced.

But one day, I overheard her talking to one of her friends, Cause i'm a stalking bastard ahah. And I overheard her saying that I reminded her of one of her cats. Bam~ I realized, OHHH SHIET~~ she might actually like me then? she likes cats,she thinks cats are cute, I am this cat, thus I am cute and she likes me!?

Later I found out her cat LOOKED UGLY AS SHID.

This cat rah here lol.

Long story short... I ended up getting mad at her. We were KINDA friends.. you know the kind were you just say hi once in a while. Have a little chit chat now and again.. but it gets too awkward so we don't say much. One of THOSE. So I got frustrated , or mad at her ... and I just blew up at her face. Saying my complaints, which now that I think about it was all because I liked her ahahha, silly me.

I ended up confessing how I really felt, and etc etc .. and after a lonnnnng awkward silence, and My eyes hopefully gazing upon her face.
She told me , she thought I was cute and liked me in a way, but I reminded her too much like her brother ... who passed away. eee.. I was like ouch. But did that stop me? no way~ I kept pushing it, while giving her a bit of space..of course, like a gentleman *tips hat* and then I asked her out. I had a happy 2 year with her... and Her dad moved her away to germany.. and never got to see her again.

But, the love for Cats some how remained... It's not necessarily because it reminds me of her, but I understand why people like them so much now. They ARE cute, and freakin Adorable... So I just wanted to tell you all a short, but relevant story to why I like cats :). Meow meow!

CATURDAY!

-TenchiJk-

to my blog readers

2010-10-02T19:53:00.000-07:00

Dear readers ,

This is just a friendly reminder that I do indeed read your comments. However, unlike Facebook or you tube, i find it extremely hard replying back to them individually due to the length and massive content in it.

One comment said she could not read me , because I am good at hiding myself. I completely agree. I got to a point in my life where I truly don't know who I am anymore. The way I present myself has always been forced by a situation or a condition.

For example, the way I talk . Though being brought up in a urban city, and having a lot of black influences, I CHOSE to be this way. I remember I used to hate being Asian, and used to hate speaking like the "white man" . I was torn by racism as a kid, and it just left a sour taste in my mouth. Thats when I forced myself into a different world, where things seemed more free. however, it proved to lead me towards a more negative direction.

I wanted to be invisible, and alone. However, I brought more attention to myself with the choices I made in my life. The people I decided to hang out with completely changed who i was. Deep inside my soul, there was my original self, telling me to throw away this mask I wore. All the same, I was scared to be who i was. More and more as times went on, the masks piled on. Layer after layer... slowly forgetting who I was. Ditching my identity to become some "thing" different. As I started to grow older, I was stuck in this casting I created . Years of calluses doesn't go away so easy, and origin of my nature was just lost.

What I'm simply trying to say is, I don't know who I am. I've been influenced with so many things, and I've became them. I can't say I'm making this all up, because I feel what I feel. I completely believe what I believe. But, deep down inside I feel like a lost soul wishing to just see a glimpse of what I am truly.

What scars I have you all may never know, and what pains I have stored I wish to not share. However, what I did learn from all the misadventures of my life is that, life is fickle. You get hurt if you do not form a defense. Nevertheless, your defenses will always break... always. Then you will find yourself lost once again, searching and searching. I believe thats when you find serenity. Calm , submissive , and your spirit gives up to a higher power. Out of your own stubborn mouth you start to confess your evilness. Things you would never think to say , or admit in the past. But, in the burning surface of your heart you let go all inhibitions and just let go. You tell this higher being everything you are ,and are not. Then you find your true nature...

So the top few paragraphs are indeed my thoughts in the past. Because I know exactly who I am. When I found my true self, it wasn't pretty. It wasn't the reflection in the cool still waters I was expecting. It wasn't as clean as I once hoped .

There, waiting for me was not myself, but a demon. Lurking about, telling me this is who you are, this is all you are. My mind and my soul fought diligently , convincing this demon I am NOT you, You are NOT me. Later in the midst of battle, the lieutenant which is my soul falls on it's own sword. My mind left alone unable to fend of the demons which that rushes me. In that midst, I saw a hand . A golden hand ,a peaceful grip, and a wonderful caress. A Saviour.

This man tells me, I no longer need be alone... No longer do I need to fight alone. You may not have strength but I have all the strength to the ends of the earth. In me, there is tranquility, peace, love and spirit. With the shield of Faith he comforts me, and with his righteous might he avenges me. He shelters me in his kingdom, and let no evil enter it's holy doors. Keeping me near by to heal my wounds, and bring me to happiness. I knew who I was .

I no longer mattered in the equation, but only his name . Whether i was confused , whether i was lost, the Sheppard did not care. I am but a lamb, lost in the vast field. He leads me to the green pastures allowing me to play and enjoy life... but when I am lost, he finds me till he finds me. The joy of having such a God, is my blessing. So I know who I am.

I am a son, I am his son, and I am righteous through his lovely sacrifice. The remembrance of that gives me all the peace I need. This is my own personal psalm, just like king David who lived before us. This is my song I sing to our heavenly father above .

I guess i need to end this with an amen?

-TenchiJk-

Life is a melody

2010-10-02T01:18:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

I , for the first time found a woman I can completely share my troubles with. I don't know how grateful I am to have found such a woman. This girl is so kind, and wonderful it just puts in at awe. She is so far away from me , but yet she feels so close ... Of course the pain of not being able to hold her and kiss her gets in the way. However, if I had to wait for someone it would most definitely be her. Today reminded me of how much I love her, and that it doesn't matter the distance. I have a return of passion in my heart, and I have the strength to keep on loving. I truly wish this relationship works out, because I have never found anything more pure, and real. This is the first real relationship where its foundation lies in our hearts, and our minds first. Physical comes next. Overall, I feel a giant load off my back, and I feel anew once again.

Recently, I've been going through troubles I really cannot post online ... I really wish I could tell my fans and subscribers, however as you all know that isn't all that possible now. Life is difficult at the moment, as it is with all of you all... just a bit complicated thats all. I pray God will rescue me out of this mess i'm in, and let me smile truly once again. I don't think I've genuinely smiled in a long time. I smile , laugh and dance for you all in the video, but as some of you know there is a crying boy inside. I really wish crying would stop and I really wish I can grow stronger.

I've become numb to the world, and I've become numb to myself. I really wish to escape this world, and go on ahead to some where peaceful... but life still beckons me to stay, and finish what I have came here to do. Will I grow old and dusty, or prematurely journey on to the next life? These are some questions I ask my self daily for no particular reasons... it just comes to me . It frighten me.

With all this said, I feel I won' t be thankful for what I have. however, I can' t deny the fact I got it better then most people. But my problems are difficult because they are set at my level. They are difficult for me, and I find it hard to defeat this problem. I just hope it gets better, i want it to stop hurting. I want to stop crying. I just want it to all stop.

I guess when I write these things, my emotions crawl out. It's amazing how my fingers transpose the music of my soul... it captures the empathy, like a symphony. My anger into melodies... and sadness flows together with the anger like a harmony. I'm the composer who waves the magic wand, wishing to control the tempo... wishing the world would slow down and bring it down a flat.

I don't know what I just wrote... but that is what I wrote. I must be losing my mind.

Your friend,

Tenchijk

silly poem of

2010-09-28T21:58:00.001-07:00

Random silly poem, cuz 4 people wanted it lol.

There was a cat.
he was a complete ass hat
no literally, his ass was made out of a hat

but he was no ordinary cat

he was half bat.

so naturally he had wings
made with strings packaged and sent from beijing

so this ass hat cat with his ass really made from hats
thought he was a king
with a purse on his side , he called it a sling.

but we ALL knew it was a purse.

being gay and unable to hide it was his curse.

There was a dog.
this dog was mutated with a hog.
so he was half pig.
and for rhyming sakes he wore a wig.
so this dog ,half hog who wore a wig
was also a king.
He always envied the ass cats wings.
looked on e-bay for such and things.
but came up short.
like the dog-hogs dick.
But just like a dog, he knew alot of tricks.

There was a pig-bat,
who wanted to be a cat
wanted to be a dog
but was sadden daily because he was written in this blog.

Never once thought he'd be written in a silly poem as this....
so he died . >.> yes. he died. Because i said so.

the ass cat, and dog-hog got over their differences and lived happily ever after.

Tell me this isn't the most randomiest thing you've read today.

-TenchiJk-

*whisper* click the *cough * ads* cough ... I make *cough* bit of mawney *cough cough*

silly poem

2010-09-28T21:58:00.000-07:00

Random silly poem, cuz 4 people wanted it lol.

There was a cat.
he was a complete ass hat
no literally, his ass was made out of a hat

but he was no ordinary cat

he was half bat.

so naturally he had wings
made with strings packaged and sent from beijing

so this ass hat cat with his ass really made from hats
thought he was a king
with a purse on his side , he called it a sling.

but we ALL knew it was a purse.

-TenchiJk-

*whisper* click the *cough * ads* cough ... I make *cough* bit

lamest insult poem ever.

2010-09-26T23:44:00.000-07:00

So i was at the mail store. Or whatever the hell you call those places ... AHH! postal offices . And the line was huge... and there was 3 people that just DROVE ME NUTS.

There was this FAT ass bearded guy who would talk soo much shit in line, and a OLD granny who aLSO talked so much trash, and of course the ed hardy wearing, female voiced individual.. SO I wrote a little Poem to remember them by.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue
I'll punch you in the mouf
and turn your lips Blue.

Then I'll look at you true.
with my eyes so wide.
and tell you honestly your ass is too wide.
Lose some weight i'll tell ya, waving my fists
And moan and grin at the sight of your neck cists ( NASTY)
you might slap me, but fuck UUU!!

It's all them fast food you be eating.
Nasty ass, you need to get your act together!
when you walk past me , I feel like the world changed its weather
light turned into night, and if I had cows they would turns instantly into leather.
Cuz of the heat you produce.
Speaking of Produce, not fruits or veggis(which you need to eat more of),
You need acupuncture, medicine, or a shock from Zeus.
get that Food of your mind.
Go for a jogg or something... put your body to some good use.
Cuz YOu bigger then a damn moose!

Dear old lady,

What chu looking at you old HAG!
Walking around acting like you got bwebs, but you know they sag .
From here to there to Timbuktu .
Sagging like noodles stretched out ,put them back in, this ain't no ZOO!
So old and shit... your skin feels like the insides of a bamboo.
Also, lady i forgot to mention, your teeth looks like 3 midgets rowing a canoe.
sorry, small people. I'm just gonna pass through.

Dear Mister Douche,
Oh look at this GUY! Skinny jeans, ed hardys on. You know your a douche.
Your the sound a toilet makes when shit goes down, SWOOSH.
With your unconvincing straight attitude.
voice so high like we in uncomfortable altitude.
Just do us all a favor , and just come out already.
Change your name to gay hard Teddy, and get ready for the gayest adventure of all time.
Cuz you think wearing bagging jeans + white t-shirt is a fashion crime.
You should make a movie with bruce willis, call it GAY HaRD. Part 1 and two!
After that, you both should screw XD

LOL... Lame as fukk, but i dunno why I'm laughing so much ahah~ maybe the randomness of it all. Happy reading.

-TenchiJk-

Dear World

2010-09-11T20:32:00.000-07:00

Dear World,

Sometimes I feel you. But yo, some times I don't. Man, I feel like I know you. But dude why you act so cold? We have equivalent exchange don't we?You give me time, and I repay you with my death right? But, why are you so cold? To me.We have an agreement don't we? You lend me time, I live my life and pay you back with interest .

Sometimes I think I know you. Sometimes I think I know what your about, and your secrets. I feel so close to the truth sometimes, but when I get near, you seem to disappear. I don't get why you give me life, but put me in limbo...Why don't you let me move? Why is it that the sands of time is falling grain by grain, but my experiences decrease. Why is it that I breath more air as time goes on, but it doesn't fulfill my lungs?

Sometimes I do know you. Cruel, evil and wicked. Looking at me with your beady little fucked up eyes , and weird how only I can see them. oh but i see you. You stare at me with your melancholy face smiling, only to scar me from behind without me knowing. Punk. Sometimes I know you well, we've dealed in the past with things I shouldn't have. Touched. Why is it that I owe you more then I've ever borrowed? Why is it that I must pay thrice of what you've lend me.

Sometimes, I want to forget you. And in sometime I hope I will.

- No idea what I wrote, but I just wrote what I felt on the spot... hrm.. maybe it means something, maybe it doesn't. I guess there is somethings in my heart I need to clear out. I guess in this little poem, the world represents my past. The things I always wanted , such as wealth, fame and etc... However, as I live my life, I guess I started to see the imbalance. How much Effort I put into the world, but to gain nothing out of it. Limbo... I wonder why I used that word... A state of unmoving. I guess I felt trapped in this world. I have my own guesses, what is your take on it :) ?

yours truly,

TenchiJK

life is so Hard.

2010-08-07T16:03:00.001-07:00

hey, TenchiJk here.

I'm so fed up with life right now... Furious at the world. I'm tired of trying to make excuses up for why life is so hard and I'm tired of comparing my self to 3rd world countries to make myself feel more grateful. No matter what I try, I'm going to be unsatisfied with what I have, because in this society I have nothing. Perhaps compared to someone in the 3rd world I have a lot, however the reality is that I'm in a shit hole.

After getting out of the military its been the hardest time of my life. I thought , only if I leave the military, my life will become normal. Maybe, my life would be easier. I would have my old friends back, and I would resume my life as how it used to be. However, life isn't that easy... and Friends are fickle. They change like changing weather, and they sway back and forth like wheats in the field.

I found myself one day with more internet friends then real friends. I found myself one day caught up in situations that weren't even real. I found myself defending the asian race, while other asians looked down upon me and thought be ridiculous for trying. I found myself unable to crawl out of this ditch, which kept getting deeper and deeper. Neglecting it didn't make the ditch any more elevated.

No matter what I do, i keep finding myself in the same predicament... Unable to escape the grasp of this cruel life I live in. Beyond my jokes and smiles, i am so overwhelmed with grief! and agony! I cannot continue on like this, or my head will indeed explode!!!!!!!

Lord please have mercy on me. Lord I am lost ,and I am so in need. Lord I tried to live my life according to my ways, and my efforts but they all were in vain. Lord please give me your grace, so I may dwell upon your world in peace, with no worries and with abundant fruits. God, please please please have mercy on me.

you see me posting...

2010-07-17T11:56:00.000-07:00

What up my fellow pirates of the internet sea!

MEOW-AR says the captain! Velcome aboard the "Aiko" , the frigate full of surprises, and wonders! What says ye , on an adventure to kill the mighty Kraken!? Take it's blood and sell it for ink! and use it's hide for shelter!

First ye must have strong sea legs, without it lass' your gonna be in fer a dooms day walk!

What? lol~ sorry, feeling mighty piratey as of late... Don't you wish you can just SAIL off Into the horizon!!? and hope there is an end to the world! Perhaps find a cave along the way, that has a water fall that leads you to secret chamber filled with Spanish gold! Dazzling diamonds, blood fire rubes and the awesome sapphire that shines more purple then anything else.

I wish I can pick up able bodies who will work hard to keep my ship maintained, and whom i can share my booty with( loot, not ass) . As we venture into the unknown, we might breach upon an island with mysterious properties, giving us everlasting life but in exchange need to drink blood. OHH SHITT!?? TwiLIGHT UP IN THIS BITTTCH?? Then some how with our vampire strength swim 1000 miles to usa! then suck the blood out of all the trolls! yummy troll bloods >:D ...

What am i talking about? live in NY! its SATURDAY NIGH....gayyyyyyy... take it for what its worth lol. BYE BYE !!

-Captian TenchiJk-

wheww~ long time no writee~

2010-07-13T20:24:00.000-07:00

WASSSSA~

I'm tired of the whole "dear reader" bs... It makes it too formal or some shit. I just wanna talk, but in writing form :) . So... I wonder if anyone still reads my blog... I haven't really wrote anything for months i think.

Um... so, my life. Life has been... Man, i dunno. Foreals, life is so wierd. I can't seem to grasp whats going on in my life at the moment... its like at a stand still. Thank God i'm still young huh? I just hope i'm not 30 and still saying the same old shit I be saying now. I just wish, by the time i'm 25 I have my life is order and things are going my way... I want to FINALLY meet the Girl of my dreams in Hawaii...

OH~ maybe I should talk about that. Well i'm in a long distance, internet relationship. CRAZY. I know. I'm one of those types that need to see for myself, and get to know that person in real life to actually commit. However, this girl... I committed, without seeing her in person. She is THAT special to me. She is so kind , and sweet... like unbelievably. Funny thing is, I can TELL she is genuine...and I can tell she is a good investment.

She lives in hawaii, and I live in cali.... so this relationship is HARD. But, at the same time... its sooo chill. We talk every day, and its not even about sex ! thats the amazing part... most online relationship circles around cyber sex, but this relationship is so real. I REALLY want to know what she is doing, whats shes eating etc etc. So I decided I'm going to go see her... And before I go see her, i'm going to tell youtube the whole story... and I'm going to film my first visit. So everyone can experience my excitement,nervousness and fear.

I didn't really edit this, so bear with me on the errors. Besides all the crap in my life...i've been really up and dandy lately. In a good mood for no aparent reason~ just feeling goofy from head to toe.. you can kinda tell in my videos huh? Before I was all depressed , sad and worried... but now, i'm just carefree of my life! XD And I want to share my strange happiness with you.

Take care you guys! much love!

-TenchiJk-

Memorial Day!

2010-05-31T17:40:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

As you guys all know , today is memorial day. This day to some might be just a day off, and time to chillax... But, you guys all know better. Remember how much love they had for our soldiers back in ww2, and vietnam? What about now? People might argue that, "well back in ww2 , they were fighting for a good cause" ..." same with vietnam"... But in fact there is no difference in the motive of the war.

However , what stands the same is the fact that these brave men and women of all ages gave their freedom and life to help defend the law Of America, whether it was just or not. I do object to this Godforsaken war, but, I don't want to take away their dignity and watch these soldier receive no credit for what they've been ordered to do.
If you object the War , blame the government, not the soldiers! I was a soldier once, and I completely understand what they are going through! Being told to do something you completely disagree upon...however, if we go against the government, there will be no longer anyone defending, the law... and if there is no law.. the civilians will be the first to feel it.

Civilians don't understand how much the military sacrifice their freedom so that Little Bob can get a snickers bar without getting blown to bits. If the Navy was to guard down for JUST an hour, half of New York, Georgia and all the east coast states could be laid in ruins. If the Air Force did not dominate the skies, we'd have bombings and machine fire a spray across the sky in your neighboring cities. Without the Marines risking their lives to go oversea doing all the dirty work, no one in the states would be safe from jealous neighbors and enemies. And of course the Coast Guard , who protect our seas from foreign and domestic enemies... and PIRATES TOO!

So pay your respects to our military, because if you are living in the states right now... it is because of their protection!
Once again, I give thanks to my fellow brothers in arms who gave their lives for something greater, and I hope they remain in your prayers and in your heart. Happy memorials day!

-TenchiJk-

-Ban2j writes.

Amen! And while we're thanking the troops, I'd just like to send a shout out to military families as well. Memorial day is the time when we honor soldiers, esp. those who've already passed on, but often the ones left behind don't get enough praise. It's hard being a war widow/widower, and having to pick up the pieces after your spouse dies, esp. during a thankless war; or being a child who has to deal with the reality of losing their parent. So "Woot!Woot!" to my fellow Army/Navy/Marine/Air force/Coast guard/Etc. family and friends, and Happy Memorial Day!

When the truth comes out.

2010-05-28T01:30:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

When the truth comes out, The puzzle fits into play, and you see the whole picture. At first, you wonder what it may be, and you ponder of its image day and night. However, when the vision focuses into a grand image of things, then you realize , ah this is why. As artistic as this may sound, i'm talking about a rather negative thing.

If you were to have an argument to no avail, then later in the peak of the battle you find out everything you need to know. Then comes the peace offering from the enemy. At first the battle was allusive and very murky. However, during the high point of the battle, You have learned all there is to know about your enemy. Then, How will you ever accept such a empty peace offering, you cannot.

-Easy terms-

There was a girl that asked a song request, and she was not answered. Took it upon herself to throw her anger at me, but in a passive aggressive way, so I don't notice. Of course I noticed, it was deliberate, unnecessary, and hurtful. I accused her of being mean, and being unkind... she denied my accusation, saying she is indeed a fan, and all she wants is my happiness. So I TESTED her, and Provoked her to get her a little bit angry... Her true nature slips out.

She tells me everything I needed to know about her. She spilled out her past anger towards me, and how she always thought I was a liar, and how she was furious at the fact I didn't sing her song. Through these type of tests, I was told by a wisdom girl I can determine who is for me and against me, and she was DEFINITELY against me. After she is was caught red handed, she dared to come back with an empty apology, which was filled with her self righteousness. Still defending herself, and denying what she has done. Case is Closed. and Good Riddance.

-TenchiJk-

Fans ,planes and automobiles.

2010-05-25T10:47:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

Hows is everyone doing? All good I hope. Now, some of you who read my blog understand what this blog will be touching upon. Fans.

What is the definition of a fan? FANATIC. No offense, but thats the meaning behind it... But there are those who definitely pull way too far into the blue with that shit. I think if your a real fan, you can understand the person your a fan of. Of course not all of its details, but at least know about the difficulties behind their lives.

I truly understand that my fans must go through difficulty in their lives as well. cause we are all humans. However, if you stop and think for a second , you might realize I have it pretty hard due to dealing with thousands of different emotions, and personalities. I know some of you deal with a lot of people in your line of work, but this is a bit different.

When I do my youtube, or blog... I put people into two categories.. just simply black or white. I hate mixing in between... Its neither you ARE a fan, or you are a HATER. I'm not A judge nor a person who has a lot of time to deal with muddy ,unclear individuals. Also, I shouldn't have to, its so unfair to me don't you think?

However, on my blog there was a fan. Just a young girl who found interest in me once, but wanted something more out of it. Started getting angry at me for not singing a song she has requested. If you know have known me for a while... You will know the common facts.

1. I get a more messages then I can read... whether it be 100 per day, or 300 some days.

2. In these messages, contains hate mail, concern mail, questions, complains, compliments, worries, and of course requests.

3. These requests go from, happy birthday shout outs, sing this song, hear this song, talk about this, talk about that... Can you talk about why etc etc...Can you sing this and that.

4. Let says Out of these requests I chose a song to sing... I need to LEARN the song.. PRATICE the song, then RECORD the song. For example.. when I sang road to zion... it took me 3-4 days to learn it, a day to record it ... I don't have the time to sing everyones request. I apologize. (though, once in a blue moon there is a song someone requested and I already KNOW the song, then I can probably give it a go. )

All i was telling her was to understand my situation for ONCE. Instead of looking at it with her bitter " he didn't sing my song, cause he is an asshole" eyes. If that was the case, hundreds of my fans should be complaining to me right now. But, they do not~ because they REALLY are my fans, who care for my well being, and they understand what I truly go through. Those people I love to death! Those are the people I truly appreciate!

Obviously to some, this may come off as arrogant, but i'm seriously pleading to you guys. This is really, really not easy for me. I chose a path that is so mixed, some times its more then I can chew... If you guys noticed, I touch up on so many different things...Which is probably why its so hard for me. My mistake .

from singing, to talking about racism, relationships, and controversial topics... Fans of all kinds. Fans that only like the singing, fans that only like the ambw.. and etc etc. So sometimes, I find it difficult to find my bearing.

She also mentioned that I don't reply to my fans if its a compliment, and I only replied to her when she was being negative. Its true, I wrote an essay for her. Mainly because I wanted her to realize shes in limbo right now. Your not in one side or another. No person wants to lose a fan unless its hurting your life, and she was draining my happiness . I come home , read my messages , filled with hate mail and compliments alike . Then I come to blog to read some passive aggressive mail, that seems to be a compliment, but mixed in with some hater taste to it. Then I get all confused, is this sarcasm? Then it happened way too often then not... So thus a goodbye to her.

You guys will understand when I tell you this. When someone who is a hater tells you ,your doing a horrible JOB, you are this way, and you are that way... honestly hurts, BUT, you can endure it... because YOU KNOW thats what haters do. However, if you think they are for you, they are your friends, family... and then says less then par comments. You just droop to the ground...

Later on I realized she REALLY was a hater, You can tell by her ending remarks. She always believed me to be a liar, and she really was upset about me not singing her song. excuse me for the french, but thats one self center ass bumpkin.

Anyway,on a much lighter note, to my fans and subscribers out there, I apologize if I cannot answer your questions and comments.But i want you to know I try my best to read them all, and I message people randomly to be fair. Also I try different ways to reach out to y'all. If you notice me cowering back into my shell, just know it was another weird fan that got me all defensive.

"The greatest fan can become the greatest hater. Because they know everything about
you."
-My father

If you landed in another place.

2010-05-18T09:10:00.001-07:00

Dear Readers,

Whats good mateys!? Hows the seven seas be doing thar!? okay okay sorry XD. Anyway, I was just chillin and something hit me. WHAT IF.
What if I can start BRAND new in another place. Make a new name, pick and choose my own accent, and pick new things for myself. I was thinking what would I be?

I honestly would pick the name G money. no seriously ... I always loved G money.. sounds so sexyyyyuuustttt kidding. I was thinking somewhere in the lines of Kevin Smith. Something generic. you know i'm also kidding. The thing is ladies and gents, I honestly wouldn't change my name XD. Its much too catchy to throw away...

The accent though... I would like a nice British accent. You know what , what about a PIRATE ACCENT. AHHA. Man.. I would love that actually.

-At a Job interview-
employer-"hi welcome to Compu-tech, can you tell us your education background?"

Pirate(me)-"I be thar blow'n the sails, and Skipping the stones of buccaneers and gulls"

EM-"uh... what ?"

P-"Is ye mute boy!? Blow'n the sails University matey.."

EM-"um, okay lets move on ,*nervous laughter* What about your employment history?"

P-"I be thar blow'n mateys under the gallows ! and Pokin the buccaneers and the gulls with my

iron tip matey.."

EM-"um.. that sounds very inappropriate... blow'n mateys was your job? And poking what??!"

P-" i say... ye be a mute man boy..ye never blowed a white whale have ye!?"

EM"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY OFFICE!"

Then I realized.. all of this is just stupid ahha~ I like who I am.. And you should to.

Dear ..

2010-05-02T10:09:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

Miss me yet?! I'm kinda starting to miss ya guys, just kinda~ ahah jusst kidding. I do miss y'all~ I'ma be back soon, but not quite yet. I've been very busy lately , so It will take me a little bit longer to come back. Just wanted to assure some people that i'm doing A-okay and will come back safe and sound. Thanks for all the worries and concern~ muah!

-TenchiJk-

ladies and gentleman

2010-04-19T22:36:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

How have you all been? I hope very well. I have been somewhat conflicted with life and my dream. eh, thats for a different day. Today I want to say Thank you, so all my fans and lovely subscribers. I decided to take a little break, so I can get my head on straight. Too much has been going on, and I think i just need to clear my head and soul~ so I can come back to you full force , with more energy and just much more pure, TenchiJk.

Sincerely,

TenchiJK

The once Lonely Heart

2010-04-13T20:33:00.001-07:00

Dear Readers,

For the longest time in my life I have been lonely. Not because of the lack of love, or friendship, but of understanding . I used Han to explained this several times. In my life, I had many friends who came and went... some remained and some did not. Whether they were good friends, or bad , they all had one thing in common. They did not have this Han that was deeply embedded into my heart. I always wondered when and where I would experience such exposure.

One day I get a message from a guy named Marvin. Dj duel. To tell you all the truth, I was a bit skeptical when he said he was gonna make me a sick introduction music. I thought it was just a kid who is going to use some silly gadgets he has to make a song... The reason I thought this was because I had a mindset of " who would spend there good time making something good for me" pessimistic i know, but thats what I thought. But, to my surprise, that shit was just off the hook! He actually had mad talent and skills a Buddhist monk couldn't even comprehend... and I was shocked. Someone with that much talent would be MY fan? and time went on..

With a slight change in fame status, it became so much more difficult then before. Mainly because of the things I say.. very controversial... so thus more haters then one would get if you only made silly videos, or music. I began to lose hope... I began to feel I failed My Asian race. How will we ever shine? will we ever shine...? I felt no Asian guy felt what i felt...

Then one day, I get a message again from Dj Duel . He says, he has this music video setup, and he would love to have me Down to make a "nasty appearance". I took up on his offer, mainly because I trusted his persona... something about him just gave me that , he is good dude.

When I went on the set, people greeted me left and right , like i was some celebrity... it was such a humbling experience... the more they exalted me, the more NOT SHIT I realized I was. However, they exalted me nonetheless... The shoot went great, and it went very smoothly.

Now, AFTER the shoot... this is when things became Gold. Many of Marvin's friends who were also fans of my videos sat around me in the dark corner, and we all talked about Han. How they knew exactly how I felt... The sadness of being the silver unpolished, the gold that does not have enough Heat to melt away from the rocks. We started to talk about how we need to unite as one race, so we can be the ladder to climb up together...we also the concept of the flower pot, where the rose would shine, but not without the support of those who are in the back, the flowerpot,the supporters.
My heart was refreshed all over again, and My spirits rose up. I realized I am definitely NOT alone in this world. And neither are you guys. You may feel your pains and struggles in America are felt in vain, but no, There are those who experience exactly what you feel.. and they feel you. Thats were true bonds and friendships build... so I wish you the same grace God has bestowed upon me that day. Take care you lovely people out there.

-Tenchi-

news!

2010-04-12T15:54:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

As some of you know, I went to do a small video shoot at OishiMedia. The guys and I became close friends real quick. And during our deep ass convo, we decided to make something special for you all. I'm calling all gorgeous black women to play a part in a music video about interracial love. Those who have model experience is requested by the directors and cast members of oishi media. If you think you gots the stuff, and live in califorina, please come down! This video isn't going to be the stereotypical views of Hoochi mamas , or asian nerds. Rather, they will be portrayed as a beautiful young couple, dressed stunningly classy and in a lovely sunsetting environment. Oishimedia and I decided to collaborated together with this, and those who are interested can come down to the shoot as extras or if the casting allows a part in the video. I'm excited for this!!

OH MY GAWD!

2010-04-08T00:25:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

GATTTT DAMNIT. I'm getting so damn fed up with these goody goody Christians that are talking smack about my premarital sex video. My point of the whole video wasn't about what is RIGHT or WRONG. Let me get my point across here more clearly.

1. I said if it is for a religious reason, that your keeping yourself pure or whatever, you've already Failed. This by NO means gives you the right to go out and do whatever the hell you want.But, You need to realize while focusing all your energy on , " I need to be a virgin, I need to be a virgin" , You use this "self righteousness" and use it to judge people. Let me give you an example.

There is 2 girls. One is a bad girl, total slut. Another a virgin. Now a very smart girl once told me," if someone dies from a mosquito bite, and another stomped on a elephant, which person is MORE dead?"
okay, lets say girl A(slut) lived her life as a normal teenage girl, doing normal teenage sins... and she lost her virginity and just gave her body away.
There is another girl,girl B, who also lived a normal teenage life, doing normal teenage sins... but she stayed a virgin because she wanted to keep her self "holy". Except, one day... They both got down to pray to the Lord.

Girl A's prayer " Lord , I can't even look upon you lord.. i'm such an evil person... My fleshly desires are much to great and I've fallen into this world of lust... God help me"
Girl B's prayer " Dear God, I thank you that i'm not like girl A, I thank you for allowing to keep my body clean unlike hers. I pay offering, I pay tithe, I do this and that God. Thank you

This is a modern version of a story in the bible..."the pharisee and the tax collector" Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, BOTH girls are sinners before God. Whether SHE HAD SEX before marriage, or if SHE is a virgin , they Both are the SAME before God.

Explain this. There are two thieves on the cross Next to Jesus. One of the thieves says to him "if you really are Christ, come down from there and save me and yourself". The other says , " he is innocent, we deserve to die.. etc etc.. Please remember me when you go to your kingdom."
There is absolutely nothing good about these two. COMPLETELY HORRIBLE HUMAN BEINGS. Till the day they were born, till the day they were nailed to that cross. Yet... Jesus says to one of them " I promise you, You will be in paradise with me.."

Now think to yourself. What was the difference between the two? They were exactly the same! They BOTH were destined to Die... BOTH failed, just like girl A and girl B. However, the promise of Jesus is the only thing that got in between them.
| So can that thief brag? Can the thief say to the other thief " HA HA~ he chose me because I didn't do premarital sex! He chose me because of this and that... cuz i kept my body a LITTLE bit more cleaner then you ... and so on"
The answer is obviously NO!

So, my point of that video wasn't about do whatever the hell you want. It was to show you, the viewers, that whether you ARE a virgin, OR NOT...unless your a perfect human being... you have NO right to judge another human being. Just because YOU yourself is holding onto it, you've already failed in SOOOO many different sins... that if I CALL YOU OUT, and PUT YOUR sins on the table... you will have no room for talk.

Also, the reason why I was more EASIER on this topic, then on the Homosexual topic was simple. ONE, Homosexuality Is NOT a choice. SO thus, that in IT SELF IS ALREADY A SIN. So thus what more to say.. what is wrong is wrong, keep doing what you do. However, Premarital sex IS a choice~ and if you make the wrong choice, it IS wrong, Amongst ALL other things that Wrong. When you get saved, only thing different between YOU and your neighbor , comes down to the Promise of Jesus. So, next time you call me a hypocrite, make sure you call yourself one as well.

I hope SOMEONE understood me.

Love,

Tenchijk

p.s ahaha I feel so much more refreshed.

why do we eat eggs on easter?

2010-04-05T00:22:00.000-07:00

Dear homies/homegirls,

Decided to change up the reader to homies ahahha, justtt for today lol. Anyways~ whats been with you chu all? all good i hope. I've been fairly good lately~ If you haven't noticed, i've been kinda spiritual as of late... I have no idea why. Maybe its about time God told me to straighten my back onto the right track. Anyway, enough of that for now~

I wanted to... you know actually there is gonna be Sommmmme churchy thangs in this story, but thats not the main picture. lol~ as you all know yesterday was easter Sunday. And sooo many people be like, did you eat EGGS!? or chocolate and etc etc... And maybe people don't seem to even know what easter is. Because, all they ever see in the media is a giant Rabbit with a basket full of eggs... confusing the little kids. Easter is a day to remember of Jesus' resurrection. And now here comes the history lesson. The reason why we eat eggs on easter.

This is way back when. The crusade time era. There was this soldier... who, since at a young age believed in God with all his heart , and to show his love he gave food to the poor... and every easter , he and his family would paint , color and write "Jesus loves you" on the eggs and handed them out to the poor people. Every easter, this was there family tradition... Mind you, back then, egg was not an easy commodity~ it was hard to get.

Now one day , he got sent to fight in the crusade... fighting Muslims in a ridiculous war, that God probably did not even want... but inevitable i believe. Anyway, coming back from war~ he lost his way in the forest near his hometown... But he was heavy injured and his eyes were fuzzy/blurry... Because of his handicaps he could not find his way back... and also he has been starving for days.

One day a young boy with a basket full of eggs was marching through the forest to give colored eggs to the people in the next town... but on his path there saw this man... half dead.. he gave the eggs to this dying soldier instead ( good boy huh?). When he was eating, he realized , this egg was painted . He then realized this is the same eggs he used tomake at home... then he realized his home was near! so this is a story about how his kindness return unto him, and he was able to be guided on home to his wife Rosaline , and they lived happily ever after. Since that day, the tradition of giving colored eggs became widely known. So now, we eat eggs on easter. Weird huh?

-Tenchijk-

ps. join my facebook official fan club~ I add my latest mumbo jumbo there~

To become saved?

2010-04-02T12:46:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,
IN my last post a sweet young lady asked me a very good questions. I do not know the tone of the question, whether it was sarcastically or just innocently curious. I decided to answer it in the best of my abilities. What is it to be saved? (in a Christian sense)

First of all, the Gospel has been so Diluted these days where the true Gospel is Lost. So-called Christians do not even KNOW the Gospel. They read and read the bible but yet remain ignorant to what Jesus actually did, and why.

To get a better understanding of the Gospel, lets start out with some questions shall we? What is the requirement of us all to get into Heaven?
-Can you have sin? No. Why ? Because sin has never entered heaven, and never will be allowed to.
-So then must you be a GOOD sinner?(if that even exist, but some people seems to think so)
lol, and No. Sin is sin.

Simply put. Lets say, the requirement to enter Heaven is to bear apples lol(oh comon give me a chance lol). However, human beings are "orange trees" ... so they try diligently day after day, year after year trying to bear apples... Yet every year, they get Oranges.
What this means is , The apple is Righteousness. God requires us to BE righteous to enter the kingdom of God... But yet we are always sinners. So we try and try to bear apples... and we ALWAYS oranges... We will get back to this.

Their are two ways to become righteous in the Bible. One is by keeping ALL the law. People might say "oh oh, the ten commandments?" Foolish people, ye who do not read the bible lol. Their are 613 laws, AFTER the ten commandments... For the sake of understanding this much easier lets bring back a story Jesus Encountered.
I believe in the book of Matthew , it talks about a rich man who came in front of Jesus. He came to Jesus and said "what GOOD must I do to enter the kingdom of heaven?" ... Jesus says clearly their is only one who is Good, which is God.

Yet the Rich man persists... Jesus says, love your neighbor as yourself, honor your mother and father, and keep the laws of moses etc etc...
The Rich man boldly says, " I kept all of this since i was young..." *screech* lets stop here for a second. He kept all the laws? "love your neighbor as yourself." Your neighbor is everyone around you... Their are so many sick, weak, malnourished people out where he lived. Their are poor people in every corner... if he was to love his neighbor LIKE himself~ then how could he ever be rich? How could he EVER save up money to be rich...? He dresses himself in nice garments, while his Neighbor is in the ground. Giving someone a piece of coin is loving him like you love your self? by no means...
It says later on, Jesus had compassion on him and said, Throw away ALL your possessions and follow me.

Now, people always JUDGE this rich man... people who read the bible ALWAYS judge this man , but people fail to realize we ARE this man. We are JUST like this rich man. We say to the Lord, YES we HAVE kept all your laws ( when we failed at everyone of them) , and we still say, WHAT GOOD MUST "WE" DO TO ENTER YOUR KINGDOM. Our possessions are our thoughts, our OWN SELF righteousness, our arrogance, our knowledge, what we think is right and so on.. These possession, these things we need to drop to follow Jesus.
Now, Jesus' disciples were shocked , and said amongst each other "then WHO can enter the kingdom of God???!" Jesus clearly says, Its "IMPOSSIBLE" for Man... but all things are possible in God.

Moving on. One more parable... If you still reading , God bless you. :)
There was a man... walking from point A to point B... then he met some thieves and bandits! They beat the CRAP out of him! took all his money, his clothes, and left him ALMOST dead.
They probably stabbed him, gutted him etc etc.

First walks the priest... He cannot touch unblemished things (its the law) , so he just walks by... then comes the Levi ( the diligent one) and he is late for his gathering so he moves a long, then come the Samaritan.
Puts him on his donkey, pours his oils and wine over the wound. Takes him to an inn and pays twice over the inn fee and says he will come back if he EVER needs more. The moral of the story is what? Be that good Samaritan!?nahh....

We ARE the man who got hit by robbers. Stripped away of our clothes, our money, our dignity... Left almost dead... unable to live without a Saviour. Then comes the Samaritan... Jesus, who pours his oil(spirit), and wine (blood) over our wounds(sin). Take us to a inn and PAYS our debts twice over, and will come back to pay more if Ever needed.
The parable was to teach his disciplines that he was that Saviour, and they(we) are the ones who are in need. We all want to be in the position of the Saviour, but what we always fail to realize is we are the ones needing saving. We are the ones who are powerless in front of God, and are helpless without the saving of Christ.
Now... to the saving part.

What is to repent? Is repenting" Oh God, sorry i did this, sorry i did that, I committed this and that , and this and that" Thats no repentance lol. Repenting means to turn from your ways.
John always preached, REPENT and believe in Christ. Turn from your way of thinking, your OWN righteousness and accept Jesus' righteousness.

Ask your selves a honest question. Are you a sinner? Do you believe you are a COMPLETE sinner? thats the kicker right there lol~ people always say they are sinners, but never admit they are complete sinners lol. They always think i'm part sinner, part good like this is some cooking show. In front of God, you are NOT good. Thats the truth of it... in the HUMAN standards SURE~ we can tell a BIG difference who is good and who is bad... but GOD sees peoples hearts not the actions. Before you kill someone, you Hate (and you cannot control that), before you steal, you covet..( you can't help wanting something), before you commit adultery you Lust ( you cannot control feeling of lust)... What i'm trying to make you come to sense with is, you ALREADY fail at becoming righteous on your own.

If you seriously realized you are doomed without Christ why are you still looking at yourselves for the solution? "oh I must try harder, OH I MUST DO BETTER"
The only way is to look towards Christs blood, and believe in what HE did. Which is CLEARLY to take ALL your sins. Past present AND future.

Take this into account. How did you all become sinners? did you want to become sinner? no way! It was from ONE MAN, ADAM. WE all inherited this Sin. So God sent ONE man to take away ALL sin.

So to be saved is this. We became sinners from Adam, we became righteous through Jesus, we discover this truth, this truth becomes faith in our hearts, and we walk with Jesus and preach the Good news of What Christ has done.

Now after your saved ... lol , this is the tricky part. God makes sure your walk a normal path, and if you sway, by no means u will go to hell, but he will make your life difficult so you can "repent" and turn back to him again and walk a straight path. From my reckless way, I'm turning back to him~ I hope y'all can too.

-Tenchi-

ps. i commend anyone who finished this blog. *clap clap*

Trolls of the ring

2010-03-31T22:00:00.000-07:00

Dear Reader,
The world has a serious , serious pandemic. A disease spread out amongst the people , left and right. You don't know who has this disease, and once bitten it will take 0 to about 2 days for them to become beasts of the night. When there is light shun on their faces they cower, and they have no monstrous strength, however, in the night where they are hidden, there true nature ensues. Enough beating around the bush ahha, This world is PLAGUED with damn trolls!

I saw this article today about this 17 year old high-school girl who committed suicide because of being cyber bullied. Whats worse is, on her Facebook memorial site, people left horrible comments. Such as, " hows it Hanging" and other puns that attack her actions of hanging herself.

Have you ever heard of the mark of beast ladies and gentleman? The number 666 so strongly written in the revelations in the bible. Trolling is one way to bring about that number. Before you start reading, if you are easily frighten do not read it. Those of you who want to know more, please continue. Also, be aware that this is my Theory , nothing more.

In the bible , it talks about the end of times... obviously we've all heard of it. Now 2012 is not it... because there are alot of requirements to be done before the end of the world comes. One being, the mark of the beast. Now those of you who don't believe in the mark of the beast, that is because you don't know what the mark is, and you are oblivious to the fact that it ALREADY EXISTS. It hides in plain sight, and it waits till its much more developed. The mark of the beast is a mark given to those who are not believers of God, and also those who Satan has claimed. That could be you, your neighbor , etc etc...

Like i said , it already exists. Some of you may already heard of it , through rumors and word of mouth. Also, mind you that the bible was written thousands of years ago. Yet it pin pointed the mark so precisely , it gives me chills to my bone. The number 666. This number it says in the bible, do NOT get it on your hands or your head. The Bible says they will force it upon you to get the mark... and people unknowingly get it.

The mark of the beast is the Bar code. IN each and every barcode there is a sequence needed for it to work. The First , middle and last thick lines are the code 6-6-6. Without these 3 numbers ,the barcode ceases to function. 6-7-7 will not work, neither would ANY different combination. Every barcode has the numbers 6-6-6 in the same areas as in any barcode. Now that you know what the mark of beast is~ why would people start getting it?

First of all, in Sweden and other developed countries people are injecting chips in the hands or body of patience. They scan there hands to see all the information needed about that person. Their name,address,phone number, diagnose, and etc.

One reason this M.O.T.B is good for is to NO LONGER allow people to be anonymous. However, that is the scary part... imagine this. In the future, this troll problem becomes immense. Uncontrollable... to the point where it starts being the level of terrorism... imagine if Cops, FBI's cannot contain this hysteria. They will start implanting chips to everyone, making sure everyone is proper. No troll dare to say anything , if everything they say gets tracked. This is a time where Christians will deny this mark... They will eventually become terrorist in the eyes of the government. so on and so on...I have much more to say, but I heard its dangerous to talk about this kinda stuff~ so thats enough nightmares for you lots out there. Leave a comment of what you think. nitee

-Tenchi-

My Landscape

2010-03-28T00:52:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,
If you haven't noticed, lately I've been really getting into my art. I started to venture into my digital canvas once more. Though I no longer use the finite pieces that once created my art, I.E paint/pencil. I am very fond of my digital canvas and its plentiful colors.

This piece right here was done in one hour, and twenty minutes. This, with my paint brush , would have taken 4-6 hours... Do i feel less satisfied because its through my computer? By no means... I feel the same thrill of creation that flows out of my brain into my fingers. I still feel the sense of excitement as my mind creates and flows into the canvas to make up what I see. I also love the fact that the burden that once was on my back, slowly dissolves into the air. The errors I once feared with my wooden cutlass are uplifted away with my much upgraded light-saber XD <- such a ruin in my poetic writing. tsk. Any who, since I ruined the flow... I will talk to you in lame mens term. I love to draw on my digital canvas because i can finish my art work in less time, don't have to worry about making mistakes, and best of all a quick addition to my portfolio.

Enjoy you guys, I also filmed it, so you guys can see the speed painting of it. Also, i recorded a piano piece for y'all to enjoy while watching~ Arn't I thoughtful!!? XD anyway, take care you guys!

Btw- if anyone wants to be featured in my next video, please send me a video of you saying " your watching TENCHIJK!" or hold up a sign , or any creative introduction :). Thanks~

-Tenchi-

Topless? me?

2010-03-25T14:45:00.001-07:00

Dear Readers,

What is up with chu? All good? ahaha. Couldn't think of a title per say ~ What exactly does per-say mean anyway, been using that for years, correctly I hope. You guys like my new banner? Took me good old 40 minutes to make. If you guys want to learn how to make a banner, ask me, i will teach ya XD.

Anywho, today, I have no particular topic. Just a free for all, go ahead and spit your brain.
well lets see... A lot of people humorously been asking me to show them my body lol. Saying that , not many Asian guys go topless~ Then , i realized thats very true. Why is that? Is it because we are ashamed of our bodies, or is it because of tradition/culture?

The cultural side, it does make a bit of sense. In Korean culture, if your not at the beach or the swimming pool, and you take your shirt off, its pretty damn awkward. In America, that doesn't seem like the case. They take of their shirts whenever. They take it off when they go take a shit, take a break, when its too hot, when its just right, when someone else does, to show off their body, to eat a fuckin hotdog, i dunno the list goes on.
What is the fascination of this shirt taking off nonsense. Whatever the case, I decided to join this game XD. So I took a picture as well~ ahahha. Now i'm officially a shirt taker -offer. But I highly doubt I will continue doing this. I'm a beach/swimm shirt taker-offer you see XD. Okay
here is the picture ~

-TenchiJK-

Derogatory Words.

2010-03-23T11:03:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

For the past 10 years, I've been called many derogatory words. I'm sure many of you have been called something horrible once in your life. I'm sure some of you have called another human being something of the sort as well, I as well am guilty.

Have you ever once thought where those words actually originated from, and what they actually mean? I was shocked to find out , these words come from horrible context. I was shocked to the point where my body just ceased to function for about 5 second to swallow the insanity of it all. I've always brushed my shoulders of when they called my chink, zipperhead, gook and etc... Thinking, that the words generated from the way we speak our language, the shape of our eyes, and the likes. However, I discovered I was completely wrong. These Derogatory words should not be tolerated any longer...these are the following definition of the words I presented you. Use it only for educational purposes.

Zipperhead- At first I thought it was to make fun of my eyes. Being Asian we are told we have slanted eyes, so I naturally put two and two together, and thought okay... I guess my eyes look like a close zipper to them. No.

Back in the korean war, the us army used to run over Koreans... with their jeeps. When they do run them over , they will leave a tire mark on their face,or heads. The jeeps tire mark made their heads look like a closed zipper... thus calling them "zipperheads"
Another definition. When they shoot a asian person in the face during the war with a high powered rifle, it blew their head open making it look like a open zipper. Horrible. just utterly horrible.

Gook- Back in the Korean war, The american soldier would tease and make fun of Korean citizens... and the koreans would get furious and tell them to leave them alone. The word for "American" sounds like "mee-Gook" in Korean. So the American soldiers thought they were saying " I am a gook" (me, gook). So they started calling them gooks.
Also in the Vietnam war, they started calling the viets, gooks as well... why? because the Americans said, "same shit"... same shit , different country. So now, they still call, koreans and viets gooks. Also, did you know, "gooks" sound like soup in korean? So when they call us that, older koreans often say, they are they calling us soups?

Chink- This word also originated in the korean war. This is a shorten way of saying, "chinese North koreans" CHI(chinese)N(north)K(korean). A very offensive word now to label all Asians as One entity. They also use this word to symbolize we all look chinese.

Their are alot of word that derived from negativity... and the worst part of it is, they don't know where it orginated from. People say, gook, zipperhead, chink and etc without even know the true meaning. Calling someone a person runned over by a jeep leaving a mark on their corpse? Who in the right fuckin mind says anything like this? People should seriously research what the fuck they are saying, before they open their mouths... because its an open grave. Their tongue practice deceit...

Now you know. Don't you dare use it.

-Tenchi-

Party!?

2010-03-21T23:38:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

I was just thinking... If one day, maybe in the distant future...I become popular. Not rock star popular, but Tv-show popular ahah. And if I make some pretty decent money... hopefully in the millions. I want to throw a 3 day, 4 night party... with my lovely subscribers. like the ones who are pretty close with me~ maybe about 200?

I mean i'm just dreaming right now of course ahahaha, but my mama always told me, if I'm going to dream, dream big.

What I want to do is pay a round trip for all my lovely subscribers, to come to California to my crib and party till we die! Definitely have the best Dj's in town, and drinks galore. And the best part would be to have an actual crew to film the whole party like a music video!!!
So the first night would be to introduce myself ,and get to meet you all personally and say thank you! And we can chitchat and mingle with everybody~ Then, we can enjoy the night with dancing, drinking, and all the good stuff.

Then the second day. I will Rent us a CRUISE LINE! ahaha( this is IF i'm a millionaire or something ahha, dream big remember >.^)... I will Have the BEST chefs on the ship~ and I can even cook for few special people~ And we can take the cruise towards Mexico~ And enjoy a nice sun tan, delicious cocktails, and the best music money can buy.

Third day, we arrive at the Mexican beach... There is a beach resort reserved just for you guys! The hay-toped huts, with cocktail bars and BBQ stands ready to serve you . All food , drinks paid for completely. BBQ, slow roasted chicken wings side with garlic-roasted onions, half back BBQ ribs oozing with honey glaze sauce, juicy beef briskets drooling with flavor, and side dishes setup to the horizon.

The fun part. We will play a Treasure hunt. But Indiana Jones style. There will Giant paper machete Rocks, robot snakes that pop out, fake trails, maps and all that good stuff. Teams of 10, so total of 20 teams. They will have there own colored shirts, own gears and all the necessities.( y'all can keep everything when your done.)

The 20 teams will start in different parts of the island( yes.. this is a private island , somewhere in Mexican, reserved just for us... ). They will all be given a map. They will have to choose a leader, and will have Medics watching your every move so you don't get injured. Anyway, you will be equipped with a Travel backpack, with 2 days worth of food, and 5 days worth of water.( just in case)

There are 3 main treasures hidden in the jungle. They are not easy to get. Once you find the location, there are puzzles, obstacle courses. Only the leader of each team can attempt when they find it... If you the first one to find it, you can try much as you want until you are discovered by the other team.
The First treasure, is a small statue of "Captain T-cat", made with PURE gold!The cool part is, all ten of them get their own golden statue.The value of the Golden T-cat is worth 50-70k.
The second treasure is a Mic made of gold, worth about 10-25k. The last prized is a round trip to Cancun , courtesy of Mexican airlines, priceless.. jk lol

There will be a lot of adventure, rushing through the jungle looking for clues. Not to mention the traps set up to catch weary adventurers. Also, keep your eye out for colored stones! They will be randomly hidden in the vast jungle. But be careful, it could be a trap instead of a prize.
Inside the Redstones are hidden gift-cards worth $1000
The bluestones have gift-cards for $500
The yellowstone will have gift-cards for $50-$100 ( there are many Yellowstones out there! so keep an eye open!)

I want to make sure, everyone gets a piece of the pie before they go home...A thank you for supporting me gift.

The very last day on the Island will have the best beach BBQ ... with huge bond fires, live music, drinks, and just food food food! When the morning breaks, we will leave at about 3-4pm... so you guys can all have a nice late sleep, take a shower, do whatever y'all need to do. Some may have hang overs... so I will prepare anti-motion sickness pills , and digestive medicines.

When we dock back to Cali, it will be about 12pm or so ... We will say our final goodbyes and We can take an official group photo~ ^__^ and I'll post this event on YouTube for all the suckers to see what they missed out on. ahhh~ sounds fun right??

Now, if I only had the money hahaah, this is soooo going down!!!! ^____^ I hope you will all join me one day~

-Tenchi-

Dear readers

2010-03-19T13:54:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,
I'm afraid. Something is not right with my body... I've been getting slowly worse. My condition is horrible, and I can't seem to open my eyes in the morning. It takes a struggle to get up in the morning, not only because i'm tired, but my body does not respond to my wishes. Yesterday I did Blogtv, I was on only for 30-40 minutes or so... and I had to cut it short because I felt really sick. When I went to the restroom to throw up, there was blood. God, you guys please please pray for me. I'm starting to lose hope... and I'm getting really scared. Please keep me in your prayers, I don't think this battle is over for me just yet. Thank you.

-Tenchi-

A singer's sorrow

2010-03-17T23:28:00.001-07:00

Dear Readers,

As many of you may know, I'm not doing so well physically. However, in spite of my weak ass body, a beautiful mail(sounds like beautiful male..so i was very reluctant to use it... but I was able to comment on it, so right on.) came the other day. My long awaited microphone. I always wanted a Mic( I wanted a James, a Pete-... never mind -_-'')... with a freaking passion!

When I was into Hip-Hop...All I ever dreamed about was to have a Golden Mic, and I would one day spit FUCKING FIRE, and melt the Mic away! and that would be the day I would retire from Pimp-dom. However... I'm Asian, and Asians are not allow to spit magic without being ridiculed. But, believe me ladies and gentleman, I had a strong as passion for that art of music. Until... one grey morning, I was destroyed verbally by white guy with nerd glasses... I took my remaining poker chips and left while the table was hot. I realized at a young age that I love Hiphop, but I knew I would never pursue it completely... I looked too damn pretty for it HARHAHAHA~ oh shuttt up~ Y'all made me into a monster!! Spoiling me with the damn comments. No worries though, God puts me in check.

Anyway, this Mic came in its beautiful ass box... and I opened it.
Beautiful, silver lined and fatten with condenser magic. It was a dream come true for me! It felt like when Harry Potter first found out he was a wizard. You know that little British smile he had ? Yep, I had the Korean equivalent smile, and it was nice. I wonder if in the land of Harry Potter they have magical MicS... that would be insane!Oh! matter of fact they DO! they use their wands and it works as a Mic. Hot damn. moving on...

You know when I first started Youtube, I never thought I would actually put any money into it~ but looky looky pinochiky... thats lame. sorry. All I'm saying is , I never thought an opportunity will strike me where I can pursue my music , and actually have a REASON to do it. I love to talk sure~ discussion, sure! But, my real undeniable passion in Life is Music... whether I'm good , or just mediocre ~ I feel this boost of energy to work on my music again! I'm so Glad I have the best listeners anyone can ask for! Those who read my posts just seem so much closer to me, then just viewers... reading my words are sometimes very, hehe intimate. Consider yourself raped righttt now. just kidding ^__^

However, just like my title says... there is a sorrowful feeling in my heart at the moment... and thats because I CAN'T USE THE BLOODY THING!(The Mic i mean) why?? my throats jacked up! Whenever I try to sing, I sounds like air passing through .... should I take this into a sexual joke or a clean joke?... tic. toc. tic.toc. Whenever I try to sing, I sound like air passing through Margarette Thatchers Vajayjay... LOL~HACHA~ Who the fuck is Margarette Thatcher??? I honestly don't know, so don't ask.

One second. My Mic just called me. she said " TtteeenNNnnccHHhiii, UsssEEee meee~ SinnnGGg inn Myy Tighhhttt Conndennserrr Hollle" bastard. She knows I want to, but she is just teasing me. t-_- t bitch. When my voice comes back, you watch out Mic-helle. <-PUHAHAHHA

Oh oh on a side note.. I'm doing another collab with my boy Illastrayte... very soon ~ We are doing a remix of Jay seans- i'm gone. I'm doing the vocals, and he will build up his lyrical skills and blow y'all out the water. I hope I can be the flowerpot to make his talents bloom ya feel me? I might not look all that fancy or pretty as a flower, but as a flowerpot, I can make him stand out even more.

You know what I hate? I feel there are so many people out there with such great talents, but its such a shame they are not discovered. I always, well... NOT ALWAYS , but I often see talentless Bashools(made up word.) out in the media making all that paper, cheese, pepper jack, cheddar.. mmmm... cheese...anyway! they be making all the damn money. While talent-filled people such as iLLastrayte struggles to show the world what he's got. I don't know about you, but that kids been through some rough as shit I tell ya, I can see it in his Asian ass eyes man. The lyrics he spews out comes deep within man!

Another side note. A lot of fuggin side notes huh? lol. What I wanted to ask my readers/viewers was- what kind of topic do you wish for me to talk about in the future? What direction do you wish I would take? None of that, "Tenchi , you do you" type stuff. Lazy talk I tell you, lazy talk!

I really want to know what y'all want to see, or hear. If not, i'ma end up doing a fuggin cat videos again! MEOW MEOW MEOW~ getttt outtaa heaa lol. I'm just asking for some advice, and help~ I figured it would help me out a lot in the future~

Another side no- *BANG* ....R.I.P side note. (sorry for a long post)

-Tenchijk-

2010-03-16T23:22:00.001-07:00

Dear Readers,

Whoooooo~ I just got done cooking up a random dish. Have you ever done that in your spare time? Have you ever just looked into your lonely ass fridge and pulled out the equally lonely produce to cook something? I don't know about you guys , but i'm a cooking show addict. You all might be watching , Seinfeld, Garfield, and whatever the hell y'all watch these days.( I'm so outdated on television these days) The internet= my tv.

Anyway. While I was watching my favorite cooking show, I decided to take a little break from Gordon Ramsey's( My hero btw) Awesome rants and watch "The Pianist". If you haven't watched that movie... well... watch it. It will open your eyes to some brutal truth ,and perhaps find some peace in knowing that this world isn't as cruel as it was.(Though, things are slowly changing and becoming like Hitler's time)

Let me give you a short summary of what the movie is about, and why this is relevant to my lonely fridge. This movie is based on a true story, that took place in Poland during the second world war. Nazi Germany invaded Poland, Warsaw to be exact. There is a man named Spiel man. A renowned Pianist who is determined to survive this God awful mess of a time. To not spoil any plot, I will stop here. (sorry for a really bland summary, just go watch the dang thing lol)
Basically, Spielman goes around the empty ghettos, and ruins to scavenge food to survive. Sometimes he is lucky and finds Potatoes, some wheat,rice , and even canned peaches. He uses any pots he can find, and doesn't bother to filter out the water like we fortunately do. He does not have salt, and does not have spices... yet , the look on his face is wonderful when he tastes his bland, empty and sorrowful food.

Now. When I was watching Gordon Ramsey's show... though I love the show. It made me a tad bit ungrateful for the shitty food I had in my kitchen. I was like, " fresh potatoes? fresh onions!? Gawd this is awful... where its the Creame 'v'ule' " however the bloody fuck you spell it~ (Gordy talk lol). My goal tonight was to make a nice beef stew... a hearty meal. However, watching all that Gourmet nonsense in that show, made my stew idea just seemed PATHETIC.. and I didn't even want to cook!Them bastards on that show eat like kingssss, i mean kings DUDE~~

After watching that show, i went on youtube... and on my feature page there was a movie called "The pianist Part1 "... one of those bootlegged vids of course... but shiet, i couldn't resist.. its such a good movie. So I sat down and began to watch it... and eventually got sucked into Spielman's strive to survive and eat.
Then this is when I felt a little STING in my heart(ouchy)... Why the ouch? He was cooking some sort of stew in front of me! Talk about coincidence. He had 2 potatoes, a handful of rice, half an onion... and dirty medical water. He built a fire using broken chairs, and used a big pot to cook his meal. It looked delicious, only because of the way he was eating it... He had the look of satisfaction, he was very grateful he had "something" to eat.

Here I was in my kitchen with the following:
3 Golden potatoes
1 giant rose onion
plenty of barley and white rice ( not just cuz im asian, shiett)
Left over steak
Green onions

Chives
rosemary
garlic(minced)
Tomatoes
salt/pepper
Mirin(japanese vingar)
white wine
Ketchup
soysauce(asian black sauce...I kid i kid)
mushrooms...

You get the bloody point. I was UNGRATEFUL with this shit!? you believe that shit!? But after watching Spielman eating his water soup... Man, My heart stung. So I cooked my meal the same as he did lol. ( A pitiful way to justify myself somehow ahah)

Water, 2 Potatoes, handful of rice and some onions .... I ate it. and it tasted like Rat shit lol.(no ratauille here)

So i added salt and pepper(Started to cheat, but just a little). BUT it still tasted like rat shit. So I Looked around to see if anyone was looking , and I added all the other stuff and made a bomb-ass soup in the end... but while I was eating it, i was so grateful i had all these flavors to bring out my soup. It takes a simple perspective change, and its funny how quick I can reverse my ungratefulness over to the side of thankfulness. So I honestly felt God showed me that video at that exact moment to show me how arrogant i was. And point taken father.

on a side note.. I so need to teach you guys how to make the Soup I made... I made it ON the spot.. and named it , "The pianist's Soup" - ---I'll explain how i made it in my next post. I hope you all try it and enjoy it. Take care you guys!!

-Tenchi-

Titanic.

2010-03-15T15:52:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

I don't know if this might interest you guys, but I watched Titanic ... for the 15th (okay I lied 25th time). Now, I might have a super mean gangster outer shell ( i kid i kid) ,but deep inside I'm an Asian cupcake, sweet and delicious. (<--- excuse me y'all.)

Now, this being my 26th time... watching of course. I finally noticed something. That movie was about a girl who cheated on her finance and got with a random fling. Sure... that Leonardo was a good looking chap, but shiettt, so was the other dude! (no homo)

I can see why Rose would take leo though. Him being all mysterious and adventurous. While The rich dude is dull, loves cigars and treats her like a second class citizen... So I can't really judge the girl, but I couldn't stop thinking about the two elderly couple who were holding hands while the bed rose to their death. (now thats true love folks, not rose and jack lol)Damn, they looked near their 80th b-day~ And they were holding their hands together tightly and just awaited death together. Now, that was a beautiful site(a construction site ? dude... this fool can't spell. Sight dude, sight). I could imagine God looking down from above just saying... " aww... what can you ask for? this is the most beautiful death one can ask for." (yes God talks in rhymes)

Other people might say, if he is God why did he let it happen ,etc etc... Shoot.. if i was God i'd prolly do the same thing. The human arrogance always needs to be in check, or some ridiculous shit happens. The dude who built the dang ship said " even God couldn't sink the ship". Well, he just did...(AND 1!) To prove a point? maybe~ To show humanity that they are becoming arrogant? perhaps~ Whatever he does , he does it according to his will , so let it be~(beatles yayuh)

Anyways... finally after my 26th observation(yes observation, i wasn't watching it for the pleasure of it! thats ridiculous! ) , I realized Titanic is not a Love story, but a story of lust and infatuation. big word big word. It means sexual attraction for you young'n's out there. I wish they will make Titanic .And this story will be about those two elderly couple ...(Margarette and Peter Johnson) how they met, how they eventually ended up on the titanic ,and what made them just lay on their beds to await death. Have you noticed? they were RICH son! they weren't 3rd class or second class~ they COULD have escaped on the boats, but they obviously chose to lay there together. Thats why that part was so significant.

I don't why i'm talking about Titanic all of a sudden... maybe its cause this medicine is getting me all mushy and corny inside ahah. I'm all love sick, and ... shiet. Man... man up Tenchi!! comon now!! JEAAA lol... <--- i apologize for this ladies and gentleman lol.

Anyway, In conclusion. Find your true love~ andddd get old with them, and I hope y'all can have a super romantic death with the one you love. Almost creepy ain't it? but , HONESTLY... You have to go eventually, so wouldn't it be lovely to die next to someone you love most? I think it would almost be comforting. Unless its like a car crash... then it would be the most horrific thing... to watch your love one crash with you.. oh man. no good no good.

I dunno.. death is soo damn creeeeeepy yo. Its giving me chills ~ I keep imagining what my friends must have seen when they closed their eyes. Did they just see black, and their brain shut off. Or did they see themselves as a ghost, and follow into the light? or did a chariot come down from above with angels guiding their way?Or was their Buddha that came out and said, ahahha, you turn into a frog. Or did indeed Jesus come down and say, come and be judged. Man... Lot of things to wonder about.

I personally feel, the Moment you die, the Lord will come personally down to greet his brothers and sisters. I can imagine him being this cool , laid back dude " YoooHOooo~~ bruhh~ looks whoos deadddd... my man Tench Jkk, oh hoho okay okay~ JK huh?? ahhh aha i told pops about chu mang~ he watches your channel, says you cuss to dang much, but s'all gravy D , i watch chu all the time.Even when you poopss >.^ "

- KINDAAAA creeepy. anyways, peace y'all.

anyways, thats me for now~ take care you guys!!!

-Tenchijk-

p.s the ( ) with comments in them... i hope they are not annoying yah ahha. I do a commentary of my OWN writing. HAHAH... When i go and spell check, i add comments to my own writing... <-- loser. Anyways, if it annoys ya too much, tell me ^_^. pce

Hater post 2 (cont.)

2010-03-13T12:54:00.000-08:00

Dear Readers,

This conversion proved to be interesting so I want you all to see it.

ShaJenSte said...

I should give you a round of applause!
You do a good job at getting pity, you almost had me. I mean is this really a joke, if anybody on here actually read your so called "Hater Post" they would see you proved my point completely. You ended up breaking her heart bc you really weren't ready for that relationship. Have you ever heard the saying about sticks and stones. If you really cared for her it wouldn't have mattered what was said to you, you would have stuck by her side. I mean these posts came from random ppl, so just imagine if it were your family or friends. You definitely would have been done for bc you let ppl you didn't even know affect the outcome of your relationship.
Also you said you cant judge ppl if you haven't been in their shoes, well maybe you should take your own advice. I don't know about you but I believe everything that is said or done in this world is done for a reason. With that being said there was a reason I post that comment. Yes I'm only seventeen but that does not mean I don't go threw things in my life. As a result of an interracial relationship and family, I think those types of relationships are a beautiful thing to see. But only when its pure and from the heart not to make a point!
Just like girl A I also know a girl who was in love with a guy who was not her race. To be honest I personally never thought they would end because they had that love that was unshakeable at least I thought so anyway. But, any ways unlike you I don't want any pity so imma get str8 to the point. Bc he couldn't take all the negative aspects of the relationship like he did the positive they ended up breaking up bc even though he loved her so much other ppls opinions obviously mattered more. Nw when I look at her I feel sorry for her bc I knw in my heart she will probably never be able to love like she loved him for a long time, which is so sad bc she is so young.
So as her close and personal friend I promised my self that i would never let that happen to anyone else and if i seen it happening i would speak my mind on it so hopefully that girls heart wouldn't be as crush as my friend heart was.
So trust me I'm definitely not hating on you, I just (unlike most ppl) tell the truth and speak my mind without sugar coating anything. Maybe I could have said it in a better way but when I think about it I dont regret anything I said nor will I take it back How you take it is your own problem, and I personally think that it hit a soft spot for you bc you obviously felt that need to put me on "blast", which you really didnt do. All you did was put yourself on blast for what you did and just basically gave reasons for it so you could make yourself feel better

MARCH 13, 2010 8:54 AM

Replied here because it was much too long on the normal comment box lol. And sorry for the caps, i can't change it for some reason. It makes it sound like i'm screaming ahah, but i assure you i'm not screaming... maybe at the end, but not now ahaha. anyways... read on~

ShaJenSte- look little sister,If i wanted to put you on blast I could have, like calling out on your grammar skills, and your lack of general respect. The reason why I didn't was, because I do agree with what you said.(not all, but the main point yes)

However,I already expressed how sorry I was for what I have done.But i don't need to be apologetic to you,ever. The reason why I posted this is so that people like yourself can self-reflect. You are merely 17 years old , and that means really nothing when your get older.Trust me lol.

When i was 17 I thought I knew the world completely, and I had determination that I will live a perfect, or rather good life.

As i grew older I realized that was NOT the case. As I "experienced" life more, it became clear that people indeed make many mistakes. Although, I'm not saying just because someone is older, they are smarter or better then you ... some cases yes, but generally not true. anyway.

Little sister,The reason why I wrote the previous post was NOT to get pity. matter of fact, if i wanted Pity, i would Get it from my family and friends. Who by the way are always on my side, regardless of my actions. That's why they are my family and friends for most part.

You also mentioned these "random" people(my lovely subscribers) as well... Please... these "random" people have experienced my life,and truly understand the pain and struggle I go through. They not only understand, but they can relate to it, because they've been through similar actions in their life. They also agree I am not some role model, but rather a NORMAL human being that truly do make mistakes. they also do not "condone" the BEHAVIOR, however, they will not judge me for it. (unlike somebodyyYyy *singsong*)

I honestly wish I could say i will never have this experience again. The fact is, I don't know that. All I know is this experience has opened my eyes a bit, and I will probably be more attentive to the matter. However, i know I can't guarantee it. if you really do care for other women as you said, pray for me. pray that i won't make the same mistakes and go down that path. its a much better alternative then "you did this, you did that"

Now...What irks me the most is your lack of self respect, and of course respect for others. You mentioned you don't like to sugar coat things and you like to tell the truth. This is because you don't have self discipline. Everyone Wishes to say whats on their mind. Who doesn't?( why you litdwdawd %%@^#%&!*) However! we are not living in this world by ourselves, and we must hold our tongue.and You can say everything you need to say in a respectful manner.

I do apologize if I sound like I'm patronizing(that means treating you like a little kid ) you, it's because I see you as my little sister. You have lots to learn in this world. So do I , but you seem very naive to the little things that will one day get you hurt. one day that finger you pointed at me, will return back to you ten fold throughout your life. if you deny that, thats like saying your a perfect human being... and we the readers, myself, and yourself know that is not true.(horrible grammar , but it sounded interesting aahha)

Now... Imagine if you lived in a world where everyone told the truth... Sounds like an ideal world don't it? not. If we had pure hearts, it would be filled with compliments and joy.A truthful world would be wonderful if that was the case. "top of the mornin to ya! i love your smile mate!" but, reality is " fuck off~ get that ugly smirk of your face, urghh you again? ugh i hate you..." this world would be a horrible place to live. even if you got used to it. Even in the bible, it states, the heart is beyond the most evil out of all things...

you also said a quote-"sticks and stones will..." *sigh* have you ever heard of " if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all?" or were you too busy memorizing the first one?*whispers* i like the second quote better >.^

I hope one day when you get older(one one day you shall!) you will find it in your heart to understand where i'm coming from. I also wish you would understand that I am sorry for what I have done, and that I really do regret it. BUT...

I want you to know something.you are seriously kicking a guy on the ground right now.out of all the times you could have chastised me, why now? why when i'm feeling the most miserable!?? tossing salt on my open wounds.little sister, You clearly made my day the worst anyone can imagine. Not because of what you said, but just the condition I am in. you just added that pinch of salt that made my day just so damn salty. (<--- that ladies and GENTLEMAN is a good analogy.)

I really do appreciate you for ruining my already shitty day.

And If you laughed just now, and felt all warm and fuzzy inside, because you felt accomplished-it's probably because you have no heart.(so i hope you don't laugh, because its not funny T_T)And I wish you wouldn't take it upon yourself to make my day more horrible then it already is.

Also-The only difference between my actions and other men, was Mine was in the open for everyone to see. I was not ashamed of my flaws...(kinda) People know i'm not perfect(kinda jkjk), and I knew people would still accept me for who i am(hopefully). Would you have known, or even cared if I haven't posted it up? You wouldn't have right?

so please stop this self-righteous talk about how your right and I'm wrong ,and how I should be in misery for the rest of my life for it.

No, i will not. I will move the fuck( oOo one cuss word in this whole blog, im proud^^) on, and live my damn life. 2.

If you read my previous post, you will know I already got what i deserved.

your older brother,

Tenchi

p.s thanks for that round of applause! >.^

Hater post.(please read)

2010-03-12T18:42:00.001-08:00

Dear Readers,
I do not want to put this girl on blast, but I think its about time I crush this annoyance once and for all. She wrote:

ShaJenSte said...

You knw you wut imma nt gn be scared i jus come out and say it! I think your full of shit! Nw I knw im only seventeen and some times i cn do some so shallow stuff but rlly goin out with a black girl so you can "walk the walk" OMG it doesnt get any better than that does it. Jus do me a favor if she really as pretty as you say dont waste her time if you dnt really care for her and cant do better than walking the walk by going with her! Bc Im pretty sure if she as wonderful as you make her sound she deserves better than that!

By this I'm guessing she is implying , that ONE girl, whom I cannot say the name no longer. For the sake of easily naming her, lets call her, Girl A. Now this girl above commented in a irrelevant post, and I just felt the need to answer her promptly.
For those who have no idea what I'm talking about, i will give you a brief summary of what happened. Several months ago, i was with a girl named "Eri---". I went out with her for aprox. 2 months, and she played me with 5 other dudes... well, she played all of them anyways. A damn pro at that lol.
Needless to say I was devastated, I shouldn't have been, but I was heart broken. I think I fell really deep for this girl... Around 1-2 weeks later, I started to get a lot of moral support from several people on youtube,msn,skype and aim. Good old online conversations to cheer me up from my heart ache. One girl stood out amongst that group. She happened to be Girl A.
My first mistake was, I let my guard down, and I let her compliments sooth me and comfort me. I don't mean to blame her at all, but, she knew exactly what was going on in my life , since she is a subscriber of my channel. I told her i was not ready for a relationship, nor do I feel comfortable meeting new people or etc etc... She understood, and we had a casual conversation here and there. However, In my state of mind... that shit is just not possible. Needless to say she was an attractive girl, and her personality was up there in the clouds(thats a good thing by the way). She and I started to flirt more often then not, and eventually got into a "likeable" situation. The whole time , to tell the truth, I was afraid of commitment and any sort of relationship...This was where i was selfish and most definitely wrong. I didn't hurt as much from the 5 timer because I felt "comforted" by girl A.
Later on, knowing already we live only hours away, decided to meet up. For a date. I wanted to test it out. To see if this could be a casual, "seeing each other" type thing. See, my mentality is this : First you get to know them, then go on a date, THEN decide whether or not you want to "see each other", THEN get into a serious relationship.
Anyway, the First date comes along. I was nervous, and excited , and believe it or not I WAS happy. When I first saw her, I did find her very attractive and beautiful.then... The problems started to rise up...

First- The drive. It takes an hour, forty minutes. I'm thinking , " crap... this might not work out because its long distance..." but, i've been in L.Ds before , so I figured i give it a shot.

Second- I met her at a Starbucks, thinking it will just be her. Nope. She came with her entourage. Of 3 people... so here I am, at a Starbucks with 4 people, whom I never met. Mind you, i never met the girl i was meeting EITHER. Stress started to build up immensely. But... I put a smile up, and just tried to enjoy my day.

third- Eventually her friends did leave . The thing that truly got me moved, and scared at the same time was the gift she brought me. It was almost difficult to accept it, because it must have cost her over 90 dollars... Of course i was thankful, but deep inside , i was taken back a little bit. A lot actually...

I don't want to get too much into the date, however that day ended good. We both had a good time, and we discussed a lot of things. Things became really difficult after the first date however.
I started getting mail on the daily from black women saying, you better not "fuck up". That didn't really affect me that much, i get hate mail daily anyway, so I just brushed my shoulders off on that matter. However, what did started to pinch my nerves were these comments :

" You DO know shes a celeb. right? Your a punk bitch, your only using her to gain fame huh?"
" your using her ... " etc etc...
That started to drive me insane!!! I didn't want ANY of this drama! I wanted to be alone and not in pain! God, it felt no one in the world would let me breath for just a FUCKING SECOND! People left and right saying don't fuck up now~ Your using her for your own benefit ~ when are you gonna get married says her friends.
Eventually, my brain just stopped. Everything became quiet. I told her in a letter, that I cannot do this anymore. She was in love with me she said... and that I was the one she said... Those are good things to hear when your emotionally stable and happy.

But,When you don't feel the same way, or your in a miserable state, those words just become pressure beyond reasoning. It felt, her life , her heart is now in my incapable hands.

So, i knew I dragged this way too longer then I should have. If I was a smart and a kind man, i WOULD have never started anything. However, that was where I was definitely weak. These are the type of things I wish I could change, and just relive it to fix it. However, life is NEVER that kind.
I still get this way too many times... these young girls. Who want to judge me for what I have done... It's so easy to judge someone when your not in their shoes. So easy to tell someone to quit cigarettes when they themselves never tried it. Or those who self righteously say I will never cheat in my life, when in fact they don't know what will come about them in the future. So many people judge one another , mainly because they don't see the similar flaws in themselves. I am by no means justifying myself. What I have done, though very conditional, still is very wrongful done. And I Apologize to her and her alone.
The lesson, or point i wanted to make with this post was to tell others never to judge others. Never condemn another, because one point in your life you will face a similar situation, and you would understand why it had to happen that certain way. I hope this post will be the last to explain what happened IN MY life.

Thanks for reading.

-Tenchijk-

Funny Ephiphany

2010-03-10T21:44:00.001-08:00

Dear Reader,
Have you ever wondered what the hell you want to do with your life? I've been thinking about that for months and months now. I honestly don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life. Do I want to become a writer? Honestly!? that shit ain't fun to do when its work. Especially articles lol. Blogs are fun ,yes, but writing articles... whew~ don't have enough words mang I tell ya.
An actor... ?If only if it was that easy, then hell yes, that would be an awesome life style. Then again, I can sooo see it contradicting with my christiany life style.( minus the cussing lol.. and.. killing, and robbing people -_-'') I imagine myself, drinking, doing drugs and banging 2000 dollar hookers. Thats the reality of it. If I had money, I probably wouldn't be myself for very long.

Sure, I can tell myself, "hey dude, your different! your humble! you can go out and give the money to the poor!" who the hell am I kidding... Maybe for a few years, I'd go to a 3rd world country and give to the poor, and help out the innocent dying babies... but what happens when I start lagging on my bills? Shiet, back to reality kid... My life is so much more important then the dying Kids... I'm a selfish bastard 24/7. Outwardly, I'm a good kid, living a normal ass life. But,Just like the bible says , There is nothing more corrupted then the hearts of Human beings. Ain't that the damn truth.
Recently, I've been looking at my spiritual life. Its been a mess. Where is God in my life? I always put him 200th on my list of things to do. I know you guys do too...I wonder why is that? We always shout to him when we are down, and when we are sick. However, when things are nice and dandy, HA-CHA~ screw you God, your not in my life no more~ Thats ridiculous though...
Here is the thing I realized recently.-There was a time when I got drunk, Kevin Bacon drunk. My life seemed PERFECT... just happy, and enjoying life to the fullest.Thankful about the littlest things, like having toilet paper, and having those scrubby things in the shower. However, the very next day... my life seemed completely horrible! It might be the dreadful hangover, but that wasn't it. It was my perspective of the matter. The only difference from that night, and the morning was the drink in my system and out. The situation, and condition of my life has been identical. Yet, that morning seemed so much worse. It was the way I perceived things. Then I began to wonder... what is real and what is fake? I Got all matrix up in my head lol. The red pill or the blue pill Neo? shiettt I don't know duddde...
I digress... I decided to just keep a positive outlook on anything. If my life is the same as the night i drank, and the day i woke up, then that means... I have no reason to be sad, or be depressed on the day i woke up.I still got nice ass toilet paper with that bear on it, and I still got a nice purple scrubby thing to wash my ass with. I don't know if i'm making any sense right now, but As I was taking a walk (being that i'm pretty much paralyzed from sitting down for 3 days...) something hit me.
I started to feel SOOO damn depressed.Like the ring coming out of that scary ass well depressed. I was miserable, and I honestly wanted someone to mercy kill my ass. But, I felt this warm shoulder over mine. It wasn't another person, I want to believe it was the good God above who lent me a hand. He told me, " look dude, you were happy 3 days ago. Your life is prettty much the samme as three days ago... you were thankful for the things you had, and you were grateful to me. If you were complaining about the sickness, I understand son... but your not complaining about the pain, your complaining about the things you don't have. The things you wish you had. So why are you complaining now? Cheer up buddy, i'm still with you, now and then. Don't lose hope in me. "
When i heard that in my head, first i thought, I need to stop taking these damn pills. Secondly, I was able to be thankful again. I have so much in this life... No money though , thats a damn shame, but I have lovely fans who care for my health. I have friends who care enough to save my life. Life is A- okay folks. I wish you all would have the same epiphany i had. Sorry i couldn't explain it more throughly. I love you guys, and thank you so much for the support!

-TenchiJK-

near death experience.

2010-03-10T11:55:00.000-08:00

Dear readers,
3 days ago, I almost died.Let me rephrase this, I ALMOST DIED!!! Did I see lights shining before my eyes? pff~On the contrary, I saw the back of my eyelids, just convulsing. My body fell into a sweet surrender, as I realized, if I gave one last breath, i would most probably die. It was the weirdest feeling, I actually knew i was going to die.A 6th sense if you will, and No, i did not see half bald Bruce Willis.
The last person I talked to was a very special girl(she pretty much saved my life), and she was telling me to call the hospital , because she felt I wasn't right(in the head most likely). I honestly thought i caught the flu of some sort, and I was being a "man " and handling the pain with a blanket and some tea. Boy was I wrong.
For hours , I covered my body with blankets to warm myself up, but my body just became hotter and hotter(ya know~ ya know~ ahah jkjk). Yet, I was FREEZING... and trembling. Sweating, but it was from cold sweats, not from actually being warm... I was being stubborn, because i've been in an AMBULANCE , and that shit is not funny. They charge 900 dollars just to ride in the bicccch~ so I said, HAIL no, i'ma coped this one out~(btw, why charge that much?anybody know?)
1-2 hours pass, and I felt faint, I couldn't move my fingers, nor could i speak.I felt like E.T , except i couldn't heal myself. I knew this was no damn flu...I was honestly thinking it was swine flu... condemning myself for not taking a shower recently. I was thinking , "you dirtyyy ass, you should have man T__T, you have should have washed ya ass!! look at yourself, now you got the piggy flu manggg T__T)
The last thing i saw on my aim-box was , " call your friend!!! " so with the last strength in my body, i leaned to grab my cellphone, and called a friend of mine that happened to live hours away. All I remember saying is " dude.. i'm sick.. please come ge..."
I don't even remember if i said anything else. Next thing I know, i'm in the dreaded E.R, with a big ass pipe down my throat... (don't even think of the gay way... tsk.)and I passed out again. More hours later, i was in the hospital bed with that butt-flap dress. I looked like a retarded ass Tarzan... You know that gown they give you, where if you get a boner its very impressive looking ... hehe~
Now, after a few hours, I was back in consciousness. Apparently, it was some sort of poisoning... who would poison me!?? They say, its more likely from liquids , then food... I told them, all I drank today was water... And bam, they sent some dudes to check my pipes and etc etc...wait that sounded gay.. the actual water pipes fools =_=.. anyways, they investigated , and they found nothing as of yet... though I'm forbidden to eat anything from my crib. Been eating Cam-bells soups and bottled waters for 3 days now... and I'm in hella pain. I feel a bit better now though.I've been shivering, throwing up, dry heaving, and just wanting to die!! However, In this experience, like always.. I realized, Life is DAMN short. Anything could take your ass out in this world, Yet we complain about the little shiet... I say this quite often, only to forget in an instance... but I thank God for reminding me with this kind of event to put me back in shape, and walk on. <-- deep, take it to heart ladies and gentleman.
For you lots out there who got issues and complaints, just imagine the pain i'm going through ahaha, and just brush your shoulders off. TRUST me, this shit ain't pretty... My stomach is EATEN ALIVE by my OWN ACIDS... comon now~ ahaha. So, I hope y'all have a better week, and a more positive attitude this week. Oh and I decided to stop writing my novel on this blog, sorry for the people who read it... I will just finish it, and publish it ^_^. Y'all better buy that shit, or i'ma cry. ANYWAYS... pray for me y'all~ and take care!!!

-Tenchijk-

The black star(minisode)chapter 1 part 7

2010-03-06T18:10:00.000-08:00

(previously)“where do we go!? We don't know where to go anymore!” a warrior exclaimed . “anywhere but here! I will lead, follow me! “ Tu'p grabbed unto the reigns of the mount and charged into the unknown. He crashed into stone-trees, and crunched upon the silent nomad beetles , but he fearlessly charged in. “brother!!! where are you!!” As he shouted , the other warriors began shouting with him. Perhaps it was out of sympathy, or perhaps it was from their fear wanting to be expressed in a much benign way. Where ever they were going, their concerns and fears caused them to forget about the strong effects of sleep in the Julgar. The julgar forest emits sleeping toxin into the air causing temporal body coma, then when the victims are caught into the heavy sleep , creatures greater then the Morlaks come out to feast upon them. Some creatures are known to be so horrendous, even the matured Morlaks themselves lay victim to their power.

The Morlak which was asleep , managed to open its eyes and gain back consciousness. The Monster had no knowledge of this place. Being brought up in the Sion house as a pet , carried no information of the place that needed be. It was much too tamed ,and had no experience out this deep into the wilderness. This Morlak spent most of his days in the plains feasting on cattle, horses and the little creatures that roamed the safer out lands. It faced eminent danger, for now he needed to protect this child, and he was in a place where The monster itself was not safe.
As he gained the strength to shake of the sleep empowered over him, he began to move the muscles in his loins, and woke the boy. “ we must get out of here, it is not safe, there is an evil presence here” The boy ignored the creature, for his sleep was too tantalizing. The Morlak decided to take it upon himself and carried him to the lower side of the forest. He realized the energy of the sleeping toxins were stronger down below, and it exerted his remaining power to get to safety.

The Sion house was completely ransacked and the guards ,servants and maids alike were slaughtered. The soldiers from the Southern Neblu'es capital finally arrived from the distress call. They Reached this part of the land by Ex'il propelled ships, junk compared to the advance black class ships of the north. However, it was ran tightly by Captain Norlander , an officer of the law in the southern Neblu'es. He was a tall man, with a dark figure. His eyes were Grey like of wolves and he always talked with a snap and a snarl. He also carried the rare Silver tongue on his side, and he fancied the Interceptor Rapier on his back. He wore a Pauldron that was specially designed to bear his mark, a bird with a knife in its mouth.
“ where be the survivors? I see no one here.” Captain Norlander snarled. He spat on the ground, and snorted while rubbing his scruffy nose with his gloves. “ have the men look around , what are ye waiting for , get to it then!” He pulled out his rapier from his back and started moving debris on the ground, honestly to look for lost jewelry or some loot. “captain! I hear a noise here under here!” Captain Norlander walked casually to the site and blasted the stone with his silver tongue. The stone cracked and a voice screamed underneath. “ What is it!?” shouted a Soldier standing by. “pull the damn rocks apart and find out boy!”blustered the tad frighten captain. The soldiers near by rushed to pull the debris that was blown apart by the Silver tongue. Coughing was heard and blood was evident near the site. “ why … would you …” hacked a women underneath the rubble. She was intact except for the silver tongue projectile straight in her stomach. She was bleeding ,and was no longer conscious .
“sir, I believe your weapon struck her through.” Captain Norlander spat on the ground and said “ move out, nothing bloody to see here, move! you rat bastards!” A young corporal by the name of Jansi , went to close her eyes so she may find rest.
The rest of the soldiers searched about, for loot mainly, more then anything else. There motive was not to save these people ,rather they came for their own selfish gains. They truly showed what beasts are capable that day.
“look what we have here!” singsonged a grungy soldier. “ please help me, the Mondus came and killed everyone! Have you seen my mistress!?” The solider looked around to see if any eyes were on him, and he started to whisper. “ Its okay lady, I will save you, but you need to do something for me first .” crackled the man. “ no...please, what are you doing!” As he started to forcefully undress the maid, Jansi busted through the door. “ what the hell are you doing Hunter! Get your filthy hands of her!” Hunter slowly turned around agitated and said “ my my, Jansi all grown up are we? This here is my find , get the hell out of here boy before I pull your intestine out under ya!” Jansi pulled out his Pistol and directly aimed at Hunter. He chuckled and reacted “ oh, little Jansi is going to shoot a fellow solider of the Delamony huh? Why, looks like we got our self a little predicament don't we?” Jansi looked terrified , but yet still kept his resolved and pointed the gun straight on his skull.
“get back! I swear upon my mother I will shoot you! Lady get behind me!” The maid weeping crawled over to Jansi and grabbed his legs. “Oh, you wanted the lady was it? Why didn't you say so! Jansi is all grow-” The pistol shot, and Jansi's face was covered with the remains of Hunters inner head. Shaking, he dropped his pistol and ran out with the maid. “ we need to get out of her ! I just killed my fellow man, I will be hung in the city! Do you know a way out!?” The maid was afraid and shocked by his actions, but nodded promptly and grabbed his arm. “yes , Madam Hotoko taught me a passage way in the case of death. Follow me” She guided him towards the tunnel la'sion and the Guardsman once fled.
“do you see the glow ,brothers?” Tu'p bellowed. “ yes I do , but what is – wait, do you hear that?” The silent growl became gently louder. The Mondus warriors moved there bodies to potentially defend themselves from an ambush. “ Stay on guard brothers, this will not be over so quick”
One of the Mondus warrior screamed as his body got slashed into pieces by a giant creature unknown. “Everyone dismount! Form a tight circle inside the Tor'mals, our mounts will be our shield!”
The Warriors quickly alighted and formed a circle with their sabers,and spears pointing outwards. “hold steady brothers, when you feel a presence do not hesitant to strike!” Tu'p encouraged them. “ I think I hit something!” shouted a warrior. His Tor'mal cried with pained , as he struck his own mount . The glow around them became brighter, and the pores down below bursted out sleeping toxins greater then before.
“where are we!? And who is this man” Jansi said as he saw the half eaten body. The maid sobbing went to identify the corpse. “ I don't know... I can't tell who he is, its awful!” She ran to Jansi and cried on his shoulders. “This looks like a Morlak track, but A Morlak? Here?! We must go back!” Jansi looked at her and said “ We cannot enter her! Where is the way out!? I am not going into that forest, do you know where that is!?” A difficult smile came upon her and said “ That is not an exit, that is a decoy, the real exit is by those trees. Master Of the house used that forest to send evil men to there deaths, if they dared enter that is. Come follow me” She ran grabbing her dress up to avoid getting wet. Jansi and the maid eventually approached a Tree that was about three people wide. “ Its here somewhere... Madam once told me there was a lever of some kind... help me look for it. Jansi dropped his gear and began to look.

to be continued

The black star(minisode)chapter 1 part 6

2010-03-04T19:52:00.000-08:00

(previously)The warrior who was holding onto his armour quickly rushed to Va'lus and handed it to him. “Change of plans, every body goes into the forest! If you want your brothers to live you will protect each other diligently! Move out !” The unwilling warriors short of morale followed Va'lus their new self acclaimed Or'mac into the Julgar Forest which held dangerous beyond the imagination of any Mondus.

“Va'lus... a word with you if I may.” Marl'ec initiated. Va'lus looked straight ahead and paid no attention to him. “Va'lus, when we enter these forests, if I am to sleep, take my life.” Marl'ec said his peace and continued to ride behind him. The day around them was quickly eaten by the shadows ,and the light began to strain to shine. As they approached the Julgar, sweat started to squeeze out of the Mondus warriors. Even the toughest of all warriors were scared of this place.
“ Pull your wits about you, what you have heard as a child has been stories to shed fear into you my brothers!” Tu'p the youngest of the warriors declared. He was the Brother to Marl'ec , and though he was the younger one , he was by far the greater warrior and much bigger in size. However, Marl'ec was ever so cunning, Tu'p has never been able to defeat him in a duel for his speed was out matched every time. “how do you know they weren't stories?” a warrior riding behind him whispered. “ I don't.” Tu'p struck his mount and carried on faster. The Trees began to form quite differently as they entered the forest. The tall green trees merged into stone, as if they were melted together to become one. The dark green leaves, seemed to glow and beneath the leaves were the glowing eyes of creatures admist. The wind was stale and old,and reeked of the deceased. The tainted ground, although hard to see were filled with Nomad Beetles scrapping across the dirt. Hundreds and thousands of the insects scourged about, clashing there shells together to make the sound of ancient drums. The Mondus eyes began to lose visibility, instead, their eyes depended now on their ears. Using sound to guide their way they rode on ,and their mounts cried out in disapproval.
A dark creature swooped by screeching , and the creatures within began to growl louder and louder as if to say get out of here. The Mondus rider defense-fully looked around and started to feel the pressure of the sleep. “Lepo'ar!!” Marl'ec shouted at his injured mount as he was flung out of it. “ brother! Where are you!” Tu'ps voice echoed deep into the julgar, and the creatures within fell into complete surrender. The Nomad beetles on the ground became silent, as did the whole forest itself. “Va'lus... be on your guard, some thing isn't right!”
“Idiot! Of course something isn't right! If you have no wise thing to say keep you mout-” Before
he had the chance to finish he was struck by some mysterious force. His struggle brought worry unto them, and his voice sounded of defeat. “help me!” va'lus' shout slowly died off as he was dragged by this mysterious creature. Many of the warriors cheered raising their spears into the sky .
“Lets get out of here!” one of the warriors said. “ wait! We must find my brother!” Tu'p exclaimed. “it is too late for Marl'ec, the Julgar has already feasted on him” He looked appalled yet no body could see his expression in the cold darkness. “ No he is alive! We must -”
“ Tu'p, this is not your – wait... where are we?” Tu'p also began to sense they had no idea where they were. The sounds of the forest was still silent, except for the sounds of mucus and teeth deep within. “look for a light ! There must be !” Using their ears and their voice they started to develop some form of vision, but failed at it. “lets keep going! We cannot go back!”
“where do we go!? We don't know where to go anymore!” a warrior exclaimed . “anywhere but here! I will lead, follow me! “ Tu'p grabbed unto the reigns of the mount and charged into the unknown. He crashed into stone-trees, and crunched upon the silent nomad beetles , but he fearlessly charged in. “brother!!! where are you!!” As he shouted , the other warriors began shouting with him. Perhaps it was out of sympathy, or perhaps it was from their fear wanting to be expressed in a much benign way. Where ever they were going, their concerns and fears caused them to forget about the strong effects of sleep in the Julgar. The julgar forest emits sleeping toxin into the air causing temporal body coma, then when the victims are caught into the heavy sleep , creatures greater then the Morlaks come out to feast upon them. Some creatures are known to be so horrendous, even the matured Morlaks themselves lay victim to their power.

The black star(minisode)chapter 1 part 5

2010-03-03T17:10:00.000-08:00

(PREVIOUSLY ON THE BLACK STAR)“Die.” The Mondus snapped the guards neck and rushed unto the next. “where is the boy!?”He interrogated. As this young man choked, he replied strenuously . “ he … left... with ...” The strain was much to great for his tiny neck, so he passed on to the other life. The mondus spoke in their native tongue, and immediately, the surrounding riders charged towards the men and began to slaughter them one after another. Only moments later, it became quiet, with only few Mondus riders injured. The shame of being injured was to great for some, and if their hands were slightly blemished , they used their blades to cut it off. They felt it was better to lose an arm, then to be scraped by a lowly creature such as the humans.
“Look for him. Now!” Va'lus commanded. So they grunted with agreement and commenced searching for the boy. (this is a bit longer one. sorry for the mistakes in grammar)

“There coming for you.”hissed the Morlak to the boy. He nodded , as he wasn't too surprised. “I know, I can feel their anger towards me”

The beast slithered to the nearest Relan'je stone-tree, and climb up to the highest point scaring the little beasts along the way.
“why if I may ask?” La'sion held out his hands and touched the Morlak on its carapace. A striking pain entered the morlak, and it cried out . “enough! Enough boy!” The Morlak shaking from the sudden pain , realized the motives behind the Mondus. Striking images flushed throughout the Morlak's mind, and in a mere second, The Morlak knew everything he needed to know.
“ I am tired...” said La'sion. His eyes gradually closed and fell into a peaceful slumber.
“ sleep. I will protect you till you wake” The Morlak struggled to keep its eyes open, and it as well could not stand the empowering force of the stone-tree. The luring smell, and the tranquilizing flowers within have captured them into a deep coma.
“ Va'lus!” A mondus rider shouted out. “ what is it Tor ? Have you news of the boy!?” Tor , looked weary and said unto him. “ Va'lus , I found a dead human. He will killed by a Matured Morlak! We should not venture after them, they are in the forests of Jugarl.”
“have you found tracks!?” waveringly Tor replied. “ yes … but, it is much too dangerous ! The Morlak alone will tear us to shreds!” Va'lus gave him a sharp stare, and ignored his insolence.
“Tor, Marl'ec and Tu'p come with me, rest of you back to camp!” With his command, an equally decorated Mondus rider dared to challenge him. “Va'lus, you have been provoking my patience old friend, when have you become our Or'mac!?” Va'lus dismounted , and dropped to the ground and began to wipe his bloody hands with the dirt. When the blood on his hands dried off, he grabbed a fistful of dirt and disrespectfully tossed it at the challenger. “ Do not play with your life , old fool, I have little time for games. Here, at this moment I am Or'mac! You will do as I say, or you will surely die!”
“Va'lus, you wish to take my life? Then so be it. but ,Do not take the lives our younger brothers to the forest of Jugarl. You know we cannot venture there and survive! Your hunger for power has driven you mad!” Va'lus furiously grabbed unto his own armour and ripped it off. He handed his armour, his weapon and all that he had to the warrior next to him. “ Sennye... off your stead, and fight me honorably. I win , we venture through and see where our luck takes us, lose, and I will give you my Morlak skin.” Sennye who always coveted his matured Morlak skin only but accepted, for the prize was much to tempting. “ I am old, but you will never best me yet!”
Sennye, grey from the years of battle looked much more gritty and broken. His left eye carried a mark of defeat from years back, a scar originally much smaller, but through self affliction covered his whole left eye. A young human girl using a standard sword managed to scrap his eye, through the law of the Mondus, he had to cut that blemish off. For to him, it was law, for he was an example to look up to for the new-birth warriors of the Mondus.
They began to circle around , feeling each others senses to see who will strike first. Few testing hit were thrown , and they were simply parried . For minutes they only but tested each other, because they knew there was only one time and one chance to defeat the opponent. The other warriors stood by chanting Worfa worfa worfa. A common cheer for these kind of event.
Abruptly, Sennye the grey took his first strike. Using his feet to close the gap, he twisted his hips ,and on the right time used his claws to swipe. Unfortunately for him, Va'lus was much too fast and managed to dodge it. He sprung around Sennye and using his thumbs and two of his clawed fingers grabbed unto his neck and punctured it. The other warriors looked appalled, because in a duel between the veterans, there must be no death.
However,blood Gushed out over his shoulders,and Sennye fell to his knees blurting out “ Do not … take them to the forest!” exerting his last moments, this old warrior grabbed onto Va'lus and said “ please...Va'lus they die for no good...” He slowly closed his eyes, and his body twitched for the last time as he fell into a honorable sleep. Va'lus looked slightly remorse , but quickly masked his guilt and closed the old man's eyes. He stood up , and he felt the tension given by the onlookers. “Va'lus! how could you kill him?! You know he was to be our next Or'mac! Why did you do this! He was not your enemy!” Va'lus quickly struck the speaking warrior with the back of his hands, and shouted out “ If any of you dare defy me, I will single handily murder everyone of you, and your children!”
The warrior who was holding onto his armour quickly rushed to Va'lus and handed it to him. “Change of plans, every body goes into the forest! If you want your brothers to live you will protect each other diligently! Move out !” The unwilling warriors short of morale followed Va'lus. their new self acclaimed Or'mac into the Julgar Forest which held dangers beyond the imagination of any Mondus.

The black star chapter 1 part 4

2010-03-02T14:29:00.001-08:00

(previously on The Black Star)Dreadful moments later,La'sion pulled out his little hands out with a piece of liver and squeezed it between his tiny fingers and said to him.“ I hear you ,you know... Morlak is keeping you alive , so La'sion can play with you” The black in his eyes were no longer seen, only but an constant white torment his skull. In his mind he could not think of his mother or his brother, only the pure agony that came from this creature and the boy.

On the back of the Morlak La'sion rode out into the wilderness, leaving his mother , his father and his temporal guardian . He had no sense of remorse, nor did he ever once thought of his beloved mother .
“Sir! The Mondus Calvary is overwhelming on the left pallaside!” One of the guardsman shouted. The wavering lieutenant paced back and forth contemplating what to do. The pressure engulfed him, and he stuttered out “ Retreat! Hell with the Sions, lets get out of here!”
To this, the freshly picked guardsman who were still green in the trade all abandoned their posts and ran for their lives. The veteran guards look dazed at their cowardice acts, and some grabbed unto fleeing guardsman, and pierced some sense into them. “Cowards will be killed! I will kill all you little bastards if you decide to leave my side!If I die I won't die alone!”One of the more experienced guardsman exclaimed. He held onto his unique weapon, Silver tongue it was called. A ranged weapon hard to find in the southern part of the Neblu'es. This weapon was powered by a small portion of the blackstar , it was of the lowest grade, however, it brought terror to those in front of it. He aimed upon one of the the charging Mondus riders and shot a projectile. It struck , and punctured the tough skin of the warrior. Tan colored liquid discharged out of its skin, and he bellowed out in spasm. Still mounted, the Mondus rider sprung over the pathetic Pallaside wall and speared this veteran in the chest cavity. The Mondus rider then turned towards the others and screeched something like a war-cry to tell other riders to do the same. He raised his battle spear into the air, to show he had no fear of these humans. One by one, the wall was taken, and the remaining guards were bundle together like firewood with no where to run but death. “what do we do !?I don't want to die!” The lieutenant who failed to escape reached for a vial in his inner pocket and began to drink it. “ No! Don't!” it was too late. He dishonorably took his own life , for the fear was too great in him, he would rather take his own life then to die by the Mondus. The guards were gathered together like sheep without a Sheppard, and they waited there premature death.
The most decorated Mondus rider, Va'lus, dismounted and advanced on them like a wolf to the lambs. “ Where is the boy!?” The Va'lus shouted.
He then swiftly ran to one of the guards and spiked him in the skull. Others screamed in terror and where taken back in despair. “where is the BOY!?” his voice echoed , and shuddered the spirits of the men.
“ sir...” a young guard replied. “Speak up boy!” It grabbed unto his light Armour and lifted him up into the air like he was merely a piece of cloth. The Mondus , had dark green eyes and had no iris to mention. It had similar features like humans,but the main difference was in their size, and the lack of the white in their eyes. On his shoulder he mounted the skulls of warriors who have fallen in battle, the skulls of his friends and family who had joined him in an honorable fight in the past. On his chest, he had the rough skin of a fully matured Morlak. When an Morlak is matured, its skin through metamorphosis become like steel, but yet more flexible then leather. A prized possession for the likes of any creature with a mind. To hunt a a fully grown Morlak and take its skin was the greatest test of a warrior for a Mondus. So this decorated warrior ,though not a leader, was respected amongst his members.
“Die.” The Mondus snapped the guards neck and rushed unto the next. “where is the boy!?”He interrogated. As this young man choked, he replied strenuously . “ he … left... with ...” The strain was much to great for his tiny neck, so he passed on to the other life. The mondus spoke in their native tongue, and immediately, the surrounding riders charged towards the men and began to slaughter them one after another. Only moments later, it became quiet, with only few Mondus riders injured. The shame of being injured was to great for some, and if their hands were slightly blemished , they used their blades to cut it off. They felt it was better to lose an arm, then to be scraped by a lowly creature such as the humans.
“Look for him. Now!” Va'lus commanded. So they grunted with agreement and commenced searching for the boy.

The black star(the escape)chapter 1-part 3

2010-02-28T22:22:00.000-08:00

(previously on Black star!)The guard shouted “madam! I was order to get you to safety, I cannot let you leave this place! We must get to the safe grounds designated by your husband” She strained to get out of his hold, but soon gave up due to his empowering grip. “ I apologize madam, but we must get out” she pleaded with him to take only her son, and that hes make sure her son is safe. Ultimately the guard looked far behind her to see if anyone would see his subordination, and without looking at the mother he grabbed unto the child and ran straight into the shadows.(end)

The stale winds blasted upon the child's face as the guard rushed out towards the speck of light. The foot steps grew louder and louder as the light gradually got brighter. “we are almost there!” after what seemed like an eternity, the guardsman finally reach the outer walls. Their eyes coiled like the eyes of snakes, and when there vision came back into focus, they saw what was in front of them. The Guard quickly dropped the boy to his feet, and as he slowly backed off he pulled the knife out from his boots and handed it to La'sion. “use it on your self boy if it gets you... don't let it get you boy”
As he spoke those words , he used his shaking hands to slowly reach for his sword. He then gently circled around it, painfully creeping to take his sword out of his unresponsive hilt. Sweat dripped down his face like the waterfalls of Relan'je Creetlands, souring his vision with salt and water. In his mind he thought about his untimely death, and why he was in this predicament to begin with. He only joined the guard to support his family, his mother and two younger brothers. He has never been to war, nor seen a blood of another man. Fresh in his trade, and yet he wondered why he must die in this manner.
The creature slowly lurked towards them, half its body still in the ground. Its thousands legs waved upon the light in perfect sequence, as it made noises as if taking two organs and squeezing them together. It's hundreds eyes dawned upon La'sion , and la'sion stared back with its dark hazel eyes.

“Its a Morlak, my dad let me keep one , but we had to let it go because it got to big” The guardsman looked astonished with a hint of hope. “ you know what this creature is!?Please tell me this is that same creature” La'sion shrugged and replied “I don't think so...”
The creature seemed to not pass a certain boundary, and looked upon the two with curiosity more then with malice. La' sion slowly passed over the guards defending arms and went near the creature. “no wait, don't go!”
The Morlak raised its body up and bent its back as if it was going to strike. Then suddenly, the little boy with the dark brown hair ran towards the Morlak and jumped on it's back.He exclaimed with joy and said. “ its you! So this is where you were!” Then the Morlak stared into the eyes of La'sion and spoke into his mind. “ may I eat this man?will it bother you?”. To that La'sion replied, “ yes please, eat him”
The guardsman sighing with relief turned around to grab his fallen coat. He had regained his spirits, and had a renewed hope of survival. As he knelt down to grab the coat, the Morlak lunged towards him piercing his spine with its gruesome teeth. The Morlak's several breathing passage ways scrunched up, as the muscled jawline engorged twice its size. The guardsman's blood ruptured out of him and started to gush out black liquid like if it was Ink. Writhing in pain, the guardsman attempted to twist his body around to see the creature, only to see La'sion enjoying this appalling event. The second crushing bite left the guard immobilized and approaching death.
La' sion then climbed down the Morlak's many scales, and petted the carapace of the creature.
“ Boy, what … is the meaning... of this...” he spoke with grievance as blood spilled out of his mouth.
“I wanted to see your blood, This Morlak let me see your insides.”he replied indifferently.
La'sion then knelt down near his wounded gash and stuck his small hands to reach in for his liver. “AHHH!” screamed The guardsman in unbelievable pain. In his mind entered a thought. “ why am I not dying!? This is more then any man can bear!” As the little boy continued to invade his bodily organs, The Morlak behind them drooled, and impatiently squirmed to feast upon the body.
Dreadful moments later,La'sion pulled out his little hands out with a piece of liver and squeezed it between his tiny fingers and said to him.“ I hear you ,you know... Morlak is keeping you alive , so La'sion can play with you” The black in his eyes were no longer seen, only but an constant white tormenting his skull. In his mind he could not think of his mother or his brother, only the pure agony that came from this creature and the boy.

to be continued

The black star (minisode)chapter one part2

2010-02-27T15:24:00.000-08:00

Early morning, the Relan'je birds soared through the misty sky and screeched a fair good morrow. It was quite chilly , and the wind had a hint of sharpness. “ La' sion! Be careful!” shouted his mother in shock. In front of a tall poised women rushing to his aid, was a small boy with his knees scraped with blood. “la'sion...be more careful when playing with the other children! Tell me you will keep your wits about you!” Madam Hotoko took a clean rag and began to patch up her child. There had to have been a sharp pain, but the little boy shed no tear, nor did he show a sign of any discomfort. He only just stared at the dripping blood, admiring the colors of crimson and red. Moment his mother finished patching him up, his face lite up with joy and rushed to mingling with his village friends.
“ Children grow up so fast don't they?” Madam Hotoko said to her maid. “Yes Madam, they sure do.” The maid momentarily stopped to give her the answer and continued cleaning the house. The corridor where she stood was narrow and very dark. There on the wall were hung pictures of previous masters of the house, starting from the very first Sion, to the very recent.
The family tree was a complicating one for the Sions, but it was regulated, and made sure the blood stayed purest by forced partnership with relatives two generations off. The most recent son was looked down upon, due to everyone believing his blood was in the impurest form. La'sion, the Tainted one. La, the word used to describe, insects and things of the dirt.,A name sorrowfully implanted to a young boy.

Now the Sions were the first to make an alliance with the original inhabitants . Still, they do not know much about these mysterious natives, but the Sions managed to have some sort of peace with them. However, The Mondus , have been actively arming themselves bringing unease throughout the cities of the southern Neblu'es.
“La'sion, get in here at once!” his mother shouted from afar. The weather was growing sinister, and the trees seemed to hollow out signs of warning. Even, the birds in the sky no longer cawed and scarcely seen in this suddenly gloomy day. The guardsmen outside the Relan'je pallaside were on alert, and they closely gripped their swords and spears.
“ mother what is going on?” la'sion asked. She slightly caressed his dark brown hair and said , “ Nothing to worry about son, i'm sure its just the weather”. She looked a little more nervous then usual, as though she knew something horrible will befall them. When she was seated on her chair with her boy, a young guardsmen came rushing into her room.“madam, hurry! Get to the chamber! We don't have much time”
“what is the meaning of this!? What is happening, where is my husband!?” The guard looked tensed ,and very unseasoned. “where is your captain!?” very hesitant he replied “ dead madam, hurry, we do not have much time”
She looked out the slight crack on the wooden walls, and fell to the floor. Outside the walls, she saw hundreds of Mondus warriors along the shadowed horizon holding their infamous sabers. The Leader of this pack was seen in the middle holding up the bloody head of the Captain of the guard. She gasped “ what do we do!? My son, get him to safety! I need to find my husband!”
The guard shouted “madam! I was order to get you to safety, I cannot let you leave this place! We must get to the safe grounds designated by your husband” She strained to get out of his hold, but soon gave up due to his empowering grip. “ I apologize madam, but we must get out” she pleaded with him to take only her son, and that hes make sure her son is safe. Ultimately the guard looked far behind her to see if anyone would see his subordination, and without looking at the mother he grabbed unto the child and ran straight into the shadows.

-to be continued-

EX'IL

2010-02-24T12:40:00.001-08:00

Dear readers,
If you read Chapter 1 mini-sode, you would know what this is. Enjoy the agony!

Chapter one. (mini-sode)

2010-02-23T18:39:00.000-08:00

Chapter one. “la' sion”

It was dusk, and autumn passed into winter swiftly. There was no longer any sunlight in the islands of the South Neblu'es. In a small island floating across the vast murky clouds, laid a rural town. “Relan'je” , a scanty city, that harbors only the most infamous pirates, bandits and the likes. In the southern part of the sky ocean, the Akaelian military have little to no jurisdiction. Those who venture into the Southern Neblu'es either come back severely crippled or they are never seen again.
As reminder to all Akaels to never venture here, the lots put the mauled faces of soldiers, impaled on floating Ex'li. These malicious inventions were used for violent servitude, soaring through the clouds holding onto the impaled ones. Circling around at a modest speed, screeching the name of the one impaled. They require no fuel, nor maintenance,and it runs until it is destroyed. These Ex'li ironically are used for household chores and carrying the heavy loads.

Relan'je, though malice in appearance, and some truth in the matter, it was a desired place to be. This was the only place there was some sort of peace, because this world was no longer safe due to the lack of the black star. War arose from all sides of Dei O'zsu . The biggest nation and the most powerful, The Akaelians, ceased control and had complete marshal law over the North, east and Tia'mathis Neblu'es. The Western Neblu'es nations outraged by the military occupancy in the sky majoris, joined together to hold off the Akaelian Army, An alliance known as the “Interception”.
This mystical substance, The black star, is the key source of all things. Without it, everything life has created would cease to function. It is the fuel, and the energy that lifts the Islands in the sky, and also because of its addictive nature of its aura, it is now a definite requirement of the body. Without a good balance of the aura, no food nor drink can ever satisfy the body. Although the substance it self is naturally made , it needs the engineering of humans to make use of its power.
In the midst of all these troubles, and trials, a son is born in the rural town of Relan'je.
“ Madam Hotoko, you have a healthy young boy!” The Midwife of the house exclaimed with joy. “let me hold him” weakly spoke the mother. The Boy looked healthy , and fair. His name would soon become, La' sion.

Veous, ABA.

2010-02-23T13:29:00.001-08:00

Dear Readers,

The cold breeze swept across the cheeks of Veous, chilling his spine down to the balls of his feet. His eyes barely stayed opened as the harsh winds of the northern sky blasted upon his face. The white foams of the North Neblu'es clouds sprayed across the rails, instantly turning the clouds into water across the deck. The substances in which makes all things work, the black star was centered in the mast , maintained and regulated by the officers. Regulated due to the addictive nature of its aura...
The crew on the other hand, worked their stations steadfast and tirelessly, as they all moral-fully gazed on the shadow that would eventually show home. Staring into the endless clouds of sea , Veous shouted to his men. " Almost home lads, almost home!"
The crew members of The Triton cheering held their spirits high ,as the magnificent floating island approached them in the horizon. Boasting its bustling market, and bountiful citizens, it was most definitely the ideal spot to squander anyones riches. This was the home they longed for. For much too long they've been sailing the skies and stars. Traveling high above the Eqitas, the highest point, the end of the world many seem to believe.
The Triton, once ventured out in to the wilds of the southern Neblu'es as well,where the treacherous Behemoths saunter. With the infamous , Captain Veous Claire at the helm, Their adventure never ceased to end. He who is known as "The Crimson stone".

La Sion

2010-02-22T15:56:00.001-08:00

Dear Readers,
To give a short background on the two rivals... La'sion and Veous were in the same division fighting for the Queen of Dei' O'zsu. Veous was the ranking officer in the queen's military, though they technically had the same rank, Veous was superior by years in experience at the time. In those days,Veous carried the Black Class vessels, since it was issued, after your first promotion to captain(Also, the red class ship haven't been invented just yet).

La'sion , he is utterly cold. He doesn't hesitate to kill women and children to get things done, Thus the eventual break up between the two characters. Veous , though a roughneck and gritty in appearance, he is actually a very caring and virtuous man. He will put his own life on the line to save a group of the innocence. He then captured the opportunity to become a deserter and Soon became the captain of "The Triton".He became a pirate with No master , but a full bounty over his head. He is like Robin hood in a sense... steals from all the evil aristocrats and shares the loot with the poor.
However, La sion... He does not tarry when it comes to short cuts and vengeance. La'sion is also a ladies man ^_^.After making sweet love to him, he almost always murder the woman he thought was beautiful, and put their blood in his vial"s" with their name written on them. He takes a vial out once every battle and takes a sip of the girl of choice. He believe it gives him good luck.Any who, thats all for now.

-TenchiJk-

Captian Veous Clair.

2010-02-22T01:29:00.001-08:00

Dear Reader,
This is Capt. Veous Clair. He is the commanding officer of " The Triton" , a red class vessel. He is the protagonist of my book. Can't really get into much detail with him, but he is obviously a pirate ~ yar ^_^. His leg is made of the same material used to make the "A.B.A". His rival is... if you guessed La Sion, you are correct! They are arch nemesis!
The black and the Red class vessels are up to par with one another. Only difference is, the red class vessels are non military, and it's illegally "suped up" so to speak. But, Maintenance on the Red Class ships are known to be a pain in the arse~ That why the Triton is equipped with the best maintainers around!
The black class vessel in the other hand is very straight by the book and easy maintenance. By sacrificing speed and some maneuverability , it is much more durable then its evil twin. In the long run, the Black class ships would prevail, however , life in the treacherous sky is not long lived.
Who would win? I don't know ~ they never really faced each other in the sky... yet ~

My artwork cont.

2010-02-21T00:17:00.000-08:00

Dear Reader,
This is a character that is also from my book. This is known as the "Akael Battle Armour".
To purchase one of these outstanding military-class Armour, you need to have a rank of a Sergeant or higher... If you look on his right hand ( your left) , your can see his stripes , to represent his rank and title.
The Akael Battle Armour , a.ka. A.B.A, is used only in land combat and air combat. Never have in the history of "Dei' O'zsu"(the planet in which they live)has there been an idiot who wore an A.B.A to sea. The metal in which the A.B.A is made from is man-made. One part O'zsuian steel and And two parts of the Black star( a Energy source made from humans, from different ingredients that is segregated all over the world). So what that basically means is, its useless in water. The black star disintegrates when salt touches it.Although a slow progress of slowly eating away at the black star, the metal which is intertwined receives a lot stress.Thus being completely useless over sea...not to mention you can easily drown from the weight haha. If you all want i can write you a short story about a soldier living in Dei Ozsu. If thats what you would want to read in my blog. ahah just a suggestion.

-Tenchijk-

My art work.

2010-02-20T12:16:00.001-08:00

Dear reader,

I will post my art work up for you guys~ I hope you all enjoy my artsy side. This particular "piece" is called "Hotoko"... its a "black class" pirate ship, ran by Captain La' Sion. A fictional character from my book "The Black Star".

Heart aches

2010-02-19T11:48:00.000-08:00

My love where are you? far away into the distant star you await me, fallen beneath the oceans you hold your breath and wait. Waiting for my kiss of breath to set you free from you bounds and troubles. My love don't hold weary , for I am here by your side always and always. Into eternity, pass the cosmos and far beyond the endless galaxy. I await thee.
My love where are you? do not stay away from me, the pain is far more then I can ever bear. You are my soul, my spirit, and my eternal bliss. My love don't you be afraid of what you cannot see, or cannot touch. There are always new adventures and visions you will venture with me. Do not be sorry , or apologize for not being there with me my love. My heart is an ocean to hold your misery and sorrows. My soul is a cave ready to be warmed with your fire, so do not tarry any longer and come to me.

love,
TenchiJK

Haters in the world

2010-02-18T05:51:00.000-08:00

Dear Reader,
It seems , much of late, I've been bombarded with hate mail. Though people say its a "good" thing to receive hate mail, since you mentally grow stronger from it. I honestly can't say it doing me much good. Since i'm able to write my feelings , I guess I can be more honest...

Recently, i've been getting emails from "poser" fans. They act like they are for me,yet their comments and private messages are subtly filled with despise and hate. Some even comment on the fact I lost my friends in the military as such a minuscule event in my life. While others, who are the more obvious trolls, bash on my Asian heritage, and also for the fact I speak out for black women.
They continuously state how moronic it is to not stick up for your own race, but for an other. And trust me when I say, it's not pretty none the least what they say to me. On the average i get about 200-300 messages/comments a day, and out of that, 50-60 are hate mail. They are much clever how they do it these days. They title it " HEY TENCHI!" , and when i open it , its says " you chinky eyed mother-...."
Personally, I am losing my strength, and I am losing hope little by little. Maybe I need a break from people peering through my life and judging me. My first intentions of you-tube was to use it as an outlet of my frustration and anger. However, as I saw others receive hope and joy from it, i decided to turn around my anger and use it for producing hope. But, in the process, i've lost my outlet of anger and frustration.
I live my daily life just like I used to in the past , just without a way of emptying my sorrows and anticipations. I do apologize for my posts as of late, I'm in a state of hopelessness , and i'm very weary. Like my very first video shows, I am a weak person. It's funny how the world,through the lens, sees me as a strong ,mentally courageous man. However, I feel like a cat stuck in a box, with a can of tuna in front but with no can opener. Believe it or not,the cat video I made was about this . I wanted to portray how I really feel , I felt like a cat stuck in this box, a webcam . People would visit from all around the world to pet me, tease me and some might even consider buying me. But, in the end, i'm felt with bruises , scars and pain I can't even begin to show. I hope you know i'm not talking about all of you, its the few that make it hard to bare.
I hope in the months to come, you all can see the better me. I hope in the years to come i can show you my success. For now, have mercy on me my lovely viewers... I am but a straw, ready to break.
On a lighter not, those of you who have supported me thus far, I thank you truly with all my heart, its people like you that make my life actually worth living. Thank you once again, and I wish you all the best in your endeavors.

respectfully yours,

Tenchi JK

Angry Black Woman Pushes Black Man Into Fire Pit

2010-02-15T22:57:00.000-08:00

Dear Readers (disclaimer, cussing, anger , and that sort of SHIET present in this blog. Those of you who are easily offended, and do not like to read such material, please skip over this and wait for a normal heartfelt blog , brought to you by Tenchijk. Otherwise, enjoy.)

Okay, now.

Some douche bag hater/snob sent me a letter with a video attached today. For his safety, I will not disclose his name...
"Do you really think all black women are beautiful? Powerful, strength, loud, bold, these are characteristics you gave black women. THESE ARE CHARACTERISTICS OF A MAN! Men are masculine, women are feminine. What man would want the characteristics of a man be embodied in a woman? Most black women are like this. You were warned."

I am a firm believer in judging the individual. I'm sure there are masculine black women... However people always seem to forget about the fact there many more who are not! Same goes with Asian people, i'm sure there are those who are cheap like the stereotype goes but Jesus Christ how can you think everyone is going to be that way?! Isn't that just insane!? Are you not sick and tired of people judging according to a group of people?! I'm utterly disgusted by some people these days, the way they view the world.
Now this douche-bag , for a lack of a proper name, sent me a video attachment as well, titled Angry black woman pushes... etc etc... Basically it was a reality show on the B.E.T . Looked kinda old, but it was my first time seeing a clip. They somehow put this one black girl on blast cause she was talking mad shit about everyone. Something about her and something about him and etc etc.
Now apparently some gay looking Hispanic dude overheard her, and started dropping his mouth like a fag that he is. He started putting her on blast saying, didn't you say this about her!? didn't you say this about him!? Now this black chick is like astonished by that guy, cause honestly who the fuck does that shit!?
For example, if I heard some girl/guy talking crap about someone else, thats HIS/HER business... shid, i'm out of that.I don't give a fuck if one person thinks the other person looks like a cow, or if that girl is too dark or too light. That ain't even something I need to know, nor do I even give a ratass.. Most likely, in my mind i'd agree with the "cow" comment in my mind and move the fuck along.
I'ma tell you right now, there is no body in this world who doesn't talk shit be hide peoples back. If you deny that ,youse a DAMN liar lol. This is where my anger comes from. I'm thinking , if this girl who talk shit happened to be this attractive white girl... shietttt, I guarenttee this motherfcukin show would have been different. That fagit-ass Hispanic dude would turn his gay rope straight then a motherfucka. But, nahh , they WOULD put this black girl on blast ,ruining the image of ALL GOOD black women... and that shit ain't fair! I wish she DID push that punk ass in the fire and burn!
And CHHH~I LOVE how they put a black guy up on those interviews and say shit like, "yea.. she a crazy bitch, she don't know nothing yada yada..."
"thanks Kinte kunte,you punk bitch, you just betrayed your own sister, might as well call your ass Toby, you just done lost your damn mind." I'm so sick and tired of this damn media!!

You know what this video reminded me of? Remember when youse kids, y'all would gather around in a circle, and miss Peggy, or deacon Emily or some shit would give a prayer right? And allll the little girls and allll the little boys would bow there heads and pray right?
Then THISSSS motherfucker would say " TENCHI DIDN'T CLOSE HIS EYES WHEN YOU WERE PRAYING MISS PEGGY!" Then i would say... " you dumbass, how did you see me when you were closing your eyes? its cause you didn't ethier!" and we'd both get in trouble. What i'm trying to say is people are hypocrites, and its such a bug!
This video ,and that douche-bags comment just ruined my whole damn day... I will continue to support y'all black women to stand strong and overcome these nasty ass people. The more and more I look around, the more I see haters. The thing i hate the most is , the media, a.k.a rich ass white folks target the black women who are on the brink. The ones who are done lost there minds and THEN put their damn camera in their faces. What the HELL do you expect!? Shit, ruin MY life for about 20+ years,and then put a camera in my face ,watch what I do!I WOULD push a faggit ass Spanish dude in the fire pit too! For being a little snitch that is... In the air force we have a quote , "snitches get fuckin stitches!"

Okay for a more calmer approach. The black girl in the video DID wrong ,that is true. However, people always, always forget to put themselves in that same context. What would you have done in that same situation... and the answer is simple, push that dude in the fire. Even white boy joey at home be saying ,YESSSS!! All i'm saying, is that the media bs is getting hella old... like Barbara bush old. Like nasty ass , no teeth using fake marble teef old. Whew... I guess my anger is a bit subdued.. but write to me, what y'all feel about that? Was I wrong? should I have been on the latter? Is me being on the black women side clouding my judgement? I honestly don't know, but what i honestly do know is that the media is U.N.F.A.I.R (unicorn not fucking anymore in regions) <==== out of tenchis ass JUST now.. strike of a GEEENIOUS. lol~ jkjk... anyways, any comments, feed back would be appreciate it. Sorry if I offended anything, but thats just how i felt.

-TenchiJk-

Most embarrassing moment of my life.

2010-02-11T21:59:00.000-08:00

Dear readers,
Wasup, tenchiJK here. I want to tell you one of the most embarrassing moments of my life.
This miserable ass moment happened in my middle school years.
It was a fair afternoon, where my friends and I decided to go to the park for some recreation and fun. I , at the time ,was a Rollerblade fanatic, so naturally I had my pimp-ass blades on.
Now, after we skated around, shoot some hoops and ate our little capri-sun drink pouches I had the most idiotic idea ever. Near us, there were these steep hills , almost vertical if you ask me now... But, i felt like i could blade down it and land safely on the concrete below.. My bastard friends didn't even once think to tell me, " BROOO, DON't DO IT MAN~ YOUR GONNA GET FUKKKED UP"... nope.. they just said, "huuu durr, no what cha gotta do man". So I Used my ninja fingers to grab unto the trees to go up this steep hill... and I looked down.
Where do i get the nerve?! But i actually said, okay , here we go... I wonder now, was I fearless or just a moron? So anyways, I rolled my sorry ass down the hill.. and bam. There goes my legs...
My friends at the time was just killing some time at the park, so to go to a Lakers games later on.. they had tickets and everything. However, because of my accident, they had to stay and watch over me. I laid there screaming and crying.. " AHHH IM GOING TO DIEEE..." I stayed there laying for about 3-4 , and it became very dark.. They obviously missed their laker game because of my pansy ass...
Eventually they called my dad, and when he came.. He told me to get the fuck up. I acted like , "ugghh, ugghhh.. i can't dad..." and he looked at me with his scary beady eyes and told me.. get up. Shiet, I never stood up faster in my life...My friends were like, WTFFF!!!????? ThisSSSSSSS motherfucker~
Now comes the embarrassing part.. I really was hurt, just not as much as I exclaimed lol. So my father took me to a friends house who happened to be a nurse. This nurse was a friend to the family, and i happened to be best friends with her two sons, James and Andrew.
Because i ended up spraining my ankle, and some pain in my thighs... she told me to take my pants off to "examine" me.
On a normal day, i wouldn't give a rat ass about taking my pants off.. i'm a boxer kinda dude, so it would have been A okay with me. However, that day...I ran out of boxers.. and i only had one clean underwear... and that happened to something i wore when i was in elementary school. 101 dalmatians. Thats all i have to say.. motherfuckin Cruelela de'vil on my ass and everything. The underwear was fighting to keep my junk in place as well, being that its pretty much a baby underwear. Just when I was getting patched up, those two boys came in ...laughing their faces off. I , till this day.. get called spots.

-TenchiJK-

Dreams

2010-02-11T05:54:00.000-08:00

What is love? Do we feel love beneath our skin? Just crawling throughout ,wishing to escape the prison its bonded to? What can we do when that love beckons you? Do you captures it's soul and follow through.. Or do you let it leave the grasp of you fingertips, as the love you once saw safely fly away in to the horizon?
Truly what is love ? Sincerely, truthfully, and honestly I come to you asking for a way, and guidance so I can sense this virtuous deity.

I feel this rush of joy, yet surrounded by mist of doubt and confusion. The steps of clouds seem to hold my weight, only be be broken as I continuously travel up north. Do I search for this love? until my angel wings fall, and become the one I started out as ....?

Love will always be there ..perhaps it's always been waiting, yearning for someone to knock at its door. Emotionally and spiritually,I await thee , oh love .

To act or Not to act?

2010-02-10T23:21:00.000-08:00

Dear readers,
Yo whats good? Actually, since i'm writing, I should be more civilized and say, "how art thou doest" pffft~ Bitch please, I do what i whuant~ lol I kid i kid.
Okay , so today... I had an opportunity to be part of a Church play. A bit nervous, because the place we doing this at, is a ridiculous ass place. A place called " E-bel theathre". Fits about 2000 people or so, perhaps i'm exaggerating, but it fits at least a thousand. Heres the conflict though... Have you ever WANTED the main character role, but for the sake of acting humble, some other fool takes your spot? lol, kinda what happened today.

- my arrogance-
" Tenchi should definitely play "Andy"(the main character) " said almost everyone. Shiet , In my mind , I was like, ahhh shiet~~ a good opportunity to have some experience in this acting beeezznax. But...my dumb-ass was like " omg.. thats scary.. i dunno..if I ..." (damnit, let me finish,kanye west my ass thats what happened.)"Tenchi, i'm happy for you.. but.."
I should have dragged it a bit less, so that other dude don't got the time to act-block me.
This raggedy ass fool said. " I'll do it , I think i can do it" immediately these communists just turned there backs on me and said, "yea~ that could work too I suppose".

-My epiphany-
Funny how people act humble outwardly, but in fact , that act of humbleness actually comes from an superior arrogance. I realized today how proud my heart really was, and how I continuously fooled myself into thinking, i'm actually a humble dude.

I kinda imagined what God saw IN me today. Sure in humanistic standards I was the humble,shy and timid guy. However in front of God, I could not hide my obvious arrogance... I thought it was an obvious choice to pick me, I felt the most qualified, but those thoughts would only hinder the team, not support it. I was rowing left ,when our team boat needed to steer right.
Its funny how self discovery seriously lowers your heart towards him. The more you see yourself deep within, the more you discover the Lords grace , mercy and of course Love. Without him, all i'd be is dust.

So, In a much lighter , less religious note... i'm pretty excited to be able to get some acting experience. I've always wanted to act, and I always wanted to be in front of thousands of people. Wouldn't it be exhilarating, for thousands , maybe even millions of people staring at your every move. Holding their breath until you lay your lines down, and some may even keep thier eyes open just so they don't miss your every hand movement.
That my friends, would be ecstasy ON some bomb-ass pills , and then lite up, and shot out of a cannon... YES, THAT EXHILARATING, don't judge me lol. And sprayed with a champagne bottle with t-pain music in the back~-- TTttT--PPAiinNNNn--

Anyways, that was my lovely day in a nutshell... some ups, some downs, some epiphany, and a rebirth of hope,and a good sense of humbleness on my shoulders. Have a beautiful day.

yours truly,

TENCHIJK

Beauty discovered.

2010-02-09T23:56:00.000-08:00

Dear Reader,
HAN. A word we use to describe a strong , unexplainable feeling. If I could list a few things that might come close to slightly touching its meaning , I would state: Pain, suffering, wanting, pride..
There are two characters in this world who share this word .
They are the Asian males, and the Black Females. Truly the most misunderstood out of all characters in our Story book, called Life. Perhaps, it is our fate, or some might say destiny to follow this difficult path. Not to fall, but to get up and grow stronger. Perhaps we are the ones to fight the greater fight, while others may rest. Perhaps we are the ones who become the beacon of hope when others lose the light. Whatever it may, we sincerely walk a difficult path.

My fellow sisters, I truly understand what you go through in your life. Many might take my word as it is, the truth. However, Some may take it with skepticism. The easiest way for you all to understand is to explain my life , perhaps you may be able to relate to me.

Growing up, i couldn't stand myself. I saw absolutely no beauty in me... While I dumbfoundly sat in school, My mind would wander , looking only at the eyes of other kids. "how big his/her eyes are" I would say. "So much color in their eyes...such a beautiful shape" .
Has anyone taught me what beauty was? Has anyone explained to me what a beautiful eye looks like? YES! they have! Countlessly in the school yard, kids my ages would point and laugh. With little girls in the background grinning,and shouting out hurtful names... all because i had Almond shaped eyes, that it was a tad big smaller then theirs. How I dreaded my Brown, simple eyes... I remember sitting in my closet. Crying to myself, why , oh why was I born the way I was? Why did no one find me beautiful? Even the teachers who would come to my rescue looked like the very people that cursed me.
I lost my self daily, walking around morbidly, feeling inferior without an reason or cause. Just pitiful, and ugly in my own filth i felt..
I'd come home , wanting to escape my awful reality, then I would turn on the Tv. Only to find idiotic Asian men about my age now, prancing and dancing... making awkward noises of birds, and eyes seemingly more slanted for the sake of humiliating Asians. Orientals they called them , "people who are not like the west". I lost hope ladies and gentleman.. at such a young age, I lost beauty.

However, time surely did pass. Not as gently as some may have, but time surely did pass. What I gained was my God in heaven, who showed me over time the beauty in his creations. Everything in which he personally created , had reason, and purpose. My purpose was through my experience , shed some light . That , there IS beauty in Gods creations. Whether it be , Asian males, or black females, we have so much beauty in us if only we'd stop fighting amongst each other and start to realize it. No more can we waste our breath cursing one another, no more can we shout at our sisters, and our brothers and say You are not beautiful.
No sisters, you are beautiful. Walk slower, stand up straight and wear your smile with elegance and beauty. Beauty is there and we will send this message to our children, and to our children's , children.

Stay strong, elegance, and beautiful

Yours truly,

TENCHIJK

First post of the Year.

2010-02-09T23:08:00.000-08:00

Dear readers,
I've always wanted to write. Never really had an audience who would actually take the time and read what I had to say though. I'm sure a lot of people in this world have millions of things to say, just bundled in their brain, just screaming to let loose. However, there is no one to listen to them... thats kinda how I felt for the longest time.
But, wow.. through the power of motherfucking youtube mang, people be listening, and maybe now y'all might read along too! I honestly don't know what i'd do without the tools to communicate! I'd feel deaf even if I COULD talk, just moving my fingers thats all i'd be doing lol.
Anyways, just like you guys watch my videos, I hope y'all give my writing a shot... Okay for now, this is it lol, but soon, when I start getting used to this , i'll post some good ol material.

yours truly ,

TenchiJK